This insomnia can't eat my ass.

I have this chronic issue where I worry I'm going to lose everyone I strongly care about in my life. Friends and family both. In the day to day of life I don't mind being alone. I'm kind of a hermit. However emotionally the idea of getting old and being without the people I love makes me worry.

The AuADHD problem of feeling pain in your body for days before you actually think about doing something to fix it... My back has been hurting for a week or more and I just now thought maybe I should use a heating pad. It lays right by my bed... ... 😂

I want more little gaming friends.

Do you have the genes that make sleeping meds work on you for 24+ hours? I do... 😴

Arcanine ponders his orb.

He randomly spawned in the space exhibit. So I let him take it over. He is baby! Also I love this bed that I randomly found. ✨

I wanna be someone's little kitten. You can dress me up and show me off to your friends. In return I'll give you lots of love and test all your cookies for safety.

The loss of the US Forest Service is hitting me very hard today. As an EnvSci undergrad the absolutely brutal crippling of our abilities to study, monitor, and work to support our natural ecosystems is something that hits me hard. Especially in a time when wildfires are alarmingly more prolific.

Just woke up from a nap and you find yourself thrusting into your mattress.

Can someone explain to my subconscious that waking me doesn't agree with the Abrahamic faiths. So I'll stop cosplaying and "end times" Moses and slaying demons in my dreams.

Good boys do their exercises. They practice their potty squats... They practice their tummy planks... They practice their bum bouncies... Are you a good boy?!

But Jesus is coming to save them! Any day now he is coming to save them... Any day... Now... Save...

Not everything needs to be shared. There is a power and security to keep some things within yourself. The power of secrets is greater than a lot of us give it credit for. 🤫

I know the dreams are deep when I wake up and still feel all fuzzy and wobbly.

Staying true to your heart's desire is the work, the path to your goal will reveal itself in time. I believe in a healthier and whole world. It is possible.

It's not always easy but I do want to try to be better at creating goodness in the world. Even if it's a simple post or a moment each day where I meditate.

Yes, I would like one boy snuggle please

I sometimes think I would like to start reading stories on stream to other kiddos. However, big anxiety and I always get jumbled up when I read out loud around others.

Hey, person on this here interywebs... I love you. You may be struggling and things are hard, but I'm thinking as big and far as I say this... I love you. You matter. No be good and love yourself! 😊

The pink lotion is my favorite baby smell I think. 😊

It is my full-willed desire that humanity find its grounding in logic, compassion, and community. I may not have great influence to make changes. However, I will use what I do have to stay focused on a path forward where healing and peace are achieved. We all deserve better. So does the planet.

Ah yes, the sea mommy has arrived.

Hey fellow chubby boys? How do you deal with this area of your diaper being loose and leaking all the time? It's driving me crazy and I can't figure out what the issue is? Is it a size problem? Taping problem? Help me out?

Diapers make me sleepy.

I am once again asking you... To put on your diaper and cute baby clothes and be happy with who you are. From someone that has been bullied and judged all my life by my family and community... Fuck them. Be safe, but also if the worst thing in the world is to be a queer diaperboy then heck it.

I am dead serious, if Jesus is real and has wi-fi, I need him to come deal with this shit show that is happening down here. Especially the bits that are being gift wrapped in his name. You want my faith? Come here and deal with this shit my dude. This is the last time I ever ask.

I can't do this. Watching American people gleefully discuss other humans as animals and that their flags they are wielding will make them easier targets is absolutely horrid. This is not the so-called America that we were all gaslit into upholding. I hate living like this, being a hostage to evil.

I need a team of our best scientists to figure out why I leak so much. :(

"Celes what do you fantasize about when you are wiggly?" Just having my diapers changed and being a good boy for others. Yea, I'm not that original. XD

I've now bought two new stuffies this week.

Not me thinking about coming into my room to find this full of diapers and onesies. Definitely not me...

Looks like your Dad is going on a date but he made sure you wouldn't be unattended. So he called for a good babysitter. ~

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So much of my current little daydreams lately are so infant-coded. I just wanna be held and coddled. I don't wanna talk, I don't wanna play much with toys, I just wanna be soft and needy lately.

Just trying to be comfy.

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<< Boy but prefers soft things. Keep dressed in pastels and hold for regulation of big feelings... They happen often.

I never asked to be a diaperboy. I just was from the start. I also never asked to be attracted to the same gender. I sure as heck didn't ask to have the two things cosmically collide. Everyone wants to try and talk about everything like it is a choice. Like you pick through a catalog of options

Diaperboy puts on a diaper, more at 11.

I feel so far down in a pit of sadness and tired that I feel stuck. I don't know what I want or what I'm even here for. I just am.

Seeing the asexual posts today has me all lost in my thoughts. I don't know what I am. Some times I feel one way about sex and attraction, and other times I feel different. The most default state does feel like asexuality. Or fetish-driven sexuality. I just wanna be a wiggly little diaperboy.

I hurt all over today and feel pretty awful. This is the cost of being social in person. The anxiety and overstimulated nature of doing so makes me feel terrible the next day. Especially the older I get. My next and back hurt the most. I took a muscle relaxant, hopefully that helps.

I feel very unsettled after family dinner. I'm disappointed that I can't have family that aren't toxic or at best argumentive with each other all the time. Secondly, I can see possible signs of ADHD and possibly ASD in the youngest child in our family and the way some people talk about her is meh.

Masc for masc cruising going on in my area? More likely than you think.

This is an AR trap. This is a babyboy trap when I see one, Facebook... 👀

One thing that happened during my family dinner tonight was religious speak amongst others. It's brought up the question in me of what is wrong with me? They were talking about the "magic" of it all. Tho that's not the word they would use. I did the same things and never had that experience...

It's great having quirks relating to hearing. Is that my brain making hallucinations? Or is that a 1990-2000s cordless landline phone ringing and beeping? Even with my noise cancelling headphones in my ears.

I think my issue with family is that I do not relate well to them so I feel out of place when I'm around them. My ethics, ideas, and pretty much everything seems different. That's okay. It doesn't mean there is something wrong with me and that's what I need to remind myself when I'm down about it.

I may have adopted a new kitty sona. I named him/them Celes. He's a sleepy space. I stayed a cat so it's acceptable right? Right?