I’ve had to dump two podcasts already this year because they have become so overproduced and shiny for “views” that they no longer feel authentic. Being authentic is key when talking about how ugly reality is. I dunno man, feels like everything is cooked for real.

Spent two hours looking for interesting color cotton yarn. Got frustrated and said “this is stupid, I can dye my own”. Moments later I tripped over a giant package I forgot about. It’s white cotton yarn and dye that I bought four months ago when I was searching for interesting color yarn. 🫠🫡

Would you want Russia to come in and nuke DC and install their version of a better government? Then why the fuck would the people of Iran want us to come and do it to them?

We are a deeply unserious country.

Glad to see that in the year 2026 when you can literally ask an AI to tell you everything about anything, you still out here with your full chest saying you think Tourette’s is a choice. If you want to be ignorant on purpose, go join Lizzy in a Box.

Explained to my psychologist friend who clavicular is. Shes rethinking having kids now. I’m not even joking.

40 years ago today, I hatched from my egg. Ugh.

I took off my pants and wasn’t paying attention and put them back in instead of my shorts. I realized 10 minutes later.

My building management cannot make up their minds about what constitutes an emergency or the law so I have defensively become hostile towards them regardless of the situation. If 9 times you are in the wrong, don’t expect me to try ink you’re right on time 10. This is your job, not a hobby.

I feel like if we added a vote for execution at the end of a presidents term, our country would function a lot better.

Happy Valentinus day to all those that celebrate. No, not Valentine, Valentinus. You know, the gnostic poet who saint valentine is based on. He believed that god was both male and female and that sin was the ignorance of man. Put that in your pipe and smoke it, Christians. Love is love ❤️

Judy’s lawyer emailed me last night to tell me Judy is going downhill. Tonight I got a call from Chandra’s sons that she is on hospice. So…yeah.

So it seems that Epstein Liber DCCXI literally. ironic considering all of this kaballah bullshit is about hidden meaning. I’m either the biggest idiot or a fucking genius and at this point I’m pretty sure they are actually the same thing so it doesn’t even matter. Nothing does. HORRAY!

Maybe if I make people think I’ve had a psycho-religious break from reality I can disappear and nobody will notice?

I refuse to believe I’m the only person who made the connection that Epstein was in an esoteric magick cult. There is photographic evidence that rituals took place. If the FBI doesn’t have his spell book, it is still out there. I sound fucking insane. Maybe I should just stop.

Back when skyscrapers were invented, people were so afraid of the number ”13”, it was not included in the building. Went from 12 to 14. Now we black bag people on the streets and starve children and people are like “ah well”. Think about that for a moment.

You know how people talk about “just knowing” something or someone is right for them? That’s how I feel about this building. Not in a “my strange addiction” way, chucklefuck, in a “I must own this” kind of way. I don’t know why. Ok yes I do but I’m not telling YOU why.

So Mr beast is getting cozy with the Mormons, Epstein believed in some kind of esoteric Kabbalah, they want to declare American a “Christian” nation, and Israel is committing genocide in the name is the Jews. Religion rots your brain, your morality, your ethics, and sanity. Don’t do religion, kids

Listen to me: there were “scribes” who took note of everything. EVERYTHING. Everything that happened is written down somewhere. And no, there’s no way whatever contains it all is destroyed. I promise you I haven’t lost my mind.

My Denmark yarn source is laying off half its staff because of loss in revenue from tariffs. There are no US yarn companies that offer what this company can. You could combine all the US yarn companies and still not have the quality or selection of this company especially at their price point.

A neighbor of mine, late 20s girl who is a streamer and having issues with her parents, just ran up to me , thrilled, and said she found god. If I had to take a stab in the dark, she’s going to think she can fly by the end of the month. Hey, FSM, come get your girl before gravity does.

Psychopathically making a very complex garment without trying it on. Again. I do not learn.

A story in two acts: “These customers are rude they should just stop shopping here” “I have no hours, this company sucks”

Did you know that filling you ear with hot water will make the room spin until you vomit? Neither did I until 20 minutes ago.

A woman I know routinely falls for AI, refuses to acknowledge it, and then talks about how all these other people fall for AI and how stupid they are. It’s painful watching her insult herself without her even knowing.

I’m going to take one for the team and watch-to-review the melanoma drump movie. When narcissists feel powerful they get sloppy jaloppy and they leave snail trails everywhere. When does a person feel more powerful than when they are the star of a multi million dollar bribe movie?

See you in a month.

Chuck Schumer is a terrorist funded by Israel.

I need someone to teach me how to pirate a radio signal. I have an idea.

And the reason I am talking about her and not iCE this morning is because I do not want to go to jail and the only things I can say will no doubt put me there.

I don’t care how cold this sounds; I find it gross that Elizabeth Smart is still rooting around in her 20 year old kidnapping for money and sympathy. Why do we still care about this and not the thousands of black and brown girls who are STILL MISSING? Oh yeah, because she’s white. 🤮

Why does it feel like Saturday?

I have had deep fears and anxiety about certain things my whole life. But I was told that everything I felt or experienced wasn’t “real” or that I was being “stupid” so I never said anything and just did what I was told to do except I was in a state of terror nearly all the time. I said nothing.

I finally figured out my most controversial take. You ready? Surrogacy should be illegal.

Lawyers doing welfare checks on Judy’s behalf. She doesn’t even have the guts to call herself. Showed the lawyer our texts, said she is worried about me. Bitch, we haven’t spoken in a year. You told me adopting me was the biggest mistake of your life and threatened to kill me. Fuck off.

Nope. Not today Satan.

Oh Ron, you have no idea.

Also, if you’ve come from a family like mine, or are interested in the topic, “a study of malignant narcissism” by Richard Wood is a must read. It’s a lot more “human” than something like Kernberg or Kohut. It also may be helpful in understanding what is going on with the US.

The different music I listen to, each song or artist, is a little postcard from a time or place or person that I keep with me everywhere I go.

I had some extra money come in last year and today I realized I must have spent most of it over the 12 months as it is 1/4th of what it was. Then I realized I completely forgot about my acorns account. The 3/4ths had just transferred over there over 12 months. I’m a silly goose.

7 more days will make it a year.

I’m at the point where I am blocking people like Bryan Tyler Cohen, Pod Save America, Kyle Kulinski, and the I’ve Had It ladies. The way they market and the rhetoric they use is so fucking hyperbolic and immature. Nothing they post is real news or mature opinion. It is so gross. All of it.

My brain has been kicking up banger songs from the archives but I’m having trouble understanding why. Today it’s “lying through your teeth” by head automaica. Oh…. I see it now. Nevermind 😜

Bet you didn’t know that TPUSA actually stands for “Trump Pedophilia United Secret Alliance “

Excuse me?!?! EXCUSE ME?!?

Maybe this is just a sign of where I’m at personally but I feel like the thing I am missing from any and all media is maturation. Everyone is stuck in the same place they were 10, even 20 years ago. Media doesn’t seem to grow up. I think this is a symptom.

Logic train time: Cluster b’s are thought to develop because a disruption in object relations. Dementia, in theory, weakens the object relations structure as the patient is even less able to identify the source of the feelings they have. This would, in theory, lead to psychotic presentations.

Bought off brand micro crochet hooks for a project. Proceeded to impale a 1mm hook a quarter of an inch into my finger tip. Weeeeeeee

youtube.com/watch?v=tono... Funny how my oppositional defiance disorder has become a virtue.

Remember when Hasan Piker said we deserved 9/11? This is why.