boy I missed colouring mixed media. it's like magic, nothing on the paper and then you sculpt your way through. this is why this is my hyper focus lock in go to thing haha

working on my main Oc well lookd at that 😁

studying the variants of my Lorevana species. since they live on 3 different levels of the mangrove forest, they have developed different features through evolution regarding their claws, wings and tail mostly. Diet and teeth as well, that will be another study 📝

itty bitty Lorevanas 👁️👄👁️

I never draw this small. but for this project uwu; small

I have cleaned up my workspace to a decent amount 🙌 kicking my depression in the butt day by day. bonus desk now in my living room. surrounding myself with art vibes 😊 I can do it 👊

I haven't drawn digitally in ??? I guess it's a combo of my past depression and the global digital tiredness (aka THAT terrible learning machine) that made me crave paper again. anyways this is a Lorevana diving for fish because I based that off of puffins who are awesome in fishing despite bird??

happy new year 🥳

This is Muffin (named after my OC ) he often scratches my face when he tries to land on me but I can't help but love him anyway 😂 pigeons are otherworldly soft and beautiful 🤷

I got hundreds of art supplies and yet the simplest setup amuses me right now 😂 (my depression is clearing up btw, I moved house, living on my own and I'm slowly moving forward 😊)

my boyfriend got me a new light for art so this is my lazy drawing setup in the living room 😅 gotta draw anywhere I can to motivate myself

Hi my hyperfocus has always been birds and in this stage in my life it's pigeons and this bowling pin specifically who is my daily companion 😎

my part of an exchange for @maora-shun.bsky.social of her beautiful character 😊 pencils on paper and then digital color

writing script 😁 seems like nothing much but since the creation of my comic ideas a 15-ish years ago, I hadn't actually written much on the Everblooming Forest. now thanks to my cowriter I have a long script already and that's just the history behind my actual story 😅 Loving the process so far.

Still a work in progress, but this is what my World map starts to look like 😊 with the help of my boyfriend, who is an amazing world builder and story writer (he's says he's not though 😂) I'm currently writing the plot of my Everblooming Forest comic, which has never been so fleshed out as before. 😁

I will create some kind of book of my stories eventually 😅 I'm more motivated than ever but I work fulltime OTL. but one day

random drawings inspired by the stories my bf writes and tells me about. drawing random ideas stress free helps my creative process

our idea board 😊 mostly my drawings but also some writing from my bf of our comic idea

here I am planting an Acer Palmatum in my boyfriend's garden. recovery comes with HUGE ups and downs haha. but that's why I'm going slow with art and even quitting projects. I need to live OTL 🌸🌸🌸

my last convention. I'm quitting for now 🙂 it's a 14 year dream I'm giving up and I am grieving but the past editions were bad, with losses and it's just no longer fun 🤷 onwards to healing and creating new dreams ☀️

Muffin and the strange rock armadillo creature. something my partner imagined about. my sketches are usually crap OTL but I'm gonna just draw what I envision 😅 in order: pastel silhouette+sketch, watercolor, ink+brush

I'm working on my Everblooming Forest comic but also on a cyberpunk detective graphic novel with my partner. I don't consider myself good at drawing BUT I'm at that point in my life I just say: fuck it, let's draw before I disappear from this earth 😅

self care. I draw again in my studio, I treat myself again, I clean, organise, plan, brainstorm again. healing bit by bit 🌿🌿🌿

my gorgeous boy ;; ❤️❤️❤️

cute dragon nature creature my boyfriend gifted me. inspired by my Everblooming Forest. he loves hearing about my comics and brainstorming with me. he reads from books aloud to me to stimulate my fantasy and motivate me. silly little things that are healing me faster than I could ever do myself. 🤷

I remember when I dated my boyfriend the first months I was mostly mute due to trauma. but he kept asking me to talk about my pigeons bc that is my safe space and that way he could hear me talk bc he loves to hear me talk. 8 months in and I'm proud to say my muteness is almost gone 🥳 #recovery

recovery 🌹 I love writing and drawing again. I'm brainstorming, sketching and imagining regularly again 😊 baby steps

nobody can stop me now 👀 (it's the heatpress my bf gifted me) I mean, pigeon tshirts 👀

he gives me his paper and pencils, he gifts me inspiration, and a place to exist. slowly but surely I am healing 🌿 I would have let myself wither but he keeps watering me

healing at my boyfriend's place in the weekend. the board is to heal my creativity. And he gave me the latest Zelda game to help me relax. at home I'm a workaholic and quite exhausted. so weekend is therapy 😋

my studio cleaned up! a big step in saving myself. and while I still fight my demons every day and I'm super tired. at least I've saved my identity. oh and my plants, they were on the brink of death...

it's not much, but this is what recovery looks like. ever since my bf discovered the Everblooming Forest, he wants me to write about it, talks about it all the time. he's good at writing stories and he's helped me so much when I was about to trash my comics. so he gifted me this book. 😊

so not only does this man actually love me for who I am. he's also striving to heal my artistic soul and stimulate me to work on my comics. here he is reworking my World map. like give this man a nobel prize or something. how did I deserve him?? so yes expect more comic stuff in the future 😊

so I dissappeared for 5 months ☠️ long story short I broke up with my toxic ex and I ended up breaking myself in the process, including my artistic self. but I can finally say my artistic soul is healing. he (my new partner) actually is helping me heal my art in many ways 😇

working my way through this painting 😋 glad I discovered the Baohong paper, it holds up all my abuse 👀

in traditional there's a thing called 'ugly stage' which is where you trust the process and keep 'sculpting' the piece. digital art never gives me this vibe so it's a challenge 😅

birthday gift for myself 😊

started some painting again 😊

exercise with blocking out shapes with pastel

I try to kick art block in the rear everyday by doing exercises. some of it helps, some of it doesn't but it's better than lying around?? 🤔

still a wip, but I'm trying to reimagine my old comic concepts and make them visually more appealing 🤔 also clothes 👀

reimagining my old comic OC, if I'd ever dabble in comic making again, I try to make it visually more appealing 😅

art jam piece for @halovana.bsky.social 😁 some digital art from me 👀

I don't have much art to show bc of burnout(no surprise 😅) but have my pigeon friend instead, I take care of them ❤️ (they have a permanent broken beak 🥹)

the left side of my studio, the cleanest it has been yet! I'm glad spring cleaning is finally working out this year.

my desk looks decent enough again 😁 time to work on comic stuff again 👀 I'll never be minimalist 😂

I have a little corner in my friend's boba tea shop 🌸 that's so cool , my teenage artist self would love to see this 😋

I spend many many hours creating this Avatar tribute 😬 a lot of it was brushwork on paper and mixed with digital art and then foiled. I got a nice response on it, I'm happy 🥲❤️

the latest bookmarks I made ✨ I was thinking golden teeth and claws and this came up 😋