Phobias suck. Trying to work through them and failing just makes them even worse.

Feels like a bit since I last streamed. *checks vod date* Month and a half... Well, that's...Not ideal. But we can fix that! Heading live to try out something that's been on my radar for a little while now.

I was thinking about Stardew while at work, and I had an odd train of thought. Doing randomizers a lot recently, and I realized that a randomized run of a simple game such as Stardew can very quickly turn into a cosmic horror story, with the player character the only one realizing something's wrong

People who play modded Terraria, got any suggestions for mods?

Update time! So I went from Part time to full time at my job, which obviously shifts a lot of my schedule around. What this'll do for streaming, I have no idea. I don't want to stop streaming, so it's likely going to be a case of shifting when I stream more than anything. We'll see.

I'm just going to say it now. If I miss streams because *someone* decided to give me a new addiction, blame my sister. Because it is entirely her fault.

I know I haven't streamed at all this week, but our mood's been pretty crap. It's likely I won't be streaming tomorrow, either, but that's because I have a plan I need to set up ahead of time, and while I could stream it, it's not exactly fun to watch. Will update as needed.

I just feel cheated by this limitation.

Aw man.. I guess we didn't all go together after all, Tom Lehrer 😢

Time to take on the gauntlet! Continuing on with FFIII, where, after a few sidetrips, it's time to take on what I will still consider one of the hardest final dungeons in FF. Starting in about 15 minutes. www.twitch.tv/everfreefire

I'm not saying I don't trust certain devs to not kill characters who are waving death flags around like it's going out of style, but I don't trust devs to not kill characters waving around death flags.

Me, get distracted? That never happens! Anyways, late start, but we're back with more FFXVI, and I have no idea what's going to happen now. I'm excited! Starting...Well, now, more or less. www.twitch.tv/everfreefire

Later, therefore shorter stream, but I figure I should salvage *something* from this week. Just back into FFIII, where I have to deal with one of my most hated fights in the entirety of the FF series. It's not even hard, just...Ugh. Starting soon. www.twitch.tv/everfreefire

pspsps, longtime mod and heckin' good friendo Madame Inu is doing her first stream, and I'm not saying go follow and watch but go follow and watch okay so I'm saying it www.twitch.tv/madame_inu

Gotta love when everything goes right for you to be able to stream, only to have your brain go "Wait, you want to *do* something? Best I have is complete apathy."

Just going to put out that there won't be a stream from me today... mostly because it's almost 7am and I'm just going to sleep. On the off chance I'm even awake at stream time...I won't be awake enough to stream.

It's time to start up what is likely the most forgotten mainline FF game. The Onions shall rise! Starting in about 15 minutes. www.twitch.tv/everfreefire

It's taken me nearly two years, but I have finally, *FINALLY* reached the point I made it to last time I played and continued onwards. I'm finally back into blind time for FFXVI, and I am *so excited*!

It's time to properly return to our goal. It's time to punch a crystal so hard it breaks. Starting in 15 minutes. www.twitch.tv/everfreefire

We're heading back into FFXVI again today. With our Earthy rival finally dead, it's time to return properly to our true hobby. Breaking everything. See you in about 10 minutes! www.twitch.tv/everfreefire

Nothing ever beats the fun of a well done Kaiju fight, especially when you're in control. My ankles!

Got to hand it to Kupko, he's doing a good job of staying alive. On the other hand, he's still alive, and we can't let that slide. Going live with more FFXVI in about 15 minutes! www.twitch.tv/everfreefire

Anyone know a way to average the amount of sleep you get? Going from 3 hours of barely sleep to nearly 12 hours of sleep makes planning a bit of a problem, especially when it messing up any attempts at streaming.

So I know I was planning on streaming today, but headspace is bleh and I'm just not in the mental state to do so. Sorry about that. Should be back on Monday.

It's been a bit, but it's time to continue our crystal therapy in FFXVI! Starting in about 15 minutes. www.twitch.tv/everfreefire

I'll take two crowns. #FF5FJF2025

Likely be a low energy stream, and we may not actually finish it, but we're back into the #FF5FJF2025, with one goal. The Tree must die. Again. Live in 15 minutes! www.twitch.tv/everfreefire

I swear my body doesn't like being awake some weeks. Sorry for the missed streams, we'll get back to the Fiesta soon.

CLARIFICATION : The Trevor Project's hotline will still be live. But basically this means LGBTQ people can no longer be connected to it through the US national 988 suicide prevention hotline. They will need to be contacted DIRECTLY So spread this around They can be texted. They can be called.

We're back at the #FF5FJF2025, where we'll be continuing on and picking up our Fifth Job! Will it be an interesting one? Who knows! Starting in 15-ish. www.twitch.tv/everfreefire

The biggest issue I have with my #FF5FJF2025 run is that, with the jobs I currently have, there's a very obvious "Fifth Job me!" option compared to the other jobs I have. It's possible I'll change my mind with the Earth Crystal, but that's unlikely. Either way, we'll find out in fifteen minutes!

You know what? I think it's time to full send the chaos. Meteor Run/Duplicates/Fifth Job/Forbidden/BERSERKER RISK. Let the #FF5FJF2025 begin! Starting in about 15 minutes!

So I had this plan where I would try to finish FFXVI before the Four Job Fiesta's The Run happened, but missing an entire week-plus of streaming meant I am quite behind on that count. I'm still going to keep playing FFXVI, but the Fiesta is *always* a given. I'll figure out a schedule around it.

Pride month has always been a weird time for me. Even before Ilenya being herself, I never really knew where I fell under the umbrella, and a lot of times, I felt like I was a complete outsider. Like I didn't really belong anywhere under the banner. Which is kinda silly, but at the same time...

So about the streaming... Yeah, we messed up our sleep schedule something fierce, and will be working to repair it at least a little bit to get back on track, but it just...Messed up with streaming quite a bit. Messed with a few plans as well, but we'll get back on track.

‪Hai my #Thralls, lets start day 10 of the subathon, we're a bit low energy due to being sick, so come and chill with us! Come hop over and check out the goals and incentives! 🔴LIVE NOW🔴 Come hop on over! www.twitch.tv/kairah #Jiangshi #ENVtuber #uncappedsubathon #Vtuber #TwitchStreamer

Hai my #Thralls, lets start day 9 of the subathon, TIME FOR SCIIIIIIENCE!!! Come hop over and check out the goals and incentives! 🔴LIVE NOW🔴 Come hop on over! www.twitch.tv/kairah #Jiangshi #ENVtuber #uncappedsubathon #Vtuber #TwitchStreamer

Sorry for the lack of stream today. Bad sleep meant I didn't wake up until...About an hour after I would have started, not leaving enough time to actually stream before work. I'll try to not sleep so poorly for later streams, but... Body does what body does and all that.

Heya folks~! I'm streaming a bit of Stardew valley tonight! Waiting on friend to see if she's streaming tonight or not, and if yes, joining her, otherwise, just gonna chill~!} www.twitch.tv/lilystarstri...

Honest question. I've been doing a Stardew Randomizer on stream mostly as a simple thing to do to test timings for a new stream schedule. While it worked well for that, I'm not sure whether or not it's something that was ever interesting to watch. Should I keep streaming it? Or let it drop?

Hai my #Thralls, lets start day 7 of the subathon, Lets continue fighitng aliens, in the struggle for Super Earth! Come hop over and check out the goals and incentives! 🔴LIVE NOW🔴 Come hop on over! www.twitch.tv/kairah #Jiangshi #ENVtuber #uncappedsubathon #Vtuber #TwitchStreamer

It's been a bit, but it's time to join back with Clive as he burns down everything the game lets me! Totally what FFXVI is about, right? Starting in about 15 minutes!

Oh hi hi my #Thralls, lets start day 6 of the subathon, Lets fight some aliens in this radioactive playground, with Fallout 76! Come hop over and check out the goals and incentives! 🔴LIVE NOW🔴 Come hop on over! www.twitch.tv/kairah #Jiangshi #ENVtuber #uncappedsubathon #Vtuber #TwitchStreamer

Time to go live! Just a chill relaxing night of Dinkum cause I wanna play it! So come join me, Wayfaeries~! Time to enjoy the small world~! www.twitch.tv/wanderingniamh

Oh hi hi my #Thralls, lets start day 5 of the subathon, We really enjoy this Barony Game, lets play some more! Come hop over and check out the goals and incentives! 🔴LIVE NOW🔴 Come hop on over! www.twitch.tv/kairah

It's time to return to the chaotic mess that once was Pelican Town, where the hunt turns towards the final missing season. How we lost Summer, I have no idea, but here we are, trying to get it back! Starting in about 15 minutes!

Going to be starting up my Archipelago Stardew for stream soon. Time to figure out just how much I've forgotten! Starting in about 15 minutes, as usual.

Going Live for the first time in over a year! New model, new look, same old cozy librarian vibes! Please come in and say hi! I've missed you all dearly! www.twitch.tv/lilystarstri...

Hey hey my #Thralls, today is day 1 of the subathon, lets gooooooo! Come hop over and check out the goals and incentives! 🔴LIVE NOW🔴 Come hop on over! www.twitch.tv/kairah

One more for the week of testing. I'll likely be continuing some of the timing tests into next week, but I'd like to start getting back into the games I *had* been streaming now that I'm starting to get into a rhythm. Today, however...More Stardew Chaos! Starting in about 15 minutes.