$200 check from the IRS :D Under my old name so I had to basically out myself at the bank so I could deposit it :( Bought an iced coffee with it :D Made my stomach hurt :( Basically? Every day is a winding road.

Cuomo's concession speech had this vibe

What the hell happened to plain old blogging. No bullshit... I wanna hear all the boring stuff. For example this evening I went for a long walk around Bushwick and took 2 film camera photos then made some soup when I got home.

Update: I am making a zine

A few 35mm photos from the wee Pentax IQZoom

If someone asks for a cig you say YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Crosses item off list] one less name for my autobiography…

I can't believe I forgot I can just make a zine if I want lmao

Tylenol made my legs fall off for the record

Gender AFFIRMED! Walked by my neighbor buddy and he had me practice my uppercut with him and said I did pretty decent

There is no activity I treasure more in life than just walking around and noticing shit

Yeah it’s just me and Lamby in this bitch of a world. Problem?

Hate my life so got food. That’s my update x

I miss playing the saxophone… would do things for a new tenor… too bad my neighbors would come kill me if I honked on that shit too loud

Invented my own Pomodoro method where for every chunk of work I finish I go out and have 1-3 cigarettes and now I've Pavlov'd myself into plowing thru my work at a terrifying speed in order to earn my little nicotine snack

Da rules

How you treat and talk about homeless people, disabled people, and people dealing with addiction or mental health issues says a lot about you… now more than ever!

They officially gave me a date for my transgender surgery. The surgery that makes you transgender.

Card declined while I was trying to purchase my crazy pills

Kiss my damn ring

Still the best thing I've ever made

Soon.

They let you do anything on Canva

Tweaked the site a little... added a tagline www.willemhelf.com

The “Frick Collection”? Please. We’re all adults here. It’s the “Fuck Collection.”

Time to watch all the Adam Friedland Show bits my brodude friend just sent me

The secret to a (relatively) peaceful life is putting your medications next to your bed so you can see them right when you wake up, going on walks just because, texting people you haven't heard from to say hi, asking someone their favorite song then listening to it. Know ye this my advice

I love reading published diaries/journals because sometimes you get the most deeply moving personal insight you've ever read then the next entry is like "bad day. Bought a sandwich. Idk"

The happiest moment of my life was sitting in the sun on the Venice waterfront smoking an Italian cig with a fuckass little espresso and a book. Second is when a chav in Essex called me “bruv”. Third is relearning to walk or whatever. Thanks for reading

Sometimes a $20 film camera does ok

Someone better take me out with a stun gun at this point

The most important lost-then-found media of my life is me dancing in the street in East London to a Blawan banger circa 2013. God bless

No!! No!!! I’m one of the good ones!! I don’t manspread on the subway!!! I’ve never read Krasnahorkai!!!!! [barrel of gun presses against my chin] ok I read Satantango… I’m sorry… it was years ago… forgive me…… [clicking sound] the tote bag is just convenient!!! It’s just convenient!!!!!!

Logging off. Only announcing it bc last time I vanished someone emailed me asking if I was dead

Wild that one of the most pivotal moments of my life was when a drunk guy cornered me at a pub in 2014 and said "you talk too fast and always interrupt people" and he was right so I tried not to do that and it completely changed my conversations & thusly my relationships lol

Found a nice community garden while walking through Bed-Stuy today... psychogeography vindicated again

Doll Invasion time lapse

"Vote blue no matter who!" and it's a bunch of billionaires who'd put you in a meat grinder but the difference between them and Republicans is they'd do a fake apology to you while Fargo-ing your sorry ass

So there's supposed to be a third volume of Susan Sontag's journals?

Esketamine would be a great name for a Pokémon

Me realizing I'm not a woman: holy SHIT..... my entire self-perception is beginning to crystallize... I am free..... my life expands before me ...... I feel joy in my very bones ..... Me realizing I'm actually just some guy: ok

ADHD medication and a coffee before breakfast

Just remembered the time when I was like 8 and superglued a quarter to the sidewalk outside my dad’s house and would sit at the window and watch people get mad until one day a guy showed up with a hammer and chisel and pried it right off the cement and took it with him

Call me Guy Debored the way the spectacle got me snoozin!