"Oof" means sex in Hawaii slang btw. Just a silly fact that I giggle about.

Gosh.. thanks guys. 💚 What the heck 🥲 That really helped. Love you all 🥹🫂

If you've ever been nice to me or interacted at all, thank you so much. I honestly hate bringing up that I'm lonely, or that I feel worthless sometimes. It's uncomfortable/embarrassing to talk about for a variety of reasons, and I'd rather just pretend. But it can become so excruciating.

Fuck, everybody really dippin' outta here. Where am I supposed to get all my validation now 🥴 You are such a mess Eli.

Let's go do some bad coping mechanisms together ✨

I feel like I can't trust anything my brain does or says now. I think it might actually be trying to eat me alive 🥲

I'm a silly bonehead.

God damn, I don't think I've dissociated that hard and quickly mid-convo with someone before. That was weird.

I'm tryna make out with your boyfriend. Respectfully, of course.

I miss you twinnnnn @biasedelias.bsky.social

All of my constant escapism means nothing if I ain't escaping with you.

Sometimes I take a sip of a drink, and immediately forget to swallow it, 'cause I am a space cadet. Then 5 minutes later I'm like oh shit, I still got this stuff in my mouth, oops.

It's a pretty day And I hope you're doing pretty stuff And feeling pretty things ✨

I still got this playlist my ex and I made, and I was listening to it today 'cause I'm bored of hearing my own music over and over lately, and her taste was so cool. And then it kinda sent me into sadboi hours haha.

Your heart doesn't need to be perfect to be beautiful. The soft sweet warmth that so clearly radiates from it makes me feel like I got sunbathed flowers in my soul.

She came up to me today and said "Hello sir", instead of "Heyyy giIirrrll" like she usually does. Boring. I like the second one more.

Thinkin' 'bout pretty stuff, as usual.

Oh shit, it's Octopus season, or Octagon time or whatever it's called. Let's get it. 🐙🛑🍂🎃🧛🏻‍♀️

How do I ask for attention without asking for attention

I want to be good enough for people so very badly.

My last remaining Vent bracelet finally snapped in half while I was doing dishes. Rip.

Your feelings are so f🌙✨ing pretty

Trying trying trying

Every day I find a new white hairrr Ya boy almost done for

Eli, you are so god-damned terrible at this, and that's ok. Being nice to you tonight. You still deserve that. Love ya. 💚

You really out here just having a juicy as fuck soul huh?

If anyone is curious, I'm antifa, fuck fascism

I miss when nicotine actually gave me that tingly feeling.

I feel much better today 🙂 But I am still hopelessly craving what I always do.. Eventually Eli. You're capable.

Doing hard work And hard work is doing me

I'm used to this, but I really don't want to be.

Man, what the actual fuck is wrong with the right. Shit is insane.

If my anxiety manifested as a person, I'd definitely seduce them though. I'll get my silly enemies to lovers prescription one day.

Despite my endless longing for connection, I've only flirted with one person this year, which I'm pretty sure is the lowest ever for me while being single. It's strange the way things change. I'd like to say it's all a result of me being more responsible and mature, but I know it's partly fear too.

Be kind to yourself 🌹

Did you know You deserve so much love Frfr

Shenanigan schmanigan. I want to be high so I can pretend about pretty things, but I ran out.

God, I hate being so insecure and scared of people. Sooo wack.

New Lorna Shore and Silverstein albums today though 😊 Heart says yay.

Hope y'all are doing good and taking care of yourselves 💚

The lil' kitty boi purring with complete contentment as I pet him is one of the few pure joys in life. Ahhhhh. I'm glad he loves me.

On some superlunary type shit.

I want to listen to pretty music with you. youtu.be/w9MYVtNcD_c?...

We are very messy, very stressy.

Blood 🩸 Thinkin' 'bout it Remember the ending of Evil Dead 2013 when it starts pouring out the sky like rain on ol' girl? I wish that was me.

Better a broken teenager felt justifiable and totally understandable. Being still just as broken as a grown ass adult feels extremely lame. Perhaps I just won't ever be fixed?

I think dissociation is just my baseline emotional state now.

i still think of people i listened to and interacted w on vent every now and then. idek if they knew where everyone went.

Days I get to work with my sister are so much better.

Can't sleep. Haven't posted selfies in a while. Thinking about the love we hopefully deserve. You certainly do at least 💚