Honestly despite having to deal with stronger negative emotions too, I'm really glad my positive emotions are no longer being suppressed by SSRIs I feel a lot of love for the people I care most about in my life 💜

I think that starting my journey of understanding my gender identity and sexuality in hypersexual kink spaces run by abusers was detrimental to my development and is probably why I have such a bad relationship with sex now

I know I said that this was a horny and vent account but honestly it's mainly a deeply personal account. Prefacing with that because I had a very nice day with a close friend where I ended up being very vulnerable and open about myself.

It's a crazy thing to say but sometimes I actually feel out of place for not being plural lol I'm the only singlet in my polycule

A lot of the time I really don't feel like I fit in with queer spaces Like did I do being trans wrong?

Definitely feeling like I'm Demisexual because so much of my remaining sex repulsion is around people I'm not dating or don't have a really close relationship with. But when I think of one of them doing things to me I get horny af

I feel coming of antidepressants was the right choice but lemme tell you I forgot my emotions were this strong lmao