sorry for my silence im having a lot of difficulties with the whole "will to live" thing

discord down

Maybe I'm too separated from social norms to understand, but its a little odd to me that in 2025 people still demonize non-monogamy. Even in queer spaces.

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Trying to fight art block so you get to see more lucian art #PossumancerCo • #FurryArt • #FurryArtist • #Furry

Completed ych for zipmins! #PossumancerCo • #FurryArt • #FurryArtist • #Furry

You ever talk to someone whos presence is so calming it feels like you took an anti-anxiety pill?

There must be something fundamentally wrong with me, because this happens too often. It has to be my fault somehow.

Thanks for all the nice comments and dms, I want to reply but Ill have to when my world doesnt feel so damn dark and grey right now. I dont even know what I could say right now. It feels impossible to connect to another human being right now, Im very afraid of being hurt again.

Vent: Im glad I spent many exhausted nights on the phone with you convincing you to stay alive, all the places I got to take you, The things I got to teach you and games we got to play. I was understanding when you couldnt show up for hangouts when you were going through something.

how do you handle one of your best friends randomly unfriending you on everything without saying a word?

I need to call my drs office and tell them where to send my cromolyn sodium prescription to because i think that would have helped avoid a flare this intense.

commission :)

King of deleting my message shortly after I send it because im embarrassed of trying to talk to people

OK I ACTUALLY HAVE DAYS WHERE I DONT HAVE A MILLION THINGS TO DO so i SHOULD be able to get some art worked on. If Im ok later this month, I may open some coms to help with med bills Probably renders like this or b/w If you want to donate in the meantime it would mean the world to me! #furryart

Got extremely vulnerable with my therapist yesterday, I know im making progress and shes expressed shes very proud of me and happy to see me get to this point where I can be 100% open about what Im feeling and thinking. My therapist is fucking awesome.

Just gotta say, even though these arent the fancy expensive metal ones, these seriously worked for the pain. I woke up this morning after a day of wearing them and the pain in my hands has been dialed down to a 2 instead of an 8.

I feel like im severely unlikeable. Every conversation with my irl social circles is dry or im talked over. Or even as if everyones waiting for me to shut up. I feel so annoying. Years and this never gets better. It has to be a me problem right?

It would probably be better if I wasnt alive anymore.

will try to lock in next week and get more owed artwork completed, this flare is kicking my ass much longer than i had thought :L

Burnout feels like torture fr

I saw a possum last night runnin like this across the street it was so cute.

Return to the 2000’s!! #digitalart #animation #furry #furryart #caramelldasen #art

[C] one of my fav doodles ive done recently 💤💤

If any of yall have taken Corlanor/Ivabradine for POTS, could you let me know your experience with it? Or any advice for someone scared to take new meds in general? Ill be starting it soon and I've heard it can be great. However, hearing more personal experiences makes me less anxious about it :')

I really wish getting basically endless rest until I recover wasnt the solution to getting through flares and autistic burnout 🫠

"cool i finally have some free time, im going to work on a sketch" 10 minutes in: puppy wakes up 2 phone calls some random guy screaming outside my house can i please just get shit done

This just in! The weird person who barely has friends feels annoying anytime they try to talk to anyone!

I usually have severe panic attacks when I have to leave my house or ride in a car but when I have my puppy with me its like it goes away entirely. I forgot I even had car anxiety until I had to ride to the store without her today, full blown panic attack.

Youre telling me a gar licked this bread?

Thank you so much to everyone who has donated so far, I could cry 😭❤️

Something people dont talk about often is how being disabled is sometimes like a full time job. No I don't have time for hobbies, all of my time is dedicated to surviving the day and recovery.

OK I ACTUALLY HAVE DAYS WHERE I DONT HAVE A MILLION THINGS TO DO so i SHOULD be able to get some art worked on. If Im ok later this month, I may open some coms to help with med bills Probably renders like this or b/w If you want to donate in the meantime it would mean the world to me! #furryart

My brain fr has been shutting down with how much shit ive been nonstop juggling this year and especially the last week.

my puppy is the sweetest critter in the world btw even when shes grumpy

something no one prepared me for in adulthood was just how many hours id waste having to make phone calls to "confirm my appointments"

All they wanted was a Pepsi! 💥💥💥 #Furry #FurryArt

Being the youngest person attending physical therapy felt odd, I def stuck out like a sore thumb. But the first session went very smoothly.

I just got a call saying one of my prescriptions is $918. I quit.

I should hopefully be able to work on some owed art next week when my world isnt on fire.

Let's Keep Calling!

Can anyone even afford being disabled in america?💀

Might need to start a gofundme or smth for medical costs. I dont have insurance or a sizeable credit line and i have to have a lot of meds and tests run. Sleep study is $240, genetic testing is $500, ive got 4 new medications, i need physical therapy, an mri, an echocardiogram and an ultrasound

Happy birthday to me i finally got an mcas diagnosis and a handicap parking pass for my pots 👍

Its mah birfday

ArtFight '25 Autumn Possum Ruby Attack for @possumancer.co [ #kostus_art #artfight2025 ]

Was a long weekend, we spent a whole day taking things to the dump, gutted the kitchen and are waiting for the plumbing and electrical to be done before we prep everything and install the cabinets. Its been so much work, if im not very active this week..thats why!

Attack on @possumancer.co 🖤🩷

Having to do yard work and home repair on probably the hottest florida weekend of the summer, with a heat advisory warning and having POTS is a special kind of hell I wouldnt wish upon my worst enemy.

Every time I stop doing art for a while and then come back, my style changes quite a bit.