over here, looking for ghost. come hang out!? www.twitch.tv/deafgirl_gam...

trying to go live tonight, updates on things with mom later. www.twitch.tv/deafgirl_gam...

First stream in almost a month.. and it was 7 hours 0.0 I am exhausted, got a snack and about to go to bed.

Holy shit, I went live?! www.twitch.tv/deafgirl_gam...

If all goes to plan, Friday will be a stream. I am trying to make myself stay awake to reset my body from all this stress this month. However... it won't be dbd.. a friend wants to play, and asked for a rage game The we were here series.. so.. be ready for yelling :D

This is my mama. She looks a lot better today than she did a week ago.

Spoke to mom today, she is doing better, but still very weak. Still very much touch and go from here on out with her.

I may try to stream tonight. Not sure of the time. Am making dinner right now, then get me a bit of sleep and go from there. I know it's usually my phasmo night, but I need to catch up on dbd chaos shuffle before it ends.

They are planning to move mom to a regular room, and keep her through the weekend. Then the plan from there may be rehab. It depends on what the insurance will cover.

Oldest brother said mom seems to be doing well! I am more optimistic now, than I was! Not even remotely out of the woods, but maybe I have a bit more time with her.

They are running blood gases again, and will probably be taking mom off the tube today. She will not need dialysis, and has been asking for food and water, so that at least is a promising sign. It all hinges on if her lungs work. Once the tube is out, that's it, If she doesn't breath on her own.

In the next couple of days, they will be removing the vent from mom. There is a chance that she will stop breathing again. I left the decision up to my brothers this time, and I think they decided not to intervene if she stops breathing.

I debated on streaming tonight, because I need the company, however.. I haven't slept more than an hour.

Update as of now. They still don't really know much, she is stable, kind of, but sedated. They are talking dialysis, so I am assuming her kidneys are not working right. Oldest brother said she is doing bad, but doesn't think I need to be up there right now.

Also, throwing out feelers here. If anyone knows of a legit work from home job, not the play to earn things, dm me. If the worse should happen right now, I will end up homeless next month, because I won't have enough money to pay the bills.

I asked this in Twitter, but gonna ask it here too. With context. I have an eye infection, started yesterday. Actively draining right now. Odds are they won't let me see mom anyway, but... Would it be a mistake to not go up there? I truly don't know if I can deal right now. I was thinking phone call

Mom has taken a bad turn, and coded on them tonight. Please keep us in your thoughts.

Mom was taken back to ER today, she is not doing well, and thinking she might have another infection. Will update when I can.

gonna try and get a little rest, and see if I can stream a couple hours when I wake up. Between pain and exhaustion this week has been rough.

unfortunately, no stream again tonight. It's just too cold, net is having a shit fest

Bad news, My internet is no longer stable. So.. It's looking like no stream tonight after all.

As of right now, net is stable. We got around 5-7 inches of snow. Only main worry now is tree limbs breaking off and hitting lines here, or some idiot hitting a pole. As of now, I plan to stream a few hours tonight. Normal DBD.

9 am update, I am going to bed. We still have power and net, but not sure how stable the net is.

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We were upgraded to a winter storm warning. Calling for 4-6 inches, with some places being higher. I am not stressing yet though, because I have seen this before, and then there was no snow. Still cautious though, and streams may be on hold due to issues.

Anyone want to join overcooked all you can eat games tonight? Person who was going to join can't due to time. If you want to join, but don't have the game, hit me up.

Mom's heater stopped working, so I put the one I had been using in her room, as it stays warmer in my room than hers.. however, I am regretting it so much, as I am cold AF now, lol

Odds are against me to have a stream Friday. Iykyk

decided to postpone tonight's stream to tomorrow, pain levels are still pretty high right now.

I slept through the storms, and it was nice and comfy.. now it's not.. hell of a temp shift.

went live with some ghost hunts. www.twitch.tv/deafgirl_gam...

I missed Mildred's rise, which sucks, but.. I will try again either later today, or tomorrow. On the bright side, I will have a lot of discard, so I can make some crackers I have been eyeing.

Tonight I streamed for a few hours, and all was good until I started lagging. Everyone said their view was fine, but on my end it was bad. Pc hit 81c, which it has never been that high during streams before. Without streaming it's about 38c

Today, Mildred is 4 weeks old. She appears perfect, even after she has completed her peak. So... I am prepping her tonight to attempt my first loaf with her tomorrow. I will do my best to record it, but y'all know how I feel about showing my face.

Bought an electric cat toy, and catnip locker balls. Salem loves the lickers, but isn't interested in the toy, maybe later? He has never really been big on play. Sabrina however, has already played with it so much I had to turn it back on, the timer went off and she was like.. "why you no move?!"

In today's episode of what has Sabrina broken now.... She somehow knocked my Yankee candle off the nightstand and did it in such a way it shattered the glass all over the carpet. This cat is gonna be the death of me.

I had to keep moving Sabrina off my lap, to do things for mom. She is letting her displeasure be known.

everything booted, so hopefully this works for a long while

Not me remembering after I installed all of this that this mb had stopped working before. It is what lead to me buying a new one to begin with. Hopefully whatever caused it before is fine now, or at least long enough until I can save up for a new board.

So, old mb worked, but I gotta get some tools to get the nvme out of the other mb, and switch out the processor/fan not tested the gpu yet either. I am gonna nap, as my pain levels are high from all the stress right now.

Later today, I am going to attempt to replace the motherboard, and try that. I have changed every cable configuration multiple times. It acts like it gets no power. All else fails, guess I try to come up with money to take to repair shop.

This is the oddest trending mashup I have ever seen.

Either I wired something wrong or something is fried. I don't have the mental capacity to work on it anymore right now. I am exhausted, crying due to stress, and in a lot of pain. I gotta make dinner too, and am just done.

A new case has been obtained. When brother gets back here with it, I will be working to out it all together, wish me luck!

I am scared to take the bandage off my leg for good, last w times I did this, it opened back up, but.. I think it's time? Been over 2 months of healing now, it has to be healed, right?

So, I didn't notice I accidentally tagged someone in that other Mildred video.. my bad! I swear this site is not meant for people with attention span, or just thinking issues, in general 🤣 here is an untagged (I hope) video of Mildred the sourdough starter breathing.

Enjoy toe beans

Since switching to bread flour, I am noticing a huge difference in Mildred's texture. During and after her peak, she holds together for longer. I know this isn't "new" but I just used what I had, which was bleached all purpose. It worked, but was slow.