Often people get bored when they've known you for long enough, and kinda move on. I don't really blame them for that, I get it. But there are a few who somehow still think I'm cool after all this time, and still talk to me like the interest never went away, and god damn I appreciate that so much.

Matched nails with the album cover too ✨ Vibes

Pretty, sparkly, glittery blackgaze 💚 music.youtube.com/watch?v=R4IH...

Ahhh it's so god damn cold It hurts I love it💚

I hate that I complain so much about not feeling good enough. But it's just every day now. It will not leave me alone, no matter how hard I try to distract myself or pretend. I take little steps to try and build on, but I cannot create enough momentum to overcome everything sending me backwards.

I need to crawl out of my body, and forget who I am. I'm too stuck.

I never have enough time to get a pic in the morning, but the moon looks beautiful as always. 🌙

All my flirty posts are just towards imaginary people. Which is kinda funny when I really think about it. Hitting on ghosts out here.

Thinking about very pretty things Thinking about doing them with you But I might be a little too lost for that At the moment

Hurt my other hand now, cause I jumped out of bed during a dream and landed on my fan (it broke). Hah. But it was a dope ass vampire dream though, so hell yeah.

A piece of my phone's screen protector broke and slid inside my finger. It was long af, I thought it was gonna break off in there when I was pulling it out. Ouchie.

I'm still in here somewhere. There's so much more hidden beneath it all that I wish I could show you.

I used to believe that people just automatically get more confident with age, and for most of life I was following that trajectory too. This recent swing into the complete opposite direction still feels very weird. It's really messing with me man.

Please life, be a 'lil nicer to me. I promise I'll be a good girl.

I am in fact begging telepathically for your love.

Let's wear the moonlight like a dress And do some lunary type shit

I would really quite like it if you taught me how to be as cool as you

Pretty boy Silly boy 🐕🐶✨

The bootlicking headassery is too much. As always, right wingers are the absolute subbiest of subs.

I accidentally sent some shit to my ex in my sleep. Not even like just text, but links to stuff and everything. That's a whole multi-step process. How the fuck? And how'd it end up being her specifically? I don't understand. Hope she enjoyed the deep dive into leftist politics shenanigans.

I am actually truly clueless now. It's kind of unbelievable.

🖤 music.youtube.com/watch?v=DtPC...

I'm thinkin' about whatever you're thinkin' about.

☕✨🌹Princess energy time🌹✨☕

Your boy been doing the therapy thing for so long. I was 17, and yet I'm still... like this. It's like something is just fundamentally wrong with me, that can't be fixed. 😕

Am I doing good?

Finally made an egge account. Maybe I'll be more unhinged over there or something, and see how that works out.

No sleep everrrr Good for my vampire fantasies But it's stressing me out too I really need to sleep

Got higher Now it feels like my skin is made of sparkles and glitter Still kinda sad though

Gotta get higher 'Til I forget I'm alone ✨

It's about 10 years since my sheltered kid goes wild phase, so Facebook keeps giving me a bunch of memory notification things about it. Mixed feelings.

Escapism levels are not reaching the heights I need them to, but any further would be too reckless. It's good I can recognize this now, but it's so much more boring.

Faking it 'til I never make it 💀

Self-explanatory music.youtube.com/watch?v=ur0W...

Vampires are so fucking cool

I hope I dream about vampires Nighty night Bite bite

I want to see the good in people, even if they wreck my life

I can't stop thinking about it. I want it so badly. The thought and the feeling are consuming me.

Aww man. There was a guy on here also named Eli and we had a bunch in common, so we called each other twins. He was so frickin sweet, and he really just understood, in a way that I don't normally feel understood. I miss that dude. Hope he's ok.

The homie pulled up for the sleepover. 🐝

My attempts going nowhere repeatedly does end up becoming demoralizing after a while. Nothing to really build any willpower on. But there's no other option besides continuing to try over and over anyway despite how incredibly fuckin' embarrassing it is I suppose? Fine. 😊 I will dickhead.

I should take the fact that this hurts so much, and use it to focus on other people who I can tell kinda have a similar thing going on. That's a better idea than how I'm currently dealing with it.

Best believe I notice. I will actually die for y'all 💚

Bruh, why do I gotta be the moodiest mfr alive. How am I supposed to know which of my feelings are real and accurate, when they're changing 24/7 nonstop. Let a boy get a 'lil stability, I beg.

You know how occasionally somebody thinks they see something special in you? And they even get you to believe that may be true a little bit? I miss that feeling.

Ain't gonna lie, I think something inside me finally stopped believing and gave up. And I really hate that.