Gonna try going to bed in a diaper tonight to keep the big scareies away.

Struggling at the moment with the question of why is it when I'm in a wonky place why is it always the "xians" that are the people I get as help. I'm trying to be grateful that anyone showed up at all today but now I feel like maybe I am just the filthy and wrong heathen if this is the help I get.

Me asking that one place to delete my account... Made me set a new password. Then it wouldn't take the new password and gave me this gem when I asked to reset the password.

You know what I'm not comfortable with... Scrolling on a social media app and coming face to face with my face on a GenAI add looking back at me and moving around.

Eh I don't ask things like this often but as my people (my community and my little colorful tribe", say a little good word for me. I am struggling with a lot of nightmares and wonky sleep disturbances lately.

No budget to increase funding for veterans health, food security, healthcare for all, infrastructure that in some cases hasn't been upgraded since the 1940s, no raise to minimum wage, no increase in benefits to seniors or the disabled. Yet, your taxes keep going up and they have money for a circus.

Freshly washed bedding is a certain kind of bliss. Mmmmm!

I wanna worship some thick boy thighs.

If you are seeing this... Don't

Weiner

A nidorino! It trundles ♥ #pokemon #art #nidorino #neopokes

If we all have tummy time at the same moment do you think we could summon the Diaper God?

Dark Ageplay: Your mommy makes all your mush and babas with raw milk and livestock medication because someone at her baby-and-me paint and sip class told her it's good for baby.

We are playing those MUDs like the old 90s tech kid I am.

I've somehow fallen into a routine. I sleep in late and then do my appointments and such from 11-8ish then I'm up the rest of the night for free time and creative stuff. I love nighttime, it is so much easier for my sensory issues. I sleep from like 3-11am most mornings. It is working pretty well.

I don't like doing this but it's important. My mom's cat, Ms. B, is really sick and the vet bills are adding up fast. My mom is disabled and on a very fixed income and any help you can provide is greatly appreciated. All funds will go towards vet bills and medications. 💚 ko-fi.com/cerebralcere...

I've learned a very interesting thing today. My sensory experience with weighted blankets is not normal. I hate them, and I feel worse when trying to use one. Good to know. I'm going back to my light sheet or now blanket at all. XD

I need ux-os designers to please, for the love of baby animals and all things cute... TO STOP DESIGNING SCROLL BARS FOR APPS THAT ARE LIKE THE WIDTH OF A HUMAN HAIR!!! Seriously it is super annoying to try and scroll when you can barely see the bars. //end rant, thx bye

Plants I am searching 👀 for... -Phalaenopsis schilleriana -Begonia listada (dark) -Epiphyllum pumilum (blush) -Alocasia Mythic® Into the Night™ (LeafJoy) I need a plant daddy... 🥺

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It's been two years since I really let myself have fun with my plants. This little mini setup is where I'm gonna be playing with my babies. I've got a few wishlist plants to still get my hands on but I'm pretty stoked with what I got going so far. Many of these are new or props from before. Grow!

This is amazing!

I have such a hard time RPing characters in games that are anything but neutral-good. I feel like I'm so good boy coded. XD

My mom keeps telling me how upset she is about her cat likely passing soon and I don't know what else to do. I know she is upset, rightfully so. However, there isn't anything more I can say or do at this point. 😔

Well... they are trying. 😅

:sparkle: boystink :sparkle:

I love playing the game on Facebook where I try to guess if the suggested friends are a gay or a diaper gay. It amuses me. Honestly, its usually not that hard to tell... :P

It should be the law that you are required at least 30-60 minutes after waking up to prime your body and mind for the day. I CANNOT do this jumping right to it bullshit. I am groggy, tummy hurts, I am still doing the recap on the dreams from the night before, the nest is still cozy.

So I never was much of a "potter"-head and with recent events I loathe to sing any praises of the series of its creator. However, I had a really nice dream that has helped me understand myself and some of my struggles. It also gave me a new name.

Also, before I forget. Something that dawned on me while I was driving in and out of sleep and trance that I want to share... I am grateful for the furries, especially the babyfurs, you all were the first people to show me any sense of acceptance and love. Thank you.

I promise I'm trying not to be utterly insane. However, I'm also tired of holding the wheel of this ship here. I'm not suicidal or anything but something big has to change. In me. In the world. I don't know. Again I'm tired of holding the wheel. ⛵ 🌊

It humors me that my psyche or whatever I'm dealing with makes "God" an ocean and I call it Big Kahuna. Typical ocean boy behavior. XD

I guess when you find yourself adrift on a vast ocean with no sign of direction or help... It is just you and the waters carrying you. You befriend the waters. Maybe I'll just go where the water flows for a while. Maybe God is the ocean in this scenario. I don't control the current, I am afloat.

If I don't come back to reality just know I'm grateful for those that I had the chance to know and love. Thank you. I feel really floaty and I'm not sure what is happening. I just want to have answers and not feel so bad anymore. I'm tired.

Literally fighting for my sanity over here in my sleep, trying to talk to God, and figure out what the fuck in supposed to do. So far there's been a lot of judgement and bullying and very little understanding and direction. This might be where I lose my grip on things.

I don't consider myself to have much of a "sexy" side however... I just thought to myself, "My job is making grown men purr." And that did something to my dumb brain. 🫪

I have an important note to share. When tormented in your sleep or thoughts by things - remember this very important fact. They are in your domain. Act accordingly. 👑 Seriously tho. I have started pulling this card in my lucid dreams and it's helping. Lock them in until they agree to piss off.

Who's fault is that you dumb fucks! You greedy bastards just had to have this shit, you created it, with breakneck wonton recklessness. You are to blame assholes!

I don't feel good.

Just being a nerd... I've played MUDs off and on for like twenty years now and there is something simple and try vastly creative about them that I enjoy.

I've decided that even though I don't have concrete proof of the existence of a spiritual world or vein that runs through the physical... I'm going to be the weird little "druid" and healer I've always wanted to be.

Sphagnum moss and support polls ordered. The jungle progresses.

I'm having a very hard day today emotionally and mentally. Here is a new plant to kind of balance the vibes. Philo. Painted Lady

I have a very important message

Sign me up.

If Donald Trump didn’t want to answer questions from the press why did he become President? Oh right to stay out of prison.

My beloved oceans and all of its wonderful life. 🐠 💕 🪸

I really have the urge to become nocturnal. Night time has such a chill vibe.

You can't be abdl without loving your pamps kiddos. Now make sure to give them a little extra love today!

What is this timeline I live in?