I dropped any interest in Earthworm Jim 20 some odd years ago when I found out what a rancid pile of shit Doug TenNapel is. His head is empty and he is a man without a soul. Why anyone carries a torch for this shit is beyond me. I'd rather you obsess about Boogerman. His work is dogshit.

I either need to spend the hundred or so bucks I have left on some kind of suicide device or find someone who can teach me how to draw. Being 41, I don't think either matters. I was thinking my dead body might be less bothersome if I died in the woods, and my corpse was eaten by animals.

People on anti-suicide rants also build and maintain a horrible world full of decrepit monsters than isn't worth living in. Anti-suicide people only want to watch you suffer. Their fun ends when you die because they can't torture you any longer.

Life holds no value as there are people who support ICE that are allowed to continue breathing.

40 is like, that age when they make movies about people like you dying alone for Oscar noms. They title it on the nose shit like, "The Person Who was 41 And Never Was So They Deserved To Die A Fucking Failure." And someone 25 plays that role and wins for it. Bravely, notably, in old age make up.

I'll never get good at drawing, and I don't want to live anymore knowing I'll die an embarrassing art failure who never made it and couldn't hack it. Every kid who is 15 gets it, and they succeed. I'm fucking Literally dead. I'm so old that the only dream left is to be laughed at in public.

If you need a reference, just take the fucking photo yourself. Every single "Bartender" reference I find is of someone in a suit vest flipping bottles and shaking drinks like they're from the film Cocktail. Friend, real bartenders are morons in Atlanta Hawks hats wearing Deep Space 9 shirts.

Gloria, Atomic Wrangler's Star Crier, Trudy.

Going to make the sketches BEFORE I stream this weekend so it's just. More fun that way. Unless the snow/ice kills my power or it's too cold to leave the bed. In which case, uh, no.

Three things, one post: Snow storm coming up this weekend and I got no fucking heat, lmao. LGBTQA people love New Vegas because we're cursed with good taste. That's the answer to the mystery and our cross to bear. Gay content is not a "modern agenda". People who say that are literally brain dead.

Streamed drawing New Vegas stuff. Betsy, Watkins, and Pretty Sarah. With their clothes on this time, surprisingly.

Don't tell me about vastly better artists who are a quarter of my fucking age. I already know in my actual life that my drawings mean dog shit and that my suicide will go unreported. I don't need examples of people living better and celebrated lives, lmao. I live in rat infested fucking garbage.

If people keep bitching about Warhammer, I'm going to switch lanes and draw femme versions of everything. Don't make me draw strong fat, ogre built, buff women with big fat heretic suffocating asses FUPAs with elephant ear bellies. I'll make a whole series of it and call it Warhammer 40DD.

I need to see if I still have money for a gun this weekend. Looking at my dog shit art and how little time I have left, and how I am not going to ever achieve a single dream, brings home how little the world needs one less miserable dogshit artist. I spent my suicide money on a car. Fucking idiot.

I wish I had a gun so I could kill myself with it. I'm old. Life is over. There is nothing for me here. I would 10000% immediately pull the trigger this morning. Most of my posts on this account are me desperately wishing I had a gun and an occasional drawing. I need that gun.

Everyone's cars are broken so I have to drive everyone in the house all around town. Thinking of jumping off a bridge. Have a drawing.

I may open a quick commission for Yakuza 3 before they yank it off the fucking Steam market.

I need to get really, really good at art really, really quickly. I don't do anything all day but draw, and I can't afford to eat. I just need to spend the time more efficiently. Not many days (not years) left, lol. Life is over and it was wasted.

Working on things for the weekend. Or whenever they're done. Priyanka - Steven Universe. Of course. Because.

Abandoning. But it's alright practice.

There's a bizarre mentality where people who watch you streaming games do not, under any circumstances, want you to enjoy your time streaming that game.

Weekends are my "days off", so I still draw, but it's just sketches of Amethyst. In a final drawing, she'd be heftier.

This is the core essence of why the writing in the Yakuza series works so well. Don't ask me to elaborate.

My art is shit and I'm only getting older and more dead. The problem is, when you have nothing in your life, you don't get dead any quicker. You just have to be miserable and worse every day at the same rate. I envy video games where there's like, a threshold and your character just fucking dies.

I do get kinda personally insulted when people offer to write my characters for me like I haven't spent all this time day dreaming about every little facet of their life. The drawing is the hard part.

You're may be unfamiliar with the fact that Chumbawamba is fucking fire.

OC batch coming up.

I still miss my cat so much that I get a bit depressed just going outside. Since, you know, it's clearly dead and not there anymore. And sometimes it's like, "Damn, I wish I knew who was responsible so I could set their house on fire."

Gob

Whenever someone wants the quick fix to make their characters, protag and antag, seem high minded and smart against one another, they make them contempt chessboards. I'm purposely going to make characters who look at chessboards, one another, checkers, one another, and then they play darts.

The full map of 1999 A.D. right before Lavos destroys everything 💥 - Chrono Trigger (SNES)

It's bad, but here's a fat dinosaur.

Azala - Big Ass Throne Sketch drawing thing. For them Chrono Trigger fans who would rather I'd draw anyone else. I want to draw more Azala stuff. Cause she's hot af.

A feminization story where the pro-wrestling protag turns into a aggressive Waffle House waitress.

We got this cat from my aunt and it is all kinds of fucked up. Mentally and physically. She kept it in a cage outside her house. Every time I see it, it has new sores on its skin and looks progressively more awful. I need to round up the rest of my money for the vet. No one else is taking it.

omikron: the nomad soul, print ad, excerpt (1999) archive.org/details/PCXL...

Just a friendly toss up. As evident by the Dead By Daylight thing, I actually love to draw horror shit but I don't often do it. Mostly because, you know, time is finite. If you actually do want more horror (OR LESS), speak up and let me know. Otherwise, I'm drawing Goombella in panties.

Anna from Dead By Daylight. Sure. I guess? No one fucking likes this one, but whatever lmao. It's my day off.

I've decided to work Monday through Fri and then take the weekend totally off. So... I guess... I'm draw tomorrow lmao.

Garnet. Sure.

Art has tied to me Twitter, and I doomscrolled all day today as now there is a lot to scroll about. Only delicately can I say that I wish I could kill a specific kind of person with my bare hands. Minds and hearts do not change, and horses brought to water cannot be made to drink. It's all awful.

Spend all afternoon to fix a face. End up sticking with the original one anyway.

Okay, well, if the Garnet is fine then I'll continue on with the drawings. Still think I need to sit my ass down and draw her like, a thousand times over the course of the year.

Maybe. Maybe not. I'm not sure I draw good Garnets, tbh.

Death really is the only escape from the endless, unending, ceaseless, and bottomless cruelty of the inhuman people you are forced to live with on this planet. There is no such thing as a good day, and there are no such things as friends. Just monsters, everywhere. Probably should take the day off.

Aquamarine - Job Interview Because trying to murder that slobbering goober doesn't even pay minimum wage. We've all been there.

My sister is that one person who watches Asmongold.

I don't like just drawing porn as the country gets worse, not going to fucking lie.

Times are tough. Sadie Miller, as usual. Sure, sure.