This is what I've got logged

Today was such a good food day. I meal prepped spaghetti w/ beef and chicken for the week and they both came out so good and filling I didn't even have the urge to binge. Maybe heavy lifting has been improving my mood ☺️

I wonder if the food service workers know that all that food is gonna be inside of me within in hour

Vomited and my upper abdomen feels so fucked

They weren't that great but I ended up binging on left over foods and I feel like throwing up

Urge to binge so strong I'm making my own cupcakes. (Not following a recipe I'm just guesstimating measurements and maybe they'll come out so bad it'll stop my binge)

Thinking about chicken biscuits and how good they are but if I had one in front of me I'd cry and throw it away

Binged and threw up and oretty sure im getting signs of food poisoning but I still managed to do weight exercises for a little bit before bed

Does it make me bisexual if the only man I've felt attracted to is a fictional character 🤔 He's also like the least conventionally attractive and purposely written to be a pussy but he's like baby girl and kind of sassy

I don't wanna cut in order to stop eating, I don't wanna smoke in order to stop eating, I just want to be able to portion myself properly and not think about food so obsessively

I'm falling apart vacation week started but I just know I'm gonna gain like 20 pounds from eating and eating g and eating I'm so tired I really want to start smoking again but it's a disgusting habit

God I really need some cigarettes

How do you starve without food being on your mind every second of the day until you inevitably binge

Starting to feel like there's genuinely no reason to continue befriending people or trying to meet new people. It's all the same disappointment and becomes repetitive so quickly

Who on here posts thinspo frequently I really need some

I lost control again

Fuck i feel so disgusted jn myself and sad and nauseated but I think it's just the alcohol wearing off 💀

If you live in a somewhat safe area and aren't afraid to walk outside pokemon go is a great way to get your steps in. I bring my brother with me and we usually spend like an hour or more outside walking/cycling

TMI but gooned and the thought of having a beautiful gf and being happy and loving together almost felt good and then made me sick to my stomach

I feel so disgusted but I'm surprised I was able to stop before it got as bad as usual

Even before a binge happens I can already feel my heart wincing. I'm worried but I csnt stop

Was out all day today to avoid dad and now I feel so sick and tired 🧍

I'm scared of binging so I avoid eating too much but then if I restrict it triggers binging it's a viscious cycle I'll never get out of

Is it normal to feel sick after eating one of these

Been cycling for 5 days now and so far I've been doing good. Hope I can continue this for as long as possible. It's been helping me avoid binging

I went cycling and im Gonna try fasting tomorrow🤞let's see how it goes.

Meal prepping so far has been working

Didn't overeat today.. I'm doubtful cuz this always happens around the start of my period and it's not just me learning self control. I'll probably start overeating or binging in like 3 days. Let's hope not 🙏

I also haven't been throwing up or cutting or drinking as of late. Just the usual overeating

I'm ready to start meal prepping... (if I actually manage to wake up early tomorrow to shop and cook🐎🐎)

Always so uncontrollably hungry and then I remember I haven't had a single sip of water

Why couldn't I have the same metabolism of a 13 year old boy 🧍

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We just played video games, watched a movie, and got to cuddle with her pets 🥳 couldn't bring myself to feel anyrhing romantic so even as friends this was okay

I went on the date and we didn't hookup. Honestly glad I didn't it made me realize I actually have some sort of self respect left, enough to not have sex with just anyone

I pro a ly shouldn't cyt myself the day before a hookup but idk I'll just wear a long sleeve

There's no fixing myself. I'm gonna return back to work in a few days and be my usual self and I'll see myself in the mirror and see the ugly disgusting monster that I am

Anytime I see a beautiful face I csnt help but want to end it all

It's 1:49am and I'm feeling hungry FUCK

Didn't throw up , didn't binge, and didn't cut today. Tomorrow? Who knows

The more I read of the side effects of eating disorders the less I care and the more I want to continue doing them. I've fully given up on myself, or at least accepted that it won't get any better than this

I feel sick. I'm just getting worse.

Made plans with the woman I've been talking to. I honestly don't want to but I need the experience and hopefully I don't freeze up and if it does happen she doesn't expect a relationship cuz we already agreed it wouldn't be long term 🙏

I wonder if I threw up again but just had the shower on and music playing anyone would hear me

Want to cut myself but afraid that if I do only grease will spill out

It's like I experience the 7 stages of hell all at once everytime I look into a mirror. I really want to die

I really wanna kms

Should a stranger even be my first time or does it not matter 😭

I really want to feel the touch of another woman but whenever I am presented with a real lesbian that's dtf I get intimidated cuz i have 0 experience and Don't know how to flirt and how do I even bring it up EVEN THOUGH THEY SAID THEY WERE DTF WHENEVER