how do i scream from the rooftops that im doing bad without being an attention seeker. like as a psa. fyi. caution sign. slippery floor

i think im this artists nightmare client lmao

depression stunlocking me from doing anything that i want to do but on the bright side my therapist said i could get disability points

the people you guys make famous on the internet is concerning

they hate meeeeeee

whats it called when you dissociate on purpose and not like spacing out but like "i know im going to go through something horrifically uncomfortable soon but its ok bc i can just dissociate my way through it" like that

i like to be alone because i literally dont know how to act normal around people 90% of the time i get super anxious and feel left out quickly and become increasingly desperate and the only cure i found so far is to just keep to myself

this closecto developing an ed its crowning. sigh

no nuance november in october lest i get publicly stoned but seeing some streamers makes me realize it rlly is 99% luck

permamuting oomf lmk when they break up with their bf so i can unmute

crying over feeling lonely and left out again yep its time for my period i think

dont listen to me lm hokng insane from my perios but i miss being skinny..

i burnt my arm

i think... im doing well with this whole streaming thing

when u post ur writing and literally nobody gaf wow life is beautiful

i dont think i have bpd but i slso dont think im completely right in the head

ACK. PLEASEEEEEEE LIKE ME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LIKE ME PLEASE LIKE MEEEE

turns out i was pmsing

its been a whole since i cried. i guess the stress of everything is getting to me now

bruh i feel so out of place in this server it makes me sad because i want to befriend these people so hard but it feels like theyre all just . idk. as if i fucked up some metric and now they hate me

ive had a rlly bad nightmare abt her. thumbs up

scratches ass i think i only recently talked abt streaming. my bad yall. the tism took over i wont mention it as often anymore

blegh

i refuse to let numbers get to me nut im just a bit confused what i need to do to at least get to 3 viewers

i got my pto approved i do NOT need to take a lethal overdose #joyful

need night shift wave cos i just had a collab and i feel so obnoxious now. but never with u guy

i think my mom thinks i was sexually assaulted and thats why ive been in a bad mood and i dont know how to convince her that i wasnt . she means well but how do i even begin

i had one of tve worst nightmares about her death to date 👍👍

im used to having insane unscalable walls up in fact i dont know how to even be myself at this point so it always surprises me when people notice when im withdrawing even further

how does one deal with impulsive decisions while actively suicidal

i think i have burnout. sry if im more lackluster

i dont wanna talk to anyone lmao i need to be alone

v/tu/ber: would the general public be interest in an xyz server? me: omg yea v/t/b: ok im making it!!! but only small circle/mutuals allowed

IM IN SUCH A RANCOD MOOD

kind of sixk of marketing myself it sucks the joy out of that account ill just stream and if ppl fw it then they fw it

i forgot to censor my words and now i have ppl interacting that arent following me. bsky i need privs RNNNNNNN

i hate that being a successful indie vtuber means selling out your morals but ok. never quitting my damn day job

first time ever a yaoi ship that i used to love got sullied by all the fans like wow

post flopped i kns

i know my obsession with smelling good and everything i own smelling even better is borderline compulsive but i cannot fathom how some people live like this. which is why i dont like to stay over at certain friends houses

almost shit myself on the boat ok

i wish my gym had a pool

im not doing so ok

i cannt kill myself bc of the maggots

i might be going clinically crazy

i think im losing it

i think im starting to hallucinate bugs

i think ill be logging off

thought maybe i could just power thru and go to the gym anyways but i read up a bit on it and i definitely have gotten heat exhaustion last time i was there in this weather so i have to stay realistic

when im trying to be anonymous but my typing quirks exist