i forgot im schizoaffective bipolar type nvm it makes sense again

ive tried so hard

my mind is slipping once more

stupid

why

i want to be good but im not

does it even matter

i feel like i exist in a pit that nobody looks into

having a roughly 3-4% engagement rate (for likes) on my main leaves me really depressed. i know numbers donw matter. but it just really stings when this seems to be what happens to me everywhere i go

i miss old deviantart. i hate this place. i hate it. i hate timeline based feeds. i hate how messy and cluttered and disorganized and buried everything is. i hate it so much. i hate it.

i want that stupid catboy buried in my back yard

a lot of the time i just feel like no matter what i do, nobody will like what i make

finally moved all the nsfw over to @rovdkill.bsky.social

Please stay from away from harm Stay in my open arms ft. @anxxero.bsky.social #renashira ✦ #leokallios ✦ #renaisshots

i still gotta move all the nsfw onto the other account

sometimes i feel like i annoy people into unfollowing me on my main acc bc i cant shut up and my arts too weird and i cant shut up and i cnat shut up and i cant shut up

probably gonna repurpose this account. i want to use this handle for smthn else nsfw will be put on a difft acc once i get around to that