two false starts on sleeping, wish trying a melatonin wouldn't likely just mess my head up more than it is...

want to be held until my stupid fucking brain can't not believe that at least one person wants me around

i wish I was strong enough to get rid of myself

I'm sure four hours of sleep over and over again is just fine right...

tried to be silly, backfired, back to feeling overwhelmed and unneeded and disregarded I guess

oh no argent's thinking about friends being walking apocalypses again get the spray bottle

paws paws paws idk...

maybe now I can sleep

so much for sleep

sleep means time to think about being close to and watched over by big cool kind gentle loving caring anthro/alien/etc.... foxes avali sergals dragons synths monsters sangheili wolves aeros xenos birds etc etc so many options to choose from...

just want someone to make me two dimensional under them... bonus points for getting the nearest few zip codes too...

woke up fixated on the idea of being tiny and getting dropped into a friend's shoe (woah wow so creative) and might just go back there mentally idk...

feels like every time I try to talk to anyone I'm just boring and awkward and have nothing to say and just waste their time...

I just kinda suck

derg small and sleepy...

it was not then, but perhaps now it is time

is 11 AM on a Sunday on low sleep really the time and place to be unhinged y/n?

wanted to say something silly or random but I'm so scared of the next month idk what to do...

my happy places are 1. being cuddled, surrounded, and pet by some cool, huge (twice my height), gentle anthro... 2. being small enough to fit in their hand and getting dropped at their paws for casual, zero-expectation worship (and maybe some firm but harmless teasing)

I cry so much getting held because all I ever want to do is sob and blubber and cry and whimper and sniffle and everything else into someone big and soft and warm and safe so I can get it all out and feel like I'm not still as alone as I was before once it's all gone

maybe don't lock in for two hours and read the emotionally charged work of fiction involving trauma and situations that you can't relate directly to but can sympathize with while you're running on low sleep, on yet another half-edible, and in an extremely emotionally vulnerable and fragile place...

think I'm still just too fragile for anything right now...tried to be social and fell apart instantly just want to be held more I guess....

I swear this isn't me

wish I could get held like that more...

I can't even cry right anymore, I can't do anything right

no wonder hardly anyone enjoys spending time with me and forget I exist I'm just a bitter boring overly needy person and always have been no matter what I've ever tried to do....

want hug, need hug... 🥺

All my cute and hot friends should be big enough to put the nearby area in great danger ty

want hug, need hug... 🥺

brain spinning doesn't feel nice bweh...

anthro size difference where they're tall enough that both feet don't fit in your lap at once so they just let you hold one at a time...

just want to be small and safe and indulge in stuff I like with someone who likes the same stuff too...

I hate crying for no good reason....

dergy headbutts you until you give him a petpat and or pick him up 🥺

huggyhuggyhuggyhuggy

smush that dergy (plz) 👉👈

Just wanna be smol and gently teased and maybe made to melt and squirm as all of my little silly buttons get pushed over and over bwehhhhhhhh.... 😭

dergy dergy dergy

I sleep...but oh great character wheel which of my blorbos will I think about this night? Begin the spinnening... 😴

I would like to be added to your inventory 🥺

🥺👉👈

so tired...

All these big fun thoughts based on ONE picture that wasn't even macro...this is your brain on Argent DX I'm sorry I just see a cute/hot OC and go "but what if they were somewhere between two and many many many times taller than they are now?" I may have a problem 😖

The macro friend who's gentle and loving towards you (although a little overwhelming and possessive) but thinks very little about anyone or anything else smaller than them. Yeah yeah "one special tiny" trope but idc it lets me be cuddly and smol while there's also stuff going crunch under them 🫠💦

want to say some freaky weirdo thirsty stuff to a friend and have them go "yeah that's hot :3"....

Feels like my destiny tonight is not to sleep after the last half dozen things that have kept me from doing so for almost two hours 😖

put the dragon (me) under someone's (your) feets 🥺

there is a drain fly or something in my room and it's unfair we don't live in a size-based society where I can have a nano SAM network to shoot it down >:(

dergy vibe time