vittrose subplot: what if we learned how to be vulnerable and trust someone with the worst parts of ourselves... together :) ciardha subplot:

some more details about amby's self-healing abilities #oc:ambrose

i love writing the midway point of their relationship ajhsdhjga #oc:vittore #oc:ambrose

idk if it's because of some irl stress but most of my ambrose thoughts the past 2-3 days have been just the worst. all dark and violent stuff. vittore come get your mans he's being an edgelord

most normal family dynamic #oc:ambrose #oc:ciardha

i actually think ciardha would be jealous of the positive attention vittore gets from ambrose to the point where they'd act out in petty but harmless ways. like by breaking their spaghetti in half before boiling it. everyone can hear vittore crashing out in italian from across the street

i found some old sketchbooks today and had a good laugh 2009 -> 2025 (i think) #oc:acerys

vittore being violently protective is cute to me in a kind of sad way bc he can't fight for shit. he has his tricks and is extremely smart, which is how he gets out of a lot of dangerous situations, but is massively outgunned by almost every other emanator

☹️ #oc:ambrose

vittore almost dies at the end of amby's personal arc and amby is distraught that he can't fully fix his injuries (one of which permanently affects one of his legs), but vittore is just like "the government can't force me to work for them anymore. this is the best day of my life."

i like reading this stuff weeks later bc in the moment i don't really think about how fucking weird ambrose is. like he's masking HARD here but his words are 100% honest

despite wishing it was easier to have an actual discussion about my ocs sometimes, i don't really feel like posting about them anywhere else. this is my journal. my audience is like 2 people (ily). this forbidden knowledge belongs to them. i don't share 90% of what i make. and one day, i will die

the new gurl... #oc:luna

ciardha

luna is an emanator too and her gnosis lets her manipulate chemical compounds... but it didn't awaken until she was already an adult, and it injured her and damaged one of her eyes. she quit pursuing medicine for Reasons and is still trying to figure out wtf to do with her life

that baby doesn't even look like me #oc:vittore #oc:luna

for some reason i keep imagining ciardha jingling whenever they move. there are no bells to speak of on their design but if you shake them around they'd sound like a christmas decoration

i think vittore's more caustic personality traits are partly a defense mechanism to keep people away from him, but i also think he was probably a pain in the ass to work with back in the day for different reasons... he was the boss who was next to impossible to impress hsdfgklfkf

ciardha/vittore cinematic parallels 1. obsessed with ambrose 2. starts shit on purpose and gets upset when blamed for it

new ridiculous drama idea: ciardha's gnosis prevents them from touching people with their hands without hurting them. anathema can suppress gnoses. those two become close. ciardha does not realize anathema nearly killed ambrose with the same exact suppression ability once

wait i missed the chance to make nice mother's day art for ambrose 💔 (she is evil and needs to stay far away from him)

i just feel sad after writing ciardha like that ajhgsjhds how do i even begin to try and have them recover from the life they've had...

this wasn't supposed to be that funny, but the mental image of amby doing all that killed me #oc:ciardha #oc:ambrose #oc:vittore

i should explore amby's capacity for violence more at some point bc he's normally very calm and collected and prioritizes technique over anything else. HOWEVER ... he has blacked out with rage more than once and turned people into a gore pile

babie #oc:ambrose

i've devised like 5 different scenarios for a love confession and i can't settle on any of them because they're both deathly allergic to saying it out loud despite showing it to each other in so many other ways. sick of these guys

reasonable response tbh #oc:ambrose #oc:vittore

writing vittrose is just a constant cycle of me being like "that was fun but i don't think i can make myself go more insane than this" and then writing something that makes me feel 20x more unhinged for them

scruffy guy problems #oc:ambrose #oc:vittore

yeah #oc:ambrose #oc:vittore

i want to put these four in a room and see how long it takes for a fight to break out #oc:ambrose #oc:vittore #oc:lionel #oc:ciardha

looking at vintage (mostly 1950s) romance art and the amount of sauce it has compared to regular pose refs is outrageous. i'm really tempted to redraw some of them ajasjdshsk

i started figuring out amby's look better when i began approaching it from the angle of "what would make his gay ass boyfriend walk straight into a wall because he isn't watching where he's going?"

wip... maybe #oc:ambrose

oh i have more on this too. rubs my evil hands together his unwillingness to vocalize/act on his feelings is purely out of compassion bc he's convinced he'll wake up one day and he'll just be empty inside again. he thinks it would be too cruel to act on it

i've more or less settled on that it can fix small injuries, potentially keep someone from bleeding out, mitigate infections, toxins etc and lessen the severity of nastier/permanent wounds, but it's not a magic cure-all because i think that's boring JHSKJDF

gay people starter guide or something #oc:ambrose #oc:vittore

vittore: i wonder if that fool thinks about me as often as i think about him... hmph... not that i care or anything... baka ambrose: (staring at a plant that's toxic enough to kill an elephant) i wonder what would happen to me if i ate this

love whatever is wrong with both of them #oc:ambrose #oc:vittore

dearly detested #oc:vittore #oc:ambrose

i made the thing, he's my kid, i birthed him etc. but the terrible part of vittore's backstory still makes me feel bad bc it's something that could actually happen. it probably HAS happened

yeah this one's going to be pretty rough. whew #oc:vittore

amby: i realized i liked you when you saw the worst sides of me and treated me like a person instead of a monster vittore: for me it was that time you nearly gutted me amby: what vittore: what

an early interaction intimidation check failed. he matches your freak #oc:ambrose #oc:vittore

ciardha really is third wheeling ambrose and vittore HARD... he's like their weird pet imp that can be found underneath the floorboards of their patio

😭 #oc:ambrose #oc:vittore #oc:ciardha

"does ambrose have an ahoge or not" i don't know. it appears when it feels like it. but i do think it increases his cuteness level by 100%

squeesh #oc:ambrose

wrote it and cried. jesus christ