i have a good relationship with like nearly all my exgfs now. its weird

its been a time of heightened social friction. anomalously, besides the macro factors

nothing needs to be internet scale

feel like ppl are evaporating. saw this movie got a "great wide reception" because 228,000 "smart tvs that counted ppl who watched the film for at least a minute" saw it over weeks. didnt movie theatres count millions in a weekend ? are ppl engaging with creative media ?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hhNBnkBwKkA flow2 - もきね #nowplaying so much with so little. i love how much this game is just built around the piano

f/sn deen was a little loose with the rules but really faithful tonally and visually. fate route ending is gonna make me cry always anyhow

ATCかいた

kinda wanna spend a week in rural qc somewhere. idk where to look for rentals, though

Is the gh alt still a tossup between codeberg, srht, gitlab? My issue is that I make a lot of private repos but I guess I could just stand something up myself …

Read the Dilbert Future in fifth grade. I remember a big part of the book was about how women invented religion to control men and how you needed to take it back with affirmations. Weird book. RIP to Adams tho, he seemed very contrite in his last months as though waking up from a long dark dream […]

the homies just wanna feel useful

what i think about sometimes is how self-hosting actually makes my stuff less likely to survive if i suddenly die. like if i was just keeping a site on neocities for free or w/e it would likely stay up, but on my own vps it would last a few months then go offline

the girl really likes morrowind

Thinking about possible new arcs to throw ppl off with

sometimes it's not a disorder, you're just really pure of heart

It’s probably noble to permutation city style ask everyone for rss feeds and seppuku into nextworld

Wow it’s the 24! I love that bus!!!

*running around snowy town* happy new year fedora! happy new year GNOME project! happy new year thinkpad nipple!

only brief hours left for you to ruminate on the year's discoveries https://paralogue.org/viewtopic.php?t=76

enlightened: new atheism was sent to help humanity discard inaccurate and inappropriate conceptions of God. Dawkins is a Master of the apophatic

Happy Christmas :-)

just goin thru the watch later list today. but in my defense my watch later vids are pretty good

finally getting to this sadie plant talk, far too late; a fun recapitulation from an earlier era https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=doL9mRMEUGw

i wish more ppl thought about the actual saint nicholas. i think it inspires one towards generosity. i guess he resurrected pickled children also https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saint_Nicholas

i took a novel with me on the train rides to get myself to read something that wasn't theology and then didn't read it, downloaded a theology book and read it instead on my laptop. this appears to be a fixation rn

Just watching fields pass by on the train, vibing to Long Season, all is right in the world for a second

reflecting more on some idiosyncratic belief systems https://eidoli.ca/posts/postscript-on-participation

"On the Abolition of All Political Parties," Simone Weil

lacking in brothers ... like literal fraternal figures

sometimes we have guests and we go out and i'm like "ahh ... a full moon ... it bring out strange behaviour, but only latent ones ... a powerful time for some rituals, but not all ... you may want a waning phase to calm down an older curse" and then they're like "y-yea haha" and i realise im not […]

i think half the fun of an online video game is ... being recognised ... 'known for' stuff ... emerging as mysterious force piloting an entity on the map ...

another fun desktop ux talk from a veteran! yay i love these https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1fZTOjd_bOQ

the heart death of the universe

Substack always had, but is getting more, of a Medium valence to it over time I think. It’s hostile and clunky

the year isnt over and listenbrainz is rightfully not gonna show a year in review yet

happy advent! get in touch with ppl you havent talked to all year, mail ppl cards, have some mulled wine-- it's a season of reconnection, of showing up even when it is least expected, to say i am here, i will encounter life with you, through you, to affirm it all together

is the multiverse mysticism for atheists ?

i realised recently that post-2015 slow facebook exodus that i never really found anything to replace proximal social notification (think personal groups, etc.) and all my online experience became broadcasts from online people to online people which has probably caused a bit of alienation. the […]

#nowplaying honestly this satie performance by de leeuw is good decompression music https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nLQhYmesIR0

i think what i would miss the most is music; playing and listening alike both require linear time, embodiment, motion. nonlinear time would have nothing like it

had an intrusive vision of the bus zooming past an enormous neon street, like cutting straight into dōtonbori ... but reality crashed in, instead, soon after. endless montreal darkness

something really foul and scary about gingerbread men ... like i'd eat the gingerbread but now you've gone and assigned it a referent in some unknown human being ... you're tethering this for some nefarious purpose ...

a lot to remember

want to learn piano if only to be able to play ‘Clair de lune’ — as fast as a sunshower or as slow as a forbidden pond you reluctantly taste — at any moment in life

lest we forget

may all who have died in despair find a lasting consolation in Your endless embrace; may we have the grace to be Your hands, Your heart, while they are still with us

why aren't we all living like 18th century nobility? we kind of are in the sense that the most popular activities are gambling and getting into arguments but we should bring back living in the country and spending half the year visiting people at their houses in the country