there is so much hate in my heart today

these headphones are really pissing me off sometimes STAWP IT

really rare to get a cm that portrays chenadette in a way that rewires my circuits i think. unless it's from my beautiful friends/mutuals who # get it. and beri. paces. i yearn for environmental storytelling artists who are good at attention to detail and drawing fat people

why are my transmascs and femmes always trying to kill each other (i would say butch but i don't think eunhae is butch she's just tmasc. idk. we'll see where it goes)

wow lambheart is crawling back into my brain like an infestation. I KEEP THINKING IM OVER YOU GUYS.

in trying times default round brush will be your best friend

making something for the gf (anniversary soon!) (i'm the stupid guy on the right btw)

mr i can make her worse (and they literally succeed)

valentine do you know you might not make it (they do, actually)

man whatever!

super excited for run rabbit run to release. pamela music for sure

my bluetooth earbuds do this thing where sometimes they dont register that they're in the charging case so they stay connected to my phone and just DONT CHARGE. STOP IT

ingrid is like âu cơ. hashtag vietnam

ingrid is sooo fun because her design can technically be whatever i want it to be because her physical form is very unstable anyway. that being said im actually really picky about details that need to be portrayed on her so

******* ask an artist i'm commissioning to fix. and i usually redline to show them what i mean cuz it's easier that way. i actually have the reverse issue where i don't draw average body types as much so im like ok wait how does this work again. funny....

canonly ingrid shows very little skin but i like to draw her dressed a little down because i really like drawing fat folds </3. my excuse is that she's allowed to show skin postcanon because that whole metaphor thing where anything she touches will inevitably be doomed would be lifted by then

also something i noticed is even if an artist can draw plus sized people often they'll have more trouble posing them dynamically in a composition,, i usually have to fix ingrid's anatomy more than i have to fix eunhae's,, same goes for paisley and anyone in theory

i also am one of the only person who nails every detail when drawing her and doesn't forget anything but that's because i made her HAHA.... she's not like a super complicated design by any means but art i get of her always tends to miss something (usually i'm not too bothered)

you know... after everything i think i like how i draw ingrid a lot.... i'm not an excellent artist by any means and there's still a lot i can improve on while drawing her but when i draw her she looks very familiar to me because i know how i want her to look if that makes sense ...

still dipping in and out of activity while i adjust to my work schedule 😭,, im getting my time management back together though!

this is the second time an artist has thought me highlighting eunhae's scars meant to actually color them like the highlighted color ARJSHGHDG???????????? at first i was like maybe i should modify that guide so it has a note but i DID state it was a highlight........

some quick benjis and a few joshies

ok you know how there are pngtuber toggles for different emotions. if ingrid had a pngtuber model there would be a toggle for me breaking character and it would just be me LOL

okay but if i ever do streaming as ingrid as a bit i have to dress her in the most normal and frumpy clothes ever. I don't want anyone strange to stumble across my page and think that's my pngtuber sona BENFKSFNFMKFG. i am not a beautifully mysterious womanthing with big boobs nor do i want to be

I missed rendering so bad. my biggest issue with art is always starting because once I'm doing it i get excited to come back and keep at it (unless the process is frustrating me lsnfkfmf)

I should bring lemonade to work

maybe its time to embrace leaning ingrid into the vintage noir aesthetic sometimes

once i clear my queue i might just open simple random illus comms for a while... i love doing fully rendered stuff but oh my god its taking the life out of me and i think i feel a lot of pressure to make it beautiful...

ingrid bernadette letsplays would be so funny. pngtuber streaming except i larp as my npcs. i think the only downfall for ingrid is she can't really see so,,, gaming wouldn't really work out

if i stream my pngtuber needs to have like. swan ingrid in the background layout. she's literally my sidekick.

i kinda wanna pick up streaming this summer... but let's see...

yeahhh the reason why i kinda exclusively do surprise-me illustration cms is because my in between process is actually so messy and i do NOT like showing people that. my process changes like the flow of the rapids

okay work isn't so bad so far

first day at work today....... waiting for someone to come get me

a very quick unfinished reference for a thing. baby luc was so cute

i can't believe honda's only friends growing up was literally his mom (who he didn't know was his mom), a dead childhood friend, and his sibling kin nightmare thing. you are such a lonely person

i finished developing honda and ingrid's pre-story lore a week ago and i've been sad about it ever since. i haven't told anyone yet because it makes me sad and i have to get over it first. kicks rocks.

i'm giving honda an interest in bugs. he used to be a fish type of guy but i think bugs just makes a lot of sense. the bug collector. boys will be bugs.

more younger agatha in dream theatre sequence next session. i love her dearly. and I will miss her forever (eunhae chen voice)

looking up bgm for sessions and i always get blasted with the medieval music it's making me laugh so bad. can someone make a playlist for modern day ttrpgs please.

<- guy who watches one video essay and it changes his life

how does one get motivated to do studies more often...

doodled my ocs kissing bc its been a while #oc

been wanting to draw more mature / gore illustrations recently and im wondering if i should keep it on my alt (here. which is more of a diary/spam anyway) or post on main with tags.... my tastes have been slowly shifting compared to when i was first posting original content so hrm.

lumenposting #oc

harbinger of the storm, why is it still raining?

kicks rocks. thinking about them again. the lyrics are so.

can never forget the comedy that is 2 years ago iris's player talking about her backstory ideas and mentally me being like oh a ceo mom? you're Mine now. -> catastrophic consequences on my psyche

ingrid when she's like. don't make me bring out the maggots

i need eunhae to shoot arrows through ingrid's wings to pin her down. bonus if ingrid has her bigger wings. a very normal morning in the bee mind palace today