i jumped into a new fandom where rpf ended up being prominent as well, here's to hoping (begging) the FALSE queerbaiting allegations follow me there too!!

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me last year, still applies

as someone who had 🧊 raid my home and had my stepdad taken from me in the middle of the night, literally never to be seen again.... i NEED yall to read this. and read it again. and practice it. you're clueless, you're a reculse, you know nothing about your neighbors.

my brain has 2 different realizations these days “damn i live in paris” and “aaaah liam's dead”

where are my french people at ?

OKAY TRUMP NEXT!!

one thing about me is i believe children are pure and see people's souls so it's a compliment if they like you and i've only ever met children (from baby to near teenager) who adored me so i have a huge ego

i arrived at a family gathering and as any of them everyone's very intense except for one of my cousins and her husband so i would like to thank them for my sanity

liam i'll miss you forever, rest easy

either way i love my friends i'm so grateful for having them in my life

but like this year was me graduating and moving to a new city and living alone and starting uni and it's all been fucking crazy and i never took the time to process it

like the tears won't run down

everything from this year is just hitting me at once but I5CAN'T CRY

i'm missing liam specifically tonight

Anyway i'm gonna reread mates' christmas chapter to remind myself i do like christmas just not the people

if you don't like christmas raise your hand 🖐️

hey watched wicked again (loved it as much i'm literally in love)

I'M IN HOLIDAY 🎉

also one thing i loved (i knew nothing of wicked before) is how it really builds the witch persona. like why she has a hat, and how her wings are her broom ; as someone who identifies with witch codes that was cool to see

ALSO the person i went to see wicked with didn't know anything around the movie so when i giggled at defying gravity (at first then i serioused) she didn't know why and i wanted to explain to her that i'm in queer media so..... but she wouldn't have gotten it 😔

finally saw Wicked 🎉🎉🎉 and i finally understand everything, especiallyyy 1. Cynthia's voice holy mother of god 2. fiyero's flirt, like yes jonathan 3. how important that movie is, it's so good cinematically and the message is everything and so well shared to everyone too

also if anyone were to be like “but that'd ruin the music for me” i am sorry but if the fact the artist is a fascist was not enough then i don't wanna talk to you bye

with this whole ordeal in France (the government got dismantled, thank god, but we have no idea who will be next) it's got me rethinking about how much support the far right has had last elections. this lack of shame to vote for fascists is witnessed everywhere lately, and i feel like it also (1/3)

i wish i could love a man for his beauty and talent and apparent personality without being aware of his shitty political investments – or even better, i wish i could know about every single of them and they'd all be great

Je vends une (1) place pour Les Misérables, comédie musicale au théâtre du Châtelet, samedi 21 décembre 15h00 – sans visibilité, prix d'origine 12€ Selling one ticket for Les Misérables, musical at Théâtre du Châtelet, Paris, Saturday 21st of December – no view, 12€ i'm willing to change the price

all this talk of Christmas WILL makes me reread Mates' Christmas chapter because i must cry somehow

i've just finished young & beautiful and i'm Sad

i watched zayn's live and then i read the young & beautiful chapter where harry breaks and i'm tired and i have to wake up too early tomorrow and i'm so sad and i also had a realisation of how proud i was of myself and i just– to much emotions i'd like to pass out

i have been near tearing up multiple times rereading young & beautiful and that makes me so happy lmao

thank you x1000 for sharing your art with us!!! to write at all can be a trying thing, so to share it with the world, and do it for free at that, is the bravest and kindest gift to the universe. your stories are worth everything, for this only, and much more beyond. i'm endlessly grateful

i have had many thoughts of wanting to read young & beautiful as a food… umh but idk, i'm not sure i trust other mediums to pay hommage to a book, i'd have to think about it at least

a week ago, i needed to cry, so i started reading Keep Driving by @deadtobeginwith.bsky.social and… i sure did. it's such a beautiful story, i'm in love with the structure, and it felt really good to be in touch with my feelings. I then texted my best friend about how much i love and support her 💞

reading Young & Beautiful was for sure memorable but almost in a bad way because it had me in a CHOKEHOLD (i adore it)

also harry from Collision i need him as my best friend right now please and thank you

i'm sure i have many answers but i can't think of any right now

every single one of them fr !!! tho i did formulate that exact thought about Of Mates And Men by @bananaheathen.bsky.social. I can't think of a story more perfect and needed in this world (at least in mine), thank you SO much ❤️

hustling for the good life by bravestyles and young & beautiful by velvetoscar, i wouldn't say (or hope) that i relate to them but they both moved me so much (very differently) the first time i read them and i've been thinking of a reread

went on a walk, wrote a poem, felt like every decision I've made which got me here was right 💓

i have so much love and pride for zayn my heart might burst

took a nap because i have free will, what a pleasure

they did this for me

i moved in with my cousin as a roommate, and i hate it here :D i have to live in someone else's mess and i'm not sure how long i'll be able to tolerate it

i found this while scrolling through old content looking for a good layout, feels only fitting on this day

open.spotify.com/intl-fr/trac... wanna fight the song for being too good

I think the most frustrating part about all of this isn’t losing the numbers, I can always hit 48k again. It’s leaving behind a ton of memories all because of some man baby running what used to be my favorite platform into the ground

technically i *would* consider english more enticing than french, to me i mean, but well it's not enough

i'm reading it in english too (i'm french) which doesn't make it any easier with all the old language and the long annoying monologues of Mr Collins'

also i'm reading pride and prejudice, except all i wanna do is read fanfics especially reread young & beautiful……

i hadn't listened to zayn's album because it came out when i was kinda out of the fandom etc. but its SO GOOD??? i kinda hate myself for ignoring it 😔