Sorry I'm recalibrating bc things were getting high key ridiculous.

Wanna learn how to make balabanlar 😔

Someone's standing next to an open window and singing very...unpleasantly.

Hey hey I love stuff.

Proposed a movie night in the ace group, rip to me if it's rejected 😔

Ok ok. I might value my communities so much that I don't want to actually leave Boston and move overseas.

I don't know how I went from "live near my shul" to my current plan in life but uhhh

Hehe huhu haha

I'll miss Boston and my communities. But. Idk.

(bird noises)

grand duke plums, painted by l. c. c. krieger, 1935

So anyone here ever done a cross seas move and how do you decide what to ship vs what to buy there?

God said no more spreadsheets 😔

I think I'd rather attempt to read the Shulchan Arukh without translation than clean for 45 min.

I have a very complicated daily draw system with about 7,000 items in it. I'm not explaining further what that means. But without it, I would literally die.

Clean for 45 minutes :( :( :( :(

Azərbaycanda bir az vaxt keçirmək istəyirəm.

Ok as long as I do not change my mind (he he ha ha), I've actually got some p cool things coming down the pike.

There's the city in the distance!

Taking. A walk!

I'm feeling p good about my financial situation for now. If I get UI, I'll claim it and do the job search requirements in good faith. If I don't get it, I'll still be alright but will need to get some income by Feb or March 2027. In between I can squeeze in 2 extended trips to Azerbaijan & Turkey.

Dunno if I should light a candle for Yom HaShoah. Seems... Like I think I should do something. Idk what the "but" is except weird OCD-fueled guilt based in humanism about not commemorating other, more recent tragedies.

12:46pm and there's literally no reason I can't do like a quick 4 minute tidy, but my brain is like, "buh we just shoved the papers in a drawer, what more do you want" I want a 4 minute tidy, brain!

I should organize my paperwork, but that feels very overwhelming.

Ok I'm free for the remainder of the day!

Might retreat to my alt for a few days

Oops in waiting mode now.

God wants me to tidy up for 15 minutes, but I already responded to my UI claim, and that was kinda my "thing" for the day. I don't want to have to do anything else, ya know?

Meheha

Resting in me bêd

Wanna do a month in Azerbaijan in October ahhhhh

Ok didn't shower before 9am, but did shower at 9:15am, and that's an improvement over like 8pm after being a slug all the dang day.

Next items on the list of must-do's: - taxes - call MassHealth - send paystub to lawyer for Pfml documentation

Took m'meds! Time to start the day

Dijon just said, "hrrmmm"

I think I might really go study in Azerbaijan tbh

It's a beautiful day to be person.

I have to come up with the 3 ideas I get most excited about when considering my future, and I think they are: 1. Studying abroad 2. Teaching English abroad 3. Being able to afford a second cat

Whom would I even ask to recommend me to an Azerbaijani university? Former profs ig.

Wild that I have enough money in my accts rn to basically get a MA and PhD out of pocket in Azerbaijan.

The 2 things I'd like to accomplish today: 1. Figure out all steps to admissions at Xəzər Universiteti 2. Get in touch with person who can probably take care of Dijon for 29 days in the Fall if/when I go abroad

Just never heard back from the guy at TINAU? Hope he's ok. But in any case, I've moved on from Hebrew lessons and don't think I'll do that in the end.

Ok how do I go from right now (microwave burrito, haven't used stove in over a year, dishwasher broken but apartment too messy to call maintenance [yes it is actually too messy, no you're not going to convince me that they won't care, it is sufficiently messy for anyone to care]) → regular meal prep

The transphobia to frequency of the dysphoria I actually experience ratio is so out of whack rn that I'm back to considering just living as a woman forever.

Do we think I can shower before 9am today?

Anyone know where I can get a FC Köln jersey that isn't 3 million Euros?

Tis Monday, the day of the Mons.

Goedemorgen!

no chronic pain, no chronic gain

I think I've decided I'll apply to the English Teaching Award in Azerbaijan.