Also going to bed angry is horrible... Dont do it.

I've come to hate how difficult it is to find a solution to a problem these days... All you get is the same shit info no matter how specific you are.

Here is something... I once got timed out in a twitch change for saying Binge, now the streamer in question had just used a banned words list that was popular... but.. in what universe is binge is bad word.. like seriously..

I'm likely going to drown myself in 3D modelling for the foreseeable future. I'll likely stream it also. I've got a big old list of outfit ideas for #rikkor #vrchat models that the community would like to see so going to have a real attempt at making stuff for people other than myself.

Don't know if I'll stream today. Don't know when I'll stream again really. Probably be a few more days, this seems to happen around stressful events.

Pip assessment done, I have no faith in it just going through.. Probably going to have to appeal but eh we'll find out soon enough..

Got out of bed at 4pm today.. Really not doing so well when it comes to actually living.. I'd sooner lay in bed and fantasize about things than deal with reality.

Decided I'm not going to cause myself suffering just to prove a point to people whos job is to save the government money at the expense of disabled people.

Got a PIP Assessment on monday which I'm more than 100% sure is going to go terribly. Tempted to stop taking copious amounts of anti-histamines and go in there fully loaded with the shit I'm dealing with, right now I don't look ill at all but damn I can look like death in a couple of days off meds

Still not feeling like play games.. just not got the same level of excitement and joy as before.. it's just vanished.

Going #live on #twitch! #PathofExile today! More grinding maps and I think I'll try put together my own custom build, It'll be quite janky. :D www.twitch.tv/itsshmoogle #furry #vtuber #rikkor

I designed an otter blanket! Up for presale on my kofi this weekend. 🦦

Will be streaming today, going to see if I can enjoy POE still, might be I just need a different build perhaps. Maybe I'll properly put together the herald of jank build.

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I would love to not have the massive looming FEAR hanging over me all my life. I hate being on benefits and not having any control over my life. I have no choice though cause I can't function for shit in this society and I've spent over 10 years of my life TRYING and I'm done trying.

Wednesday 19th is when I'll be back streaming!! I'll be catching up with you all and letting you know what I've been up to all year. Then playing Lan Party Adventures, which is a cool puzzle game where I have to set up computers while solving a mystery! www.twitch.tv/xemnote

Back to having nothing on my credit cards woo! Though I do need to spend something on one otherwise they'll close the account and I'd rather have the card just in case a big expense pops up than loose it. It's like £12000 credit limit.. it's my main card lol.

Played #PEAK for the first time and somehow my characters legs went all kinda of weird, only visible on my end but it was funny as hell!

I'm live, sat playing #PathOfExile again cause you know.. It's what I do. :D www.twitch.tv/itsshmoogle

Going live with more #PathofExile I'm just going to try ignore all the nonsense I've had to witness today and play some games. #twitch -> www.twitch.tv/itsshmoogle #Rikkor #Furry #VTuber

44 Days of duolingo, I'm not very far through the courses they have, on Unit 3, I can see 4 more ahead of me after that there's more. I'd need to do more than one lesson a day really or other supplementary stuff but things are messy IRL still, everything is done at the bare minimum. Still progress!

A dragon is a type of dog, you can pet her.

Blob cat. :)

My goal is to start streaming again this month!! (hopefully) I made a silly powerpoint for the start of stream to have a little catch up on what I've been up to all year! I've also started on my new 3D model, so hopefully I can finish that soon :3

Pictures from tonight's #Rikkor meet up on #VRChat. I remembered to also add a tiny top hat and bowtie to my new friend!

Looking forward to the rikkor meetup today, I got a new thing to show off on my avatar! :D

Going live with more path of exile today! I found a divine last night so I can do a bit of shopping for some more gear! www.twitch.tv/itsshmoogle

Been trying to get my dad's 3D printer working again so it can print my computers air ducting stuff. The 3D Printer is almost working, Was temped to buy a new modern printer but that's £600 I technically don't have so I'd have to get it on credit. Not decided yet.

Positive day today, bedding washed, washing up done, Left over pizza devoured, well most of it, there are few slices left. Still got to do my aquarium water change, I'll get that done tomorrow for sure.

Bit tired today but back at it on Path of exile! www.twitch.tv/itsshmoogle

Live again on twitch with more path of exile! More maps, more powa! Feeling a little more alive today! www.twitch.tv/itsshmoogle

Just finished up hoovering the complete house and opening windows for some fresh air. Feels nicer in here now but very tired.

I wonder if I'll ever find that thing that'll give me a reason and the drive to get out of bed in the morning.. Highlite of the day is streaming a 8pm everything else just hurts me. *sigh* persistence for the sake of existence..

Live on twitch with more PoE! Doing maps and farming money! yeeey www.twitch.tv/itsshmoogle

Poliwhirl dragon Also Thank you for 1000 followers I feel like I achieved something with this account and it feels nice I might do a raffle at some point but for now I will enjoy having my partner over here in Germany 🐉✨

Spent the last 40 minutes cursing and cussing because of #unity3D... But I got what I wanted done even if I lost all my rig muscle settings because unity corrupted my rig complete and I had to reset everything. ugh.. I have a new friend.

Going live with more Path of Exile today! Going to blitz through act 6 all the way to maps today! Also looking to transition to the main build too! www.twitch.tv/itsshmoogle

Way too many beans to mention here but y'all awesome :3

Nommin some food the will stream. :)

I'm pleasently surpised at the lack of fireworks this halloween. Its been decently quiet and I love it. Also pretty much no trick or treaters too. Now bonfire night is a whole nother thing.

The new #pathofexile league is upon us! I'm following a proper build this time instead of winging it so I might actually get somewhere for once! :D Join me on twitch! -> www.twitch.tv/itsshmoogle <-

No stream today, not feeling great so I don't feel like playing any games or doing much at all.

Managing to keep up with learning Japanese at admittedly a very slow pace. But the language is sticking to some degree. Could probably go a little faster but I think I'd be better off with some extra reading and writing exercises.

Going live on twitch! -> www.twitch.tv/itsshmoogle Something different today! Halls of Torment! Been wanting to play survivor style games a little more and also don't want to burn out on MMOs too quickly so diversity it is!

Going live, Just going to have a nice relaxing gaming season with some dope lofi game music! www.twitch.tv/itsshmoogle

Appointment changed to a more reasonable time.. also turns out it's not ACTUALLY in Sheffield but rather a reasonable ways outside of it so not as difficult to get to as once thought. Still.. 3 weeks of looming stress to deal with now that I have to be somewhere at some point.. yay autism...

Mega stress is here again.. PIP assessment, got a face to face which they thought was a good idea to put in a city miles away and at 8:50am.. Can guarentee they'll say I'm perfectly fine and I have to do all the bullshit appeal stuff again.. Now I have to make a phonecall to change stuff aswell.