whenever a dear mutual asks for drawing requests and i say beatin please know it is not meant as a cunning scheme to get sylviens drawn for me also but the fact that it has happened that way twice does fill me with so much love and joy

Oh nooo an excuse to go re-read Uncharted Waters (here btw archiveofourown.org/works/69381841) fic by (and Sylvien belongs to) @u-andcloud.bsky.social

in his hookups era NO one was coming back to his place, that was his space and he would rather meet up literally anywhere else (with a slight preference for places he couldn't be expected to stay). and he was very forward (and *straight*forward) to the point of people often being a bit taken aback.

It’s The Struggler Tuesday. Are You Struggling?

weird post to pop off. i know it's a relatable feeling on its own but Do They Know i'm talking about the oc-ified fate/zero characters who raised my wol.

i think i need to investigate some tools to make younger valerien as short as he should be. min height is not enough.

ohhh i see they'll be living in my brain for a bit now

Day 22. Awareness On the modern au keeps consuming me, have veda and hancock drinking in a totally legitimate establishment archiveofourown.org/works/71247596

"What's that look for, boy? Near as I can tell, there's something stalking these halls that should scare you far more than me." "Who are YOU? And who are you calling 'boy'?!"

flipping from poses of younger valerien to studium-era lysander like "god NO one is buying that they're not blood related. they literally aren't but no one believes it."

the saunder/valerien dynamic is important to the latest Phone Notes Essay and i just keep thinking about how as much as it would be fun to write them alone (not just as a cameo) i have no good plot ideas to justify why they are. the way they are.

ah damn i forgot that it was wolhien week (real) now... a whole month later and i still did not write anything 😔

#WoLHienWeek2025 September 21st - September 28th Day 1: First Meeting/First Impression Day 2: Battle Ready/Fight Club Day 3: Relationship/Friendship Day 4: Free Day! Day 5: Alternate Universe/AU Day 6: Leadership/Power Day 7: Freedom Feel Free to RE-POST ✨ #WoLHien | #HienRijin | #WoLship

The latest two are 'Lente's Tears Lejo' which is where we get our beautiful slutty outfit from @goldenwren.bsky.social, and a kind of for-shits-and-giggles medieval knight AU where Lejo wants to guard a beautiful prince, but is unfortunately not picked first for the dodgeball team, as it were.

i wanmt to talk about lysander but i don't have time. :(

🐉 "To live is to suffer... but do not avert your eyes. See your life for what it is. Then you will see how the hardships make you strong. Every doubt reforged as scales for your armor" The father of dragons, Midgardsormr joins the Untamed TT collection✨ illus. @madbrake.bsky.social #ffxiv #ff14

actually. self-deprecation slightly canceled, perhaps. lysander wouldn't consciously acknowledge this aspect of his hesitation but Hien kinda *does* see some side of it despite knowing literally nothing of the Theo situation at this point. so observant hehe.

On the autumn equinox, in a clearing at the edge of Eastern Thanalan, a union of sun and moon. "For as long as the flame of our love burns brightly." "For as long as the flower of our love grows strong." Happy anniversary, catboys. 🖤🤍 #gposers #wolzhaia

awawawa...thinking about Theo a bunch just means i can go back to Lysander's main ships feeling so much More about them 🥹

in wanting what others have: Lysander is good at going after what he wants, so it's rarely something he holds serious resentment over. in keeping what he has: in principle, he doesn't want to feel possessive, esp over people. in practice, it happens, and tends to withdraw about it.

circling back to a lysaymhien wip like "oh thank god i still love them"

Day 20. Labyrinthine Explicit. On unwanted, yet not undesired encounters and yeah, this one is the grandpa pvp archiveofourown.org/works/71179906

i keep trying to answer that "second kiss" question and not knowing how to sum up lysander and hien's because like. well one of the differences is that aymeric isn't there getting a little horny about it. and they happen about five minutes apart. but it's still a distinct second kiss?

that wasn't what i was doing ALL day. i got sidetracked by crafting another weird loft for lysander's house.

got manga club to read tricornered window hehe.....i can't wait to talk about my triangles

i want to gpose smut but i feel my vision will be difficult to execute. but if it's difficult enough maybe that will get me to just write the fic. (although i think i abandoned the fic for similar logistical issues..)

Pre-ShB feels 🥲 Basille fell "ill" before Thancred, but the Scions didn't notice because it was midnight. Just a nightmare. And then, the peace conference, and everything piling up...

(i feel like bsky ate this post and unfortunately i like attention)

finally dyed this top. and still in awe of the DOF changes to vanilla gpose, so you get both normal and without the filter

My favorite Minion: Tora-jiro. #FFXIVART #Torajiro

once again on topic. this one just makes me happy tbh. (also #felsfic so i don't have to search my posts for tumblr mentions to find it)

well i spent way too much time on that!!

man what was i Just saying about a tumblr voice in my head telling me i'm being problematic.

and of course the best for last

ahhhhh the tidal wave is crashing again. ok.

(yes still talking abt this sorry) as i ponder timeline i realized lysander managed to befuddle ME with the way he talks around theo bc he says he was with him for "two summers" which is TRUE but which downplays the fact that it was. 2 years and 10 months and that 3rd summer was *narrrowly* averted.

innocent and blameless Lysanders get put in the Elf Wiggler to atone for the difficulties endured by their creator

i'm still so normal about them. i've never been more normal #rontoto

"So I ask you: Have you yet the strength to stand?" I was overjoyed to get asked to work on Hien's TT card for @ff14untamedzine.bsky.social #ffxiv #ff14 #hienrijin | ff14untamedzine.bigcartel.com

sometimes i start drafting out lore threads in my notes so bsky doesn't eat them but then they become something like the equivalent of 20 posts and i have to face the question of whether i can really make another tumblr post about theo.

i want to stay home. where the customers can't get me.

the housing items that i spend two weeks gathering materials for are so anticlimactic to actually make

i love getting to work early so i can start wanting to die before my scheduled wanting to die time

as much as I complain about them being stuck in their offices, I don't put Aymeric and Hien into much more of the plot than what they're already a part of. Lysander might wish they were there when the msq gets tough, but i think ultimately he prefers to claim their time when there *isn't* a crisis.

#fe3h #fe風花雪月 ^_^

It Only Tuesday https://theonion.com/it-only-tuesday-1819569397/

(i'm starting to feel like i don't really know enough people for this but i'm posting before i chicken out) Come say hi, hang out for a bit, mayyybe join me for a guaranteed portal map if we have enough people who want to... just an excuse to see people in-game (and give you rocks).

a kiddo and his carby :)

I just gave him a name that I liked (after like three hours of thought) and retroactively the lore reason is that a. he's adopted and both his dads use Saunder's (fake-ish) last name, and b. Valerien would rather pick a name from a mage he likes, instead of following Elezen conventions #felsfacts

im gonna say this really loud this morning i really need everyone who thinks theyre being annoying about the things they love to do it more. do it louder. your happiness is so special and wonderful to witness and i hope you learn to love the space you take up in this world like we all love it