Q: [Too long, below] A: AWWW hahah! I'm always happy when folks feel a bit more 'Themselves' after interfacing with the things I make. HA I have never been very good at being Myself paradoxically as I have a hard time settling on what that means, but I am so happy to inspire it in others.

Q: I wondered if your forms also have some sort of phantom sense IRL? Like, can you feel your tail, snout, paws, etc.? Does VR increase this sensation at all? A: I can't say I have any phantom sense! HA though I think VR may give me a liiiiilll bit? Particularly that Mac avatar with the trunk.

Imp Brain: You could make a Macaron mini-audio, that Mulligan thing took no time at all when you actually started. You could even have multiple characters, Macaron never gets to talk to anyone~ WEH I DON'T HAVE TIME... B-but what if I did?... Art by Pac

AHAH all that in that mini thread to say: The space cat and the dinosaur felt self assured, and a bit confident. *I* (Same person, but the delineation is helpful)... Feel like a whole horrible slug thing weirdo found under a rock. AHAHA, I am *happy* oddly enough, but I ain't worth two pennies.

One of the things about Bipolar Disorder, the one of my neurosis I talk about the least because people tend to be scared of it, is this kind of...emotional inertia? Like once an emotion gets inside you it just keeps...bouncing around, swinging up and down till it works itself out I hate this fact.

If you are wondering THE LEVEL OF REFUSE WE ARE TALKING... I-I still remember the Elena of Avalor episode where they become Jaquins because the studious wizard of the group becomes fascinated with his tail and keeps mentioning it outloud. I am...le'garbage you see.

forms.gle/89pUabqvmZEG... I'm off into the recording booth! Whilst I'm in there why don't you lot ask me some questions? Admittedly there's like...200+ things in there? But I am NOT digging through them after a month away and would appreciate some new, breezy queries!

I am learning through this move that I am not a very physical-object person... My storage unit is full of so many little doodads, and the only things I've really felt the need to pull out of there is stuff for work and EMOTIONALLY important things. M-my plushies...my letters...

One thing I'm mad about with the move is I had a bottle of sparkling cider I bought when that man got elected that I planned to drink when It Happens and I broke it. Though...I suppose now I can save up and buy an even FANCIER bottle of something. I also reserve the right to Charlie Brown Dance.

I hope I live to be 100 out of pure spite for the nonsense going on right now. I REALLY wanna see what people say about this 70 years from now without whatever hatred-built-blinders people have on right now to ignore the LEVEL of unabashed ego driven corruption...

Imp Brain: What do you mean? Belfort and Lupin came out 2025, you pick up comfort items like a hermit crab at a shell depot. I mean something INARGUABLY GOOD you infernal felid...Belfort and Lupin is cute but thinly written. I think if someone hates The Concierge, we can't be friends...

Hmmm...as far as 'Brain Age' PB is...not as ancient as Mulligan feels...but I still feel old and professorial...just with...WAAAYYY more self loathing. AHAHA after April there is a LOT to loath. FORTUNATELY, I tend to distract myself with work, so you lot SHOULD get one or two projects soon.

"Your tribe will be with me, until we find the tribe you truly belong to..." ... GODS DO I NEED A NEW GLUP SHITTO? *REALLY?* I am *mostly* in the he-man fandom for the snakemen and Whiplash, cringer was Bonus Content. B-but he's SO Baggy-ish... A-and that line delivery... Shit...

... Ppbtt...bptth...ha...pbtt...G-good luck with that?

.... I am quickly learning the difference between a Mulligan and a PB mood is PROBABLY the level of autistic fixation HA which is to say I THINK things have slowed down enough for me to stop masking so hard. Not to say Mulligan is masking so much as he's just not in the mood to be THIS autistic...

I KNEW the pig was coming when I felt the urge to winge about politics. The space cat and the dinosaur could have cared less but MAN this 250th anniversary nonsense is stuck in my craw a bit NGL. 250 years of being a nation and no one wants to celebrate, yet the GOP STILL crows things are great.

If you are wondering the level of Tail-cringe kid me was, I used to watch the cleaning sequence in Snow White multiple times per go-through because I found the squirrel's sweeping super interesting for a reason I couldn't pinpoint...

If you are wondering THE LEVEL OF REFUSE WE ARE TALKING... I-I still remember the Elena of Avalor episode where they become Jaquins because the studious wizard of the group becomes fascinated with his tail and keeps mentioning it outloud. I am...le'garbage you see.

Wait... Should I probably have NOT gone to a hospital on christmas eve to be filled with the trauma of a neighbor whose husband burned to death in front of her in a horrible fire in a year where my mom died? JESUS. I have been through...too much in the 2020's, no wonder I was a thin water balloon

Gods...the last time I was this thing it was Christmas Eve, and I was stuck at a hospital next to a recent widow because she didn't want to be alone on the holiday. *Shudders* I've been through so much in the last six years. I will always remember the way she cried out when she thought I'd left.

OKAY s-so since pigs have carte blanch to be garbage... W-weh what if there was a Duchess like skunkitty named Chanterelle who smelled wonderfully of roses and was REALLY nice to me... *Yearning oink* I want a big lady to be REALLY nice to me, and pamper my dumb little piggy face... 🎨I'mfureel

Hmmm...as far as 'Brain Age' PB is...not as ancient as Mulligan feels...but I still feel old and professorial...just with...WAAAYYY more self loathing. AHAHA after April there is a LOT to loath. FORTUNATELY, I tend to distract myself with work, so you lot SHOULD get one or two projects soon.

Ahhh....okay... AHAHAH makes sense, piggy time...I think I'm just tired and in business-mode... THOUGH, I will say, I had a weirdly hard time being thirsty on main as a two story tall prehistoric monster... The pig? I know the pig. The pig has no such problem. Lets get weird.

Gods...having my main computer here...and ON...it feels like all of this has FINALLY stopped. I feel like something has been sitting on my chest since like April 10th or so, and it only JUST NOW got all the way off...I can breathe... N-now if nothing can go wrong for...two weeks...

What I wouldn't give to talk to Mom right now....

I think within the decade of 2025 I have experienced every kind of grief it is possible to hold, including that for a lost suitcase. I do not even know what would shock me at this point, but honestly I gotta say I do feel a certain strength in getting back to some sort of 'Normal'.

I...have never had any mental health care professional listen to me before...weh...I almost don't know what to do with it.

The gay dog story festering inside me is starting to metastasize...

I will die embarassed at how much serotonin looking at these stupid dogs gives me... *Huffsnort*

Honestly I knew I liked this therapist when she said 'You came in here and tried to be as perfect as possible for me, do you think that's part of the problem?'. O-ow...d-don't you noscope me like that...

I really worry what ai will do to the world of kink. It USED to be, if you were down with the weirdness, you had to go out and find other people who were ALSO down with the weirdness, and weird together if you wanted more of that specific weird. N-now you can just...boil yourself till it burns...

Okay this comic is 8 kinds of cute and kinky at the same time, what the fudge. AHAH I did not expect to grin that much over a comic about knots, stellar work.

I should go back to being thirsty on this 'AD' AHAHA gods, how do I manage to be so kinky that my lobido has a dedicated pithy little entity, yet so asexual that all I ever actually use my AD for is crying? What do the kids say... Make it make sense, chat.

*The rex's outline wobbles harder* No...NoooOOooo...I see you in there....NO. *Huff-snorts through a nose the size of a bus's hood* I spent a month and a half being an angry little lightning rod of a person, and I can just FEEL the pendulum trying to swing the other way...

I think if I could gaurentee that nothing would go wrong before the end of Summer, I would sell my soul....

I wish to say. I faced a year without my mother with a brave face, but upon a year I have to say I found myself a bit of a screaming child. I missed her so badly, I shouldn't have hid it so hard. I think there's refreshment in change, but I do feel my age as I look back...

I feel like I have so much work to do to ever make up for letting my mental health get away from me that badly... I will work every day to put good into the world, and not make people worry like that again if I can help it. I want to plant positivity into the soil of the earth and see what blooms.

Now that I'm no longer angry you see, the issue is trying not to fall into sadness and self loathing. NEW HEADING. AHAHAH, I'm doing...okay-ish, don't worry of course, honestly recent therapy taught me a lot about OCD and negative, intrusive patterns of thought, which is helping a lot.

Oh my God. My dad has learned to text me because that's how I'm most comfortable. I could cry.... If I could describe to you my eternal struggle with that specific need, we would be here for a while, and I would definitely cry...

youtube.com/shorts/a7IMT... *Vibrates* how dare you come onto my house like this...

I feel like I failed at this in April, I really do. I was mad but I was also lonely, and I think I took the bellows that the net put behind the fires of my anger and pumped it into something far larger than it should have been. I think change was needed, but the internet won't do that to me again.

*Reads about pressure seeking as a comorbidity to autistic need for stimulation* *sweats* *Looks at most of his kinks....and all the weighted blankets he owns* *Sweats* *Sees this YT short* www.youtube.com/shorts/3uILv... *SWEATS*

I'm really hoping this mental clarity I'm feeling after the medication change isn't a placebo effect. To be honest they perscribed me some stuff last time and...I barely felt any different...at all. With this new Lithium though I'm waking up so...clear these last few days, I REALLY hope it sticks.

It's neat to tool around with sci-fantasy this long HA I won't call what I'm making pure science fiction as its got Mcfuffinium out the wazoo, but I've been almost pure fantasy as a writer for a decade in change, interesting to change genre a bit.

Weirdly I feel like all of this happening sans Mom has actually helped me move past her death (Not entirely, that's impossible) in some ways, in an 'I will survive' sort of way. BUT WEIRDLY mowtown music used to roll a 30% to make me tear up, n-now it's at like a 45% and I don't know why.

Why can't my body be normal about sleep? I feel like almost every mental trauma I've ever had has been exacerbated by the fact I become outright terrified to sleep. I just can't think straight...for like...multiple days. I think the record is five when I was like...15 after my grandmother died.

GOD it feels good to feel something else besides anger and sadness. I made someone at the dog park laugh today, I make lots of people laugh. I can be funny and not have it be this snide, waspy, horrible thing. I-I'm witty! People like my company...weh...

There is like... ONE PERSON... Who has ever put up with my OSDD nonsense (Nigh daily mind you) to the point it seems almost normal, and I am shocked every day they don't run for the hills. I think it's one of like...Thrreee times I've introduced the concept then felt okay to be MORE open about it.

GODS I CAN FEEL THE URGE TO WRITE POETRY RISING WITHIN ME LIKE A BAD COLD

You know, there are some people who called TimTam the 'Mommy form' since it's probably the most fem one. That made me laugh, although I always wondered which form would get the opposite term. I did not think it would be the dinosaur... I am not used to driving this term, should I call you sport?