oops the last past was supposed to have the person's username censored...

I did it again... It's only been two days as well ._. Whatever, I'm having fun.

kipfel :3

I saw a clip of Kiel Tutin doing choreo (www.tiktok.com/@kieltutin/v...) for the song Where Is My Husband. I really wanted to try following along for some reason, so here's my sloppy ass trying to do that :p (I spent an hour and a half doing this)

I just can't gaslight myself into being social with random people. I feel like a bother constantly ._.

I'm gonna try and do at least an hour of dancing most days of the week. Every day minus Sundays and Fridays. If anyone I know wants to join I plan to do them at 8pm US Eastern Time and I'll be on blue like always. I'll still be doing VRD on Wednesdays and Saturdays tho

I actually subconsciously sat like a shrimp when I was in Unity for 4 hours today. My back hurts :(

God I love useless painting that no one will ever fucking see/notice

In theory, I'm stupid. In practice, I'm stupid and dumb.

What did I do all day? Be a Blender and Unity slave... Tbh I could of saved a lot of time in Blender if I wasn't playing dress up but that's half the fun.

You know what sucks, I'm raving about using Affinity but then I'm just gonna be using Photoshop anyways for most things I do anyways (AVI stuff). One, I'm too lazy to swap it over to .af, two Unity won't recognize the file type and I'd need to export a PNG for any change.

I've been playing Vintage Story with some friends recently and it's like all the parts about Minecraft that I hate magnified. I'm a make a farm and forget about it kinda person but VS is all manual labor. Anything is fun with friends but idk how much I can keep playing.

My tolerance for someone I know is rapidly decreasing. Look they aren't outright doing anything technically wrong. But like they're starting to make me thing they see women as objects and honestly it's gross. Idk how everyone I know shrugs what they say off all the time.

Okay so like I don't think you could of done this in Photoshop, but in Affinity they treat filters as individual layers so you can nondestructively apply edits to masks. It's such a small thing but I love it. If you could do that in Photoshop please tell me how, I like learning.

Okay my Discord just updated to get the name font customization. Kinda off putting ngl At least the banners and other profile colorations/effects weren't too intrusive, this one is just in your face and I'm not the biggest fans of it. Idk call me dumb for not liking it, whatever.

As of now, it seems the Affinity Suite has been combined into one software and is now...free...? I'd recommend to check this out if you're even remotely interested.

How did that video sneak into my homepage???

Joining a social event? With my social anxiety? Yeah that was a great idea, fucking dingus.

Why is it that sending a simple friend request fills me with immense dread.

Dance week has made me realize how much I miss my chest tracker :( While it's not that important over hips+legs, the added fluidity it provided was so nice.

Honestly I did wanna keep somewhat of a friendship between them. I really did, but it's hard when I'm always the first to msg anything and you end the conversation after 2 minutes. Felt like I was clawing at something they had no plan to really shut down completely.

Look I know learning a coding language is not that hard, but that doesn't mean you get act like I'm stupid for complaining about it in small talk previously. YOU WERE THE ONE WHO FLUNKED OUT OF IT 2 YEARS AGO. Leave me be holy shit, esp after I helped you is atrocious behavior.

samgwhidj 🤤

boo

zimbolt my fucking feed, please.

I hate weight painting. VertexWeightMix.025 my beloved.

I just had to explain what happened to the CS economy to my friend by calling red skins as legendary skins and knives as mythic skins...

Questioning if I need boobs...

Sneak peek

I've been turning these embers for too long. I need to douse them starting today. I really did go through the 7 stages of grief and I think I'm finally at the end of the road.

How did I listen to someone complain about something minor and then immediately act sexist, then homophobic, followed by, "I didn't mean anything by that" Like the fuck you mean you didn't????

I guess this is where I ended up this morning. I'm just having fun, I don't have anything else in mind other than just fucking with material/texture properties. Yes ik the more clutter I add the worse it'll probably look, sue me (I might keep the eye thing for future cases)

Not sure what I'm doing nor what I want to achieve. I just kinda got bored and opened Unity ngl.

I just helped someone do their fucking coding homework for 3 hours. I wanted to play Vermintide with them not tutor them 😭

Seeing someone completely new to VRD was a breath of fresh air. At least they weren't as social anxious like I was before and actually got on the floor. I should've added them ngl since it seems like they know nobody at VRD, but I'm sure they'll drag their friends in eventually.

i feel fake as fuck

Someone is me rubbing me the wrong way. Like they haven't done anything but the way they interact with others and how they navigate conversations just is not sitting right with me. It feels like they're really trying to go after someone and it's not not slick at all.

Everyday that passes it's looking like I need to swap to W11 I'm still refusing to do so rn out of spite and laziness. No I will not be switching to Linux (Don't hate it, I'm just too lazy to troubleshoot everything) and no I will not do LTSC fuckery.

I got bored and wanted to do something.

I know where I set my overall boundaries for everyone I talk to, but even then somehow I feel undesirable to a weird degree. I understand I don't put myself out there so this is a product of my choosing. Feels like if I'm being true to myself I'm just another fly on the wall.

Night dwelling

Ain't no way there's drama audio types in VR clubs. Who gives a shit, just spread the msg of putting noticeable toggles at the spawn/before entering the floor and call it a day. Ik I'm contributing now but like this feels so blown out of proportion when it started from one obviously drunk person.

I'm saying someone is probably gonna be in a vegetative state bc they're gonna be high as fuck. Someone else immediately says "Body pillow of X person?" Like am I over reacting or is that not just like... ew...?

This fucking sucked :( youtube.com/clip/UgkxHmp... Not once but twice :( youtube.com/clip/Ugkxhg5...

2.5 maps completed. Yes I quit out halfway through the 3rd one, fucking sue me bitch. Might do it again next week idk :((((((((

For those whom are REALLY bored www.youtube.com/live/caLaf5R...

I'm gonna do it tonight. Maybe in an hour maybe earlier but fuck it amirite?

Wouldn't say I'm a hardware snob but I though I might as well try out new mouse skates since I wanna get a new mouse pad soonish. Full skate Superglides v2 -> Obsidian Air dot skates I'm not disillusioned enough to say these will magically improve my aim lol

Friend told me to play BLG18 maps but stream me doing them solo. I think it would be somewhat funny but at most you see me jump/fall with only game audio. Biggest issue tho is I think my internet is too shit to really stream at a consistent quality. Still kinda tempted ngl...