ive been in such a deep state of isolation for so long bc of depression and traumatic experiences i feel so out of touch with everything and scared i cant climb out of it.

rly about to try going to school while working full time this semester. pain. but im so close to finishing this damn degree..

rly thought getting a nice job with decent income and growth opportunities would magically make me more confident in social situations and making/maintaining friendships would become easier. but now im just socially exhausted and thinking everyone secretly hates me all the time.

where do artists sell fan made merch stuff nowadays. is it still etsy?

i regret some of the things i've contributed to my islands vocabulary

i dont wanna buy tomodachi life but i rly wanna see anhyu with a fat fucking paissa following her around

my dnd group is full of all skillful wonderful people wtf

ever since learning about color analysis and how only boring colors look good on me i hate shopping for clothes

tadc movie on my birthday yippeeee

ughhhh i hate all the embarrassment i feel trying to get used to this job. hard to shake it off.

what if i streamed me attempting to complete my fishing log in ffxiv

past feels inescapable today and i feel sad

happy april 1st its miqo's birthday!!! old baby man

im trying not to jinx myself but new job is fucking awesome tbh

🔴 IT'S TIME!! my first and biggest project ever, the Arcadi-Concert is happening NOW !!! with over 25 people who helped make this concert what it is, PLEASE come cheer them all on! a 100% community concert, made by fans, please enjoy our concert!! #arcadiconcert www.twitch.tv/marisyrina

first day of work tomorrow.. i can already tell im not gonna get any sleep bc of anxiety ;;;

yippeee new fugitech done now i can go to sleep

rly throwing myself at art lately cuz of how anxious i am about starting this new job... my anxiety is so peaked orz

i just think she's neat

dnd is fun

trying to train myself to wake up earlier everyday.. hough

i hate designing characters im so bad at it and indecisive and stubborn RAAAHHH

ooo.. i'll finally be able to buy art of my characters..

rare miqo spotted. he usually only hangs out in my sisters room.

i tried to design her so she'd look more like a blacksmith but she just kinda looks more like a pirate. o well. at least her steel defender is cute!

power went out while i was working on my dnd oc design.. pain.. i dont remember if i saved orz

i rly hope i get a medium house in ffxiv now... im so excited for housing changes

i got the job.... omg... AAAAAAAAA

why did i make my dnd character a battle smith dude they're so hard to design outfits for

what color would you say my eyes are

had a scary job interview today and i can't stop being so mean to myself over it orz

i just love how much this encapsulates our entire bg3 campaign

meanwhile the inside of my house as ive been collecting all the trash furniture

farm pretty at night

centaurworld references live in my head rent free

clint better have a damn good attitude adjustment redemption romance story

wanted to start my farm over fresh for the 1.0 update. i like my layout so far! 'w'

i am home and can play fields of mistria

want to go home and play... fields of mistria...

i wish i was a yapper! instead i sit quietly while ppl chat about my special interests and question if im truly worthy of calling it a special interest at all when i dont engage with it anywhere besides in my head. existential crisis