又在想著要把全部帳號關掉了

我的情緒又不穩定了

味道感覺不是電腦出來的... 是鍵盤上的塑膠保護蓋

開電腦的時候有怪怪的味道... 我擔心是什麼東西被燒壞了

ad⚫be you suck. 我要uninstall一個program都要等整個cloud sync完才可以。不要浪費我時間啊

回推特一天我就已經看到傻子說話了

是時候減少刷推的時間...

好吧，我也不知道重新啟動推特帳號會是什麼感覺，但現在覺得那裡太吵。簡直糟透了。離開推特一週後，我才意識到沒有它的生活有多平靜

今天就是累，一直累。 情緒0。動力0。 我不想動，不想想

我的精神狀態和情緒又開始亂了

上網刷到一些令人擔憂的po，說什麼“時常感到___和___”，留言全部都說是因為bpd或ocd。真的嗎... 很恐怖。先不要亂相信

忙一整天，神遊物外一整天 每次大節日的時候我就有這些感覺

可能是因為知道要開學了 我現在就心情不好 也可能是因為昨天過度開心所以現在開心不了

自言自語因為我不厲害和別人說話... 主要是自己開心就好吧（我開心嗎...

感覺很多東西很煩躁

為什麼有些人能一直畫個不停，為什麼能有那麼多想法，哪裡來的動力...我不明白，我做不到這個

我是很容易感到嫉妒的人，我不喜歡我自己這個點

看見一個我喜歡的畫師有自己的錢買自己喜歡的 我忍不住感到有點羨慕... 過後又發現他是一名軟體工程師... 他當然買得起那些東西... 我自己都不起這個科目，退學了，我是個笨蛋，我說不過這個

很多東西想做

我想放假，不想看功課了，但是還剩下很多東西

這個任務可以說是完了，讚

been a month. im still an angry/irritable person. its not getting better. i hate this

yeah. be quiet

sewer slidal ideation. haha

imagine being self aware but still not able to get your shit together. ha... what a joke

low self-esteem and self-worth sucks. part of my brain shuts down and goes on the defensive, "stepping on eggshells", when i try to interact with ppl. if not that, then im being over-enthusiastic and annoying even to myself. i cant believe i lived to be an adult like this

if i die no one will know

thoughts after 12am cannot be trusted. i want to nuke my socials and disappear again

still counting

the number isnt be normal

大學+功課就是給人壓力。每次weekend到我都感覺輕鬆很多，感覺時間安排的比較順暢，沒有那麼經崩。學校和功課可以燒了...

how many mental breakdowns was it this month

這次的🩸是最痛的一次了 已經第4天了還那麼多和那麼痛 我敢再喝冷的吃冷的了 不敢了，我錯了

my whole life i've been running from something. something i don't know about paranoia is ridiculous and tiring

不想活了

跟別人溝通多了你會發現他們的人性缺陷。我很討厭，也很氣。但是這個事我也管理不了，就靜靜吧

功課多到要死 雖然這個星期是自習期 但是我還是怕幹不到

我真的很累 生活很難

stepping out of my comfort zone and alarms immediately blaring in my head "ABORT ABORT ABORT"

im trying. i will try my best. fumbling is part of the process...

you cant expect anyone to want to be friends with you if youre Not Even Trying To Open Up. like, what the fuck. what the hell are you expecting? you antisocial awkward piece of shit. get over yourself. so you tried and it didnt go as well as you had expected. Stop Having Expectations. nothing goes

im hopeless

i will never be okay

life is so fcking fun hah

feeling sui again

getting annoying. im partly glad i dont have to see them anytime soon later

i dont want to be perceived anymore if my brain makes me feel negative all the time afterwards. i never knew how to handle positive emotions positively, and its so damn hard even when i try to unlearn the habit of bashing myself for feeling happy.

啊... 煩惱🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🩸

睡不夠

想死