realizing i work an hour later than i thought after i've already done all my morning prep so it's too late to get another hour of sleep, kick my ass

BBQ PORK MY BELOVED

made an experimental sandwich to take to work for lunch and it looks like fake burgers...

i can't say for certain but i do have a hunch where the whole "righteous and noble teacher figure afflicted by human desire for contact gets tormented by student with sinister intentions" thing about making the teacher's pet vn inspiration might have come from. just a hunch

let's fucking finish this, boys #meireads

[looking at the stacks of all my other book series that's accumulated while finishing my current investment, as if i didn't already figure out 2 weeks ago it was going to be erha] hmm wonder which series i should catch up on next

3.5 hours and 8 or so inches of hair later

think i am ready to return to betrothed with the lens of writing it for a more expressly adult audience not baselessly, but rather to stop restraining myself from what feels natural to it, arbitrarily, so i can instead approach it like i did scales

logged onto main and saw 30+ notifs and got frightened the danmei rly always does it huh

why pay for it when you can hang around your local tboy for free

part of the trouble with putting out scales is that there's still a lot of subject matter i don't feel fully confident calling "done" until i've had the time to do deeper research and familiarize myself with more nuance and context partly why it was always meant for later despite being more complete

the whole day is gonna feel off when you have to wake up from a dream of someone and remember they died never had it happen like that before

trying to make a prediction how many sex scenes will take place from this point until the end of the series. my guess is 3

still going [masochistic] #meireads

had the thought "i would put mo xi in the kansi venn diagram" and my understanding of the appeal that a character has to me has never shifted so radically in an instant

reading danmei was the best decision i ever made in my life

for sake of ease i'm gonna start tagging these #meireads

good pics of my judgy cat

getting to a sex scene in a book im reading in public and trying to act normal has this exact dichotomy of external presentation vs internal strife

felt like this for once today

man starting over basically from scratch is hard. feels like that's always where i find myself

wasted my fucking time figuring out and filling the application to renew my passport only to find out the barcode that's required for me to submit it is seemingly only generated by the dumbass online form filler that's been unavailable for 6 days, and no time frame for when it'll be available again

brain buzzing too much and the feeling of existential melancholy and despair is setting in so that tells me it's time to go to sleep, gn

these volumes normally come out 3 months apart so i have hope in my heart that the extra time between these was bc they're giving us the uncensored cut..... pls i need this

are you fucking kidding me

the real test of my faith in trying to attract scales to an audience that will likely consist largely of other danmei fans is going to be what kind of weird colorist comments may be directed at kansi for having a darker skinned protagonist

finally got some kind of response abt the quebec surgery and it was just to tell me it could take up to a year to evaluate my file my brother in christ that's how long the coverage approved me to get the surgery DONE, tf am i gonna do after that

the amount of people who refer to the series as if it's not intentionally gay when it was explicitly pitched as gay is making me insane. i am begging for media literacy if all the visual representations and metaphors and direct dialogue were replaced with full sex it would be less gay than it is now

bet it feels good as fuck if you're an incomprehensible mass of existential feeling in a person suit to have someone you like put their hand in your goop and feel around. im jealous

evil ghost dimensional rift pussy must go crazyyyyy

artist friends when they draw each other’s ocs

yknow what. ive had it im posting chapter 1 of the novelization

i don't like to oversell my abilities, which is why i'm so hard on myself abt my work & lack much confidence in it but i genuinely think the ending to scales is. probably the best work i've ever done in anything thus far bc of how it gets there ofc, but. i rly do feel that each time i go through it

yea like that

I Like It When It's Shameful

god i love gay horror

Oh? You’ll play with me?

adhd

i call this the "help i'm gay and a horror monster that will almost certainly kill me is in love with me and i might be into it" combo

Can I just say how fucking ridiculous it is that queer and nsfw art is more heavily regulated than the fucking plagiarism machine destroying our planet that is genAI

ohhh bank is stressing me out and i just gotta stop looking at it and see if it's just that nothing is processing bc it's too late at night before i have a stroke

honse 🐴

gf sent this and said it was scales and it just feels great to be understood, yknow?

I dont "NETWORK", I do not "keep a consistent schedule", I don't try to make my art "stand out" on people's feeds. I POST MY ART. And if it flops, I DON'T CARE.

me trying to trick people into playing my vn

This took way too long to make #aitsf #ains

one day steam will be ready for people to upload artbooks to their website and ill be free

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