I have news. The good news is that I've found a new job where I can work more hours and earn more. The bad news is that I have to put the shop on the back burner more than it already is. Plus, my personal circumstances haven't completely resolved so I still have to take it easy creating articles

And the last one. Strawbarky

Number 4 is done😊 Say hello to Mangwoef

Number 3 is also finished. Say hello to Waftermelon.

I've managed to secure a table for Collectors Garden on October 31st/November 1st. This will be the first con I'll be attending alone with my booth. I'm very nervous and hope it all goes well.

My next project is here too. I'm still working slowly, but we'll get there. Meet Bluebarkey

It's been a while, but I'm still busy with everything and picking myself up again. But the first new art ideas have been made, of which 1 is already finished. Meet Bawnana

Back home from a few days of vacation. I really needed the rest after everything that happened. After today I will slowly pick up things for the shop again.

I have been walking around with pain in my arm, shoulder and neck for a few weeks. Because of this I have not been able to find motivation to work on my shop. It's getting better, but I still have severe pain 24/7 and I am already happy can sleep normally again. 🥲

I have decided to slowly start a small shop again. After all the circumstances I finally had time for myself and I miss it very much. I will also sell MelonoSellsArt items, but they will probably not be made again. But I would prefer to eventually make and use my own art.

It's official. My ex has filled out the deregistration form for our apartment and sent it in. We've made some agreements, but whether I'm happy with them... We'll just have to make do.

After 3 months of silence I finally spoke to my ex and heard him on the phone. Have I made any progress? No.......Do I know where I stand? A little bit but still insecure.......Do I miss him? Still every day.

Received a message that unfortunately I did not receive the apartment. I was already afraid of it, but I still had a little hope. Now let's continue searching with even less hope.🥲

I've been alone before, but I still feel really lonely now. I don't feel like doing anything, I prefer to work my ass off so that time passes quickly and I can lie in bed and cry again, and yet I stupidly keep hoping when my hope doesn't come true.

Last night I dreamed about my first ex.......And now I'm wondering whether I should contact him again......I often see dreams as a sign, so this too, but I don't dare.

I don't want to be seen as pathetic, but I still want to say it. I cry myself to sleep every night. That's not healthy, is it?

I have a feeling I won't get the apartment. We have to wait a little longer, but my gut tells me it's not going to happen.😐

Today the final result will be whether I will get the house. I'm really going to pray that I get it, but I'm so afraid it won't happen after all......😭

I have another viewing next week, only this time bigger than the first. I hope I have a chance to win this one, because I will be living near my parents.

I have received another invitation for an apartment viewing. Please let me get through this one.

Should I message him? Or keep my mouth shut forever? It kills me.

I should hate you, I should be angry with you, I should stop thinking about you and certainly not love you anymore. But I can't. Instead, I wish you the best, I wish you happiness and I hope that things go well for you. I still miss you with so much pain.

Sometimes I still miss you. I miss your friendliness around me and the feeling that I am understood, because you know so much about me that if I ever needed a shoulder, I could turn to you, but unfortunately. I hope you find yourself again and someone else who makes you happy like you did for me.

Okay, I'm 30 now......Do I feel different? Yes, I got the flu and my back hurts......🤣

Bought an early birthday present for myself. A cute bracelet with a charm from my furbabies. Set by the great @seapandamako.bsky.social

Unfortunately what I already thought. The apartment is so small that I can't take 80% of my stuff with me. Now let's keep looking and hope that my Ex doesn't find anything either. If he finds something, I have even more worries.

Tomorrow a viewing of a small apartment. I'm so curious if it's something....🥲

Too busy looking for a house, cleaning up, working, taking care of the animals and trying to get myself together. Some days are still tough, but we are slowly getting there.

I think a wanna start streaming again, but a had to buy a new computer so my setups are gone. Its gonna take some time but yeah........

Look how cute🤩 my little family. Made by @nancoven.bsky.social

Happy New Year everyone ❤️

The evenings are the hardest. I am very grateful that I still have my animals, otherwise I would not have made it at all.

How can you irritate me? My ex has left, so I have to close the shop and make the last orders, but every time I want to log in I have to enter a code that comes via text message. And guess who gets the text.......

Busy clearing everything out and trying to resell what is left of my webshop. I have a lot of trouble with this and still can't believe that this has to happen this way.

Due to terrible private circumstances, it is with great sadness and pain that I have to close our webshop. I have a 50% discount on everything until December 13th, so if you still want something, be quick and help me out with some extra money.💔😭 www.melonosellsart.com #breakupp #sad #pain #stress