First dose of letrozole for this cycle and two hours later I’m already having hot flashes. Let’s hope this is the one and worth it 😂 it’s winter and I’m blasting the AC.

I am actually super excited for this new expansion pack! I've been wanting something like this for awhile. It was reminding me so much of Bridgerton with all the wisteria, so hopefully we get those or are able to grab them from live edit cause I LOVE wisteria.

ALSO apparently I have a credit on my account with the fertility clinic, so we don't owe them anything for this upcoming cycle! I just have to pay for the meds! (which are like $300 in total but hey!) Choosing to see this as a good/hopeful sign for this cycle!

Dearest migraine, I have given you nurtec, caffeine, and ibuprofen. And you still will not go away. WHY.

OKAY FRIENDS. So I grabbed a friend's Sim from the gallery for Love Island, cause I was not in the mood to make my own. He was an alien, I removed it and made him all cute. WHY WHEN I GO INTO LIVE MODE... IS HE AN ALIEN BUT IS HUMAN? He is blue again. I SAVED him after his makeover.

My RE called within an hour and a half of my blood test to confirm we didn't conceive this cycle. I kind of knew we wouldn't. I'm sad, but it rarely happens the first try so. Here's to hoping this next one is the one that sticks for us. We'd rather have a negative than another miscarriage.

Tests are officially negative. Once they confirm it via blood test on Monday, time to move onto the next cycle.

Lines didn’t get darker but they didn’t get fainter today. Still no idea if this cycle was a fail or not. Really really hoping we see some darker ones tomorrow.

Only 8DPO and I’m already convinced this cycle failed. Scott is telling me we don’t know yet and it’s too early. Clearly I am the grumpy and he is the sunshine in this relationship 😂

Stress baking kind of a day. One line looks a little darker, the other looks about the same. Trigger shots make this all very confusing. So I made chocolate chip cookies.

It’s the night before I could potentially see a positive. Unlikely, it’s super early. But I keep telling myself there is no way it’ll happen during the first cycle of trying again. But I’m trying to balance being hopeful and realistic.

Join me as I create a garden cottage for one of my best friends! #EAPartner youtu.be/X2iY6rzKqdU

I have found myself really wanting to write a legacy challenge for The Sims. I have a few ideas in mind but not sure which direction I want to go. Either something like an herb garden/cottagecore type feeling, or something themed with baked goods.

I will be selecting a winner for this TOMORROW!

Progesterone suppositories are a whole other beast in comparison to taking an oral pill. Plus, I'm on 800mg a day as opposed to the 200mg a day in pill form. I feel awful.

We keep talking about how we hope the tests are positive next week. Absolutely terrified but so hopeful too. Keeping the mindset of pregnant until proven otherwise. Going to be starting a sims save file just for myself as a distraction.

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It’s so bizarre to have a positive pregnancy test and not be pregnant. They gave me the trigger shot on Saturday so I’ll be testing out the trigger for the next week or so to see how long it stays in my system. Hopefully it’ll get darker next week and be a real positive 🤞🏼💖

Egg follicle grew from 14 on Wednesday to a 21 today 🥳 they trigger shot me and I’ll go back for a pregnancy blood test on the 12th.

Not my husband looking at me, crying a bit because he doesn’t want to lose any chance we have of conceiving this cycle and he will try even if he feels 20% 🥹 cause he wants a baby just as badly. Then we had a crying session cause we are both terrified of a positive pregnancy test 🫠

A little worried this current cycle is going to be a $650 wash. Scott got a stomach flu last night and our window for this month is rapidly dwindling to a matter of 2-3 days. And I get to go tomorrow for another scan and get hormones injected all for nothing. 🫠

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I’ll pull the winner shortly, I got distracted doing Christmas baking!

I will be pulling a winner for this today!

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I get to start the medication tonight to induce ovulation, my scan went well 🥳 downside is the medication for the second half is $120 for one and $173 for the other. 🥹🫠

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I am hoping it is a good sign that I started this new cycle on Taylor Swift’s birthday and now we are watching the last show of the Eras Tour. (Treatment is gonna kick off this coming week now 🥳)

Let’s hope we become successfully pregnant within the first few tries cause it’s gonna be $358 every month 😬

Back from Disneyland and getting everything sorted with our clinic to finally move forward this month 🥹🥳 we even got a little baby ear hat embroidered just in case.

We may not be able to try for a baby until Jan/Feb because insurance has to decide if I need prior authorization first, and if so it’ll be 2-3 weeks for them to decide if I am allowed to try for a baby 🙂 how fun 🙂 I’m glad it’s up to an insurance agent if I can try this month and not my doctor.

Anyways, we’ll be doing medicated and monitored cycles for a few months. Essentially doing the kitchen sink protocol. If we lose more, then it’s onto IVF.

Love that family repeatedly tells us to give up cause clearly we are not “meant” to have kids since we have to go to a specialist. I’m over it. If you can’t be supportive, then don’t say anything at all. It’s hurtful and so not helpful. You do NOT say that to a couple struggling.

Got rough edits done for three videos, just need to do the same for Love Island but that tends to be an all day process. Appointment tomorrow for our final consult to make a plan at our fertility clinic! I cannot freaking waaaaait.

Recording is done for when we go out of town. I cannot imagine how long this will take me to edit, but I'm hoping to get most of it done before we go. ♥

If you are sick, and someone in your house is actively trying to conceive after having not been able to for SIX MONTHS after their third pregnancy loss... and you think it's no big deal and refuse to see a doctor? That is not okay. This road sucks enough as it is. Just be responsible.

Thanksgiving is over which means our final consult day at the fertility clinic is MONDAY. We are only a few days away from having a plan 😭 I’m so excited. I’m excited to go to Disneyland next week, but tbh I am way more stoked for this right now. I just want to be successfully pregnant.

This video has been SUPER delayed due to a ton of editing issues BUT it is finally here! And there are SO many fun surprises in Quinn's last part in Tiny Town! #EAPartner youtu.be/USgwpgX1ddU

Of course mercury retrograde has to hit my current edit. None of the cuts line up, they are all cut at different points despite linking them. Now I have to manually line it all up. I'm gonna be here awhile.

I will be finishing an edit today and hopefully recording tomorrow. Holiday baking and a bonk neck is slowing me down massively. Plus we are going out of town next weekend.

Went back to the doctor for my neck. She said I need to be working those muscles and really massaging them, because they are wound so tightly that medication alone won't be enough to loosen it up. Also need to be in a strapless bra until it heals. For someone with a big chest... oof.

Hurt my neck about two months ago. It started to get better, then it reverted back to this slight bump. I’m getting so irritated. I know it’s a strained muscle and those take time, especially since my chest is heavy and huge and tugging on it. But my god go away you are stressing me out. 😭

Both of our karyotyping tests came back normal, thank goodness. That was the one I definitely didn’t want something to be wrong in.

“I gotta look up a bow tie. I might wear a turkey bow tie for thanksgiving.” Conversations with my husband at one in the morning 😂

I just realized Thanksgiving is next week, which means we are finally SO close to having some answers and a plan to move forward with conceiving. Our appt is December first and I can't stop crying at the prospect of finally having SOME kind of answers. We've been stuck for so long.

It's time for things to get a little bit SPICY on Love Island! #EAPartner youtu.be/SkyoxCovoDU

I will be finishing the edit for the next Love Island episode when I get home! My mom wants me to go with her to pick out shoes for the Disneyland trip (my parents are coming with us) otherwise it would already be done :)

Today is a baking and editing (Love Island) kind of a day. I love rainy, wintry days.

THE TIE IN TO ACOTAR IN THE SECOND CRESCENT CITY BOOK I AM SCREAMING