我将终究顺流入大海

there are so many people we need to kill

i’ve been struggling to get along with people whose behavior shows no indication they’ve ever held primary responsibility for caring for someone and wanted to fulfill it properly. unfortunately that’s a lot of people

if i only wanted revenge i would kill myself. i want more than that

above you is an anvil. you have to maintain 60 seconds of playful banter with a trans person without mocking their voice, size, or relationships with their family, or the anvil will drop. act wisely

Spiritual Pawning: Mad Slaves & Mental Healing in Atlantic-Era West Africa by Nana Osei Quarshie Shrine priests engaged in spiritual pawning: converting mad persons, deemed unfit for sale due to mental incapacity, into potential subjects of enslavement. www.cambridge.org/core/journal...

if you read a story about a woman forced to dress up as a man and think of her as a trans man before a trans woman then i think you have fundamental misconceptions about transness

huge fan of hatred, unapologetically destructive

dropping out of school and kidnapping one friend of each major field of study and moving into a library together

aesthetics are not real

oh to write GL to an audience of talkative readers forever… i feel so satisfied

perhaps i’m going nowhere, but it’s much more peaceful this way… how scary

a stranger’s kindness can be so painful

a lot of writers & readers talk as if writers have this sort of sadistic attitude towards their characters that i don’t understand… i am not torturing dolls for fun, i am trying to understand & communicate a person’s humanity. i hope my writing doesn’t feel recreationally cruel

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my classmate typically uses he to refer to me, but today she corrected herself from he to she. a few minutes later she corrected herself from she to he. the entire time she hasn’t asked what my pronouns are. what does this mean (i haven’t been reacting just to mess with her

feeling melancholic :qbrootCozy:

i miss the scents of the lavender and blueberry farms

posted my old essay on the ancient chinese folk tale of hua mulan qbroots.substack.com/p/the-ballad...

incestuous abuse is a foundational element of patriarchal society, not an anomaly

how long will it be until you look small in my eyes? half a decade, maybe. forever, maybe

Quote how you paint dark skin!

internalized forever

Thank you! Hey everyone, am an indigenous trans artist in the global south, in perpetual housing insecurity; also permanently disabled with nerve damage that impacts my movement. Id absolutely love if you guys could like my work, or buy a print or send me a tip 🌼 (comments)

Quote how you paint dark skin!!

⚠️Body Horror Warning⚠️ The Employee's Apotheosis. #art #horror #TheStore

january 1st, 2024

i want to be a river, returning the water of the highlands into the ocean. proudly, resolutely, i want to betray my origins and carry all that i can into a beautiful world i may never inhabit

i don’t care about my lifespan, as long as i can return you yours; i don’t care about your lifespan, as long as you can live a life of dignity…

it’s so funny when people moralize to me that i shouldn’t judge things in my head like how are you going to stop me

when i try to write stories about transsexuality i feel like i have to address every potential distortion of my principles that someone could do to it and then i give up

thinking of making myself a basic framework for making guides to analyzing each popular genre of art, starting with film, which would include - material history of development (eg late 19th century us) - precursor genres (eg plays) - production (eg acting industry)

building intellectual coworker relations that are not revolutionary comrade relations leaves a bad taste in my mouth idk maybe this is why i’m not getting anywhere

how do we analyze “attraction” materially other than in terms of power exchanges and exploitation

my hobby is encountering my detransitioning respirator-avoiding ex-friends in the wild and waving at them just to watch their smiles fade as they look down and avoid eye contact

networking tips: don’t be disabled

when will studying classics not feel like analyzing the consequences of a stab wound on society

watching an incestuous rape scene in a film class that refuses to treat it as a rape scene is truly something

my reasons for not pursuing a career in teaching have gone from a fear and principled refusal of occupying a position of institutional power to a dislike of intellectual stagnation combined with an opposing principled desire to teach properly

being me is so embarrassing like “i want intellectual peers to help me pursue understanding this world 🥺” or what, u’ll get lonely? do u struggle to find meaning without companionship or smth? can u not do anything by yourself. Loser.

on minecraft & colonization, WIP: - creating narrative in a rigged sandbox - materialism, resource extraction, (single)player colonial identity - zombies: a violence onto Haitian history - villagers: antisemitism interactive - axolomeh: environmentalism vs Indigenous resistance

spotted a trans guy in a miku shirt wheeling a double bass down the sidewalk, life is good #ImAnAlly

i will teach you hatred, so please teach me love

i cannot get over my dislike of the memoir genre. most useless parts of biography and fiction combined. only good if treated as psychological horror

feeling joyful :qbrootYum:

to me, history is a pursuit of truth and literature is an art of lying. creating an interesting lie requires studying the truth

due to popular demand (no one asked) i've made a substack account and posted some of my creative and analytical writings! the paywall is there bc idk how else to prevent it from coming up on search engines, if you want to read something just dm me qbroots.substack.com

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