可能是因為知道要開學了 我現在就心情不好 也可能是因為昨天過度開心所以現在開心不了

自言自語因為我不厲害和別人說話... 主要是自己開心就好吧（我開心嗎...

感覺很多東西很煩躁

lmaoo

為什麼有些人能一直畫個不停，為什麼能有那麼多想法，哪裡來的動力...我不明白，我做不到這個

我是很容易感到嫉妒的人，我不喜歡我自己這個點

看見一個我喜歡的畫師有自己的錢買自己喜歡的 我忍不住感到有點羨慕... 過後又發現他是一名軟體工程師... 他當然買得起那些東西... 我自己都不起這個科目，退學了，我是個笨蛋，我說不過這個

很多東西想做

我想放假，不想看功課了，但是還剩下很多東西

這個任務可以說是完了，讚

been a month. im still an angry/irritable person. its not getting better. i hate this

yeah. be quiet

sewer slidal ideation. haha

imagine being self aware but still not able to get your shit together. ha... what a joke

low self-esteem and self-worth sucks. part of my brain shuts down and goes on the defensive, "stepping on eggshells", when i try to interact with ppl. if not that, then im being over-enthusiastic and annoying even to myself. i cant believe i lived to be an adult like this

if i die no one will know

thoughts after 12am cannot be trusted. i want to nuke my socials and disappear again

still counting

the number isnt be normal

大學+功課就是給人壓力。每次weekend到我都感覺輕鬆很多，感覺時間安排的比較順暢，沒有那麼經崩。學校和功課可以燒了...

how many mental breakdowns was it this month

這次的🩸是最痛的一次了 已經第4天了還那麼多和那麼痛 我敢再喝冷的吃冷的了 不敢了，我錯了

my whole life i've been running from something. something i don't know about paranoia is ridiculous and tiring

不想活了

跟別人溝通多了你會發現他們的人性缺陷。我很討厭，也很氣。但是這個事我也管理不了，就靜靜吧

功課多到要死 雖然這個星期是自習期 但是我還是怕幹不到

我真的很累 生活很難

growing up and realizing your strict parents raised you wrong and the other adults know about it yet did nothing is another kind of sad cuz im now an adult and i dont know how to do [insert smth normal]

stepping out of my comfort zone and alarms immediately blaring in my head "ABORT ABORT ABORT"

im trying. i will try my best. fumbling is part of the process...

you cant expect anyone to want to be friends with you if youre Not Even Trying To Open Up. like, what the fuck. what the hell are you expecting? you antisocial awkward piece of shit. get over yourself. so you tried and it didnt go as well as you had expected. Stop Having Expectations. nothing goes

im hopeless

i will never be okay

life is so fcking fun hah

feeling sui again

getting annoying. im partly glad i dont have to see them anytime soon later

i dont want to be perceived anymore if my brain makes me feel negative all the time afterwards. i never knew how to handle positive emotions positively, and its so damn hard even when i try to unlearn the habit of bashing myself for feeling happy.

啊... 煩惱🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🩸

睡不夠

想死

anxiety induced dreams are stupid. why did i dream that theres smth stuck in my eye and i cant get it out no matter how much i try

questioning if all my woes are all just in my head. maybe they arent real. maybe my brain just made it up to torture itself and me

收到了燒焦的食物，裡面也有蟲。如果不喜歡這份公的話，請你辭職，不要影響到其他人好嗎

人家問你要不要你說不要，過了幾分鐘自己那邊發脾氣。東西全部推到別人身上，人就氣著跑。你到底要什麼？你這個人大我幾倍還發這種脾氣

我想要殺掉發明這個“大了就要學會忍耐痛”說法的人。真的是殺。就是因為這句很多人都不敢說出自己的痛和煩惱。you dismissive fcks only make this shitty life even shittier

家人只會說我“幼稚”因為每次都肚子不舒服所以不吃飯。你以為我要的啊？？我從小都有這個消化不良的問題。你現在因為我大了你就突然看不順眼？？？去死啦。我沒說我要你把我帶來世界，這個也不是遺傳你們的。爆炸

being around my parents is like wrangling two grown children i want to sh0Qt myself in the head !!!

叫別人幫忙做你的功課然後還要趕別人😄 這個功課也不會難，要趕的話你不就自己做吧🖕

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