Modded SDV got me.... So yeah... My fanart WIPs will just continue to haunt me for now.

It's still my choice who I support. No one else's.

I really want to get those plushies... But I don't have any extra hobbies funds for it....

Happy 4th Anniversary! #BrothyriArt #DrawMillie #Palouette

Already late with my anniversary fanart. I hope I'll finish in time before their streams.

I guess my anxiety got me real bad a few months ago that I'm mostly a lurker now. I know it's irrational of me but it's still there. I still want to continue making things. I just have to deal with my frustrations with myself again and again.

I should really use a timer on myself when playing games or I'm not gonna have a lot of time to draw. Case in point, me getting back to Stardew Valley and playing the Expanded mod got me too invested. Meanwhile, my rough sketches are just stockpiling and not being finished.

It will all kick in again once I'm all alone in the middle of the night. I can't even process my emotions right now, let alone words.

To be honest with myself, I haven't really recovered much yet from 🐏. With 👻, I kept my emotions bottled up until it was the goodbyes. My eyes tearing up while painstakingly knowing there's another farewell soon.

The beloved ghost of our hearts. May happiness always find you. #Reimural #OtsuMumu

It's just tiring and heartbreaking...

🤍🤍🤍

I was never good at handling goodbyes and I don't think I'll ever be.

Don't be mistaken. She's still my kamioshi. #fanart

I'm lost for words. My songbird oshi sang for an upcoming mobile game from my most favorite franchise. I already planned to play when it comes up, this just further solidifies that plan. I have to do some cleaning up in my phone for a bit more storage though.

I'm not gonna lie. This made me smile hard when I saw 👼used this as a membie thumbnail. It kept my mood up during my shift. Never in my life have I ever truly believed on any of my oshis using any fanart I draw. It's such a great honor.

"Promise...?" (Have another silly #calamitybird #fanart from me)

So I moved. It's the big change that happened to me recently. I lived in the prev place for almost a decade, was just 18 back then and it was good enough until it wasn't anymore. Still taking it all in and recovering from carrying stuff up and down flights of stairs, both the old and new place.

Almost there. My body hurts all over, especially my legs. But it's all worth it.

I wanted to post something for my birthday today. I just drew something silly, the usual... But I don't think today's the right time for it anymore. I'll share it in the future instead. Still not good with handling my emotions so I'll just focus on the things I can.

It just stings...

Ngl, as much as I'm excited on what's about to happen in my life, there's still my anxiety. It's still a big change for me. But overall, the pros greatly outweighed the cons. I'm prioritizing it for now. Hopefully, once all settled, I can continue with my creative hobbies.

I'm sorry that this is so messy and rushed. I still want to give you something before you go. You always gave us so much. Baa you, Fuuchan. Thank you for everything. Have a great new journey ahead and may happiness always follow you. #Artchivist #FulgurCakedUp

Baa you, Fuu.

I haven't cried this much for so long. I'm eternally grateful that fate lead me to NIJI EN.

I wanted to do at least two fanarts about him before the day but I guess I can only scrape by with one. I'll still want to do the second one after. Hopefully after certain things in my end are settled, I'll get more motivated to be creative. Here's to hoping anyway.

I have nothing meaningful to add. This is just me rambling. Just me trying to process the most recent news.

Best friend and roommate brought me out of the apartment for two days to make me feel better about what's going to happen. Would still sob whenever I read about it, but can hold back a bit better. It was a fun time. Though, got a cold due to the constant change of temperatures during the hangout.

Fuck, it still hurts. Already cried myself to sleep. Spent about an hour just walking around the supermarket even after I already got the stuff I need, almost cried again while in public. My heart and my head are just a mess right now. Even so, I still hope for his happiness.

YOUTUBE?!?!?! CAN YOU PLEASE LET ME RECOVER FIRST!!!!

Thank you for being here. Thank you for being you. Thank you for the wisdom and encouragement you always share with us. Thank you for being an incredible source of warmth and comfort. I can never thank you enough. Thank you, Fuuchan. Thank you.

I... I... I'm not ready... I don't think I'll ever be... But, I still wish him happiness...

The heat is really getting to me. This is nothing new. I dread this season every year, it's just gradually getting worse. I already have sleep issues. With the insufferable heat, I just keep waking up more than usual. It just ruins my mood.

Originally planned to just check out something important but got way way more. Regained the few pounds I lost recently and possibly got more? Yes. Didn't get "enough" sleep during my offs? Nothing new. The chance of getting a heatstroke? Possibly. Was it all worth it? Definitely.

Thanks to a certain cyborg oshi of mine, I can't decide if I should do fluff then angst or the other way around or a mix. I initially planned on drawing fluff before any angst whenever I get the creative energy for it. So yeah....

Just these two again. Another silly thing. An awesome dude, Kammuy99, gave the idea of which pairing. The original post of the art trend is on twt.

NOCTYX! ❤️💜💛🧡

I really can't with this weather. The irony of being born, raised, and living in the same tropical country but unable to deal with extreme heat. Climate change is not a joke. It's just gradually getting worse every year. Screw it. I'll just melt then.

Happy Birthday to Mr. Fulgur Ovid. An inspiration who has been continuously and positively reminding me that age shouldn't stop us from enjoying things. Baa you, Fuuchan! #Artchivist #fanart

I should really stop overcomplicating things. Having many ideas on what to draw/write would lead to nowhere if I keep thinking of adding too many unnecessary details or external factors. I just want to enjoy making art, not drive myself to drop these hobbies again.

I really did miss my kamioshi a lot. Watching her stream again after a while just cemented it. Hearing her gremlin laugh and doing her usual antics again, I'll admit that I did get a bit emotional.

A downside of not having weekends off is missing many events I'm interested in on going and a lot of hangouts with friends. My consolation to myself for it is taking a week long break from work on specific dates within the year using my vacation leaves.

I've been doing random doodles from time to time, whenever the energy is there. Nothing post worthy. Hopefully, the energy keeps coming back so that I finish and post art again soon.

I caved in and bought World Of Final Fantasy CE on Steam while its on sale. I just love how the creatures are a main part of the game after watching a close friend play it years ago. I should start playing in it after I finish my Pacifist run of Undertale, not before.

It's been two years since I started to watch Niji EN. I hope to have more fun memories with the livers and the community! (Have doubts on posting this on my art twt, leaning on not. Just not trusting twt, getting worse for me. Only there for the people and interests I follow anyway.)

Even though I grew up and live in the same tropical country my whole life, I still hate the hot weather of summer. I wake up sweating and unable to stay asleep more than usual. Can't even bury myself with pillows and plushies, which I find comforting, without feeling the heat even more.

I wish I'm good with words. Then maybe, just maybe, I can properly express my feelings without messing up. (Only able to watch the free portion of the concert on YT) My decision still stands. I have no regrets on staying with them. No regrets on supporting them.

Having FOMO. I still hope on everyone who went and is going to NijiFes to have an amazing time! (Late on Neko day but still have a meow meow cuz I miss my oshis.) #fanart

I hope all who are attending NijiFes have an amazing time and enjoyment to their hearts' content.

Happy Birthday to the one and only Enna Alouette! 🥳🎂🎉💜🕊️🎐💜🎉 #EnnDay2025 #Palouette #fanart