It’s kinda funny - I have a couple different mediums of the show 🏴‍☠️But I’m still devastated. I owe a lot to this show. I have friends I would’ve never met, I have written things I would’ve never dared, and I questioned the institutions that were limiting me. And now…

I’m not even gonna prelude this I’m just gonna set it… archiveofourown.org/works/543068... right here.

How about a poll! When should I post the new chapter of Lips of an Angel? But instead of an actual time you pick one of the following nursery rhymes! A) Hickory Dickory Dock B) Hey Diddle, Diddle C) Rock-a-bye Baby D) This Old Man No, I will not be elaborating.

👀? 🫦? 😇🪽🫦?!?

Sometimes when I write (smut) I go into this like fugue state? And like when I finish the scene I look at what I’ve written and think, “Jesus Christ, what godless heathen wrote this? They need to be saved.” Anyway, rough draft done!

Had to buy that pheromone calming diffuser thing that looks like a duck because my three cats are having territory disputes like our home is 20th century Europe.

I finally got to write this week and now I can post the penultimate chapter of Rorschach! Virtual forehead kisses to all who give it a try. #jayvik (I worked on Lips of an Angel too 👀) archiveofourown.org/works/727916...

Hi! You may have seen that my cat had to have surgery last month! Well she is recovering but we are still in the need of a little more help! I have included cat pics as bribery. gofund.me/1a9104a7e

We here in the Bystander household are going through it. If you have some spare anything I would be so grateful. And I will work on She-Ra fics exclusively. And post cat photos. gofund.me/278a39a4b

This week I do not have a meme. But I do have the t-shirt Viktor wore in the last chapter. It was my mom’s that I stole at 16. My friend Taliope was bullying me to put it on the ofrenda but settled for Viktor wearing it. #jayvik #fanfiction NEXT CHAPTER THOUGH - archiveofourown.org/works/727916...

You thought this chapter was gonna be about Jayce and Viktor smooching it better? HA! Jokes on you. #jayvik #fanfic (this will all make sense later…) archiveofourown.org/works/727916...

Viktor: It will be fine. Eventually, everything will be fine. Me: 👀 #jayvik #fanfic archiveofourown.org/works/727916...

Me @ Viktor: Can I offer you a meme in this moment of emotional devastation? #jayvik #fanfic archiveofourown.org/works/727916...

What if… Jayce and Viktor were young, dumb, and in love but only one of them knew it? 👀 #jayvik archiveofourown.org/works/72791646…

Me: Okay, yes Captain Kirk is arrogant but in that like sincere kind of way that’s so… He’s babygirl! Mom: What does THAT mean? Brother: She’s right. Kirk is very babygirl.

My sister had to move because of a mold situation and asked me to watch her cats until she can find a “more permanent solution.” She thinks she duped me. But I’ve heard this song and seen this dance. I AM the permanent solution. No one INTENDS to get more than one cat, they are inherited.

The absolute best thing about living alone in a house is scream singing any hour of the day or night. Insulated walls and 15 feet on either side will protect my neighbors from my nonsense and me from my shame.

It’s fine!😄 I’m fine! 🥹 Everything. Is. Fine! 🥲

I have been waiting for this day for a very long time and I am STOKED that, with the release of Breach, I can now do this - The Best Friend Squad as twenty one pilots albums.

The AU I just started is basically Viktor asking, “Would you still love me if I was a worm? But also I was your ex-wife?” And Jayce is just like, “Yup!” while “E.T.” by Katy Perry is playing in the background. #jayvik #jaycexviktor

I got a spam comment for the first time today. It is WEIRDLY discouraging.

Song of the Stars has an update! #jayvik #fanfic archiveofourown.org/works/64020568… (the first meme is so much more meme if you've seen New Girl 😔 But it was all I could think about)

I made Jayce & Viktor charm bracelets this week for Jayce’s birthday. I’m so very normal about them. #jayvik

Wow I can’t believe that Lorde made the bigender album of the century 🥲

“I’m not leaving without you.” cw: blood | #spopsky #shera #spop #catradora #catra #adora #dandyvelaart |

“I Am Easy to Find” got FOUR guest kudos yesterday and I cannot believe that just *happened.* Is someone out there still proselyting the good fic? 🥹

*crying on floor listening to “Iris” by The Goo Goo Dolls* Oh? Me? I’m fine! 😘

This is my formal apology to all of my Catradora/Lips readers. I know 😔 I did the thing I wasn’t gonna. It could happen again. BUT I WILL NEVER ABANDON A WIP.

Maybe read my fic? Maybe? 🥺 archiveofourown.org/works/64020568 #jayvik

I swear I’m working on Lips but my best friend comes in from California today and I gotta make my house clean so I can convince him that I have my life together even though he knows better than anyone I do not.

Been re-reading Lips of an Angel so that I can write it and… did you guys know it’s like… good?

So, it’s the disabled man who we’re not allowed to sexualize? Specifically not his relationship with another man? And a historically homophobic guy is saying this? Okay, yeah. Sure. Go off, I guess…

Do you think if people knew that I’ve kept every letter, thank you and birthday card I’ve ever been sent, even the ones that hurt, they’d get it? That if I told them I still have the post-it my roommate left me after she saw I folded her clothes one night…

So!!! I chipped my tooth! Again! And this time the dentist is insisting on a crown. And I do not have crown money… My point is - if I promise another chapter of Lips of an Angel by next Friday would you help me pay for my crown? 🥺 ko-fi.com/milli94100

I’m working on “Lips of an Angel.” And that means I’m writing smut at my parent’s kitchen table. Yay.

me: *on the phone with my dad at 10 o’clock at night* how sour is too sour for sour cream?

I’ll have you know, I talk to this bitch almost every day. She was there the night I woke up from a dream and started WRITING “Finn Fic.” She is one of my best friends and biggest supporters. But it must be good if she’s rec’ing it to me, right? archiveofourown.org/works/47658304…

What are some songs you listen to that make you feel like a morally dubious assassin/femme fatale villain? I am making a playlist 👀

What if I was considering working on Lips of an Angel? What if? 👀

I texted my friend in the middle of the work day to make me this meme. He had it done in 5 minutes. Update! archiveofourown.org/works/64020568…

Fic Writers: I’m sorry I don’t know science! Me Reading: Fake it till you make it, babe. I’m here for gays kissing, not a degree in physics. You’re doing great 😘 Me Writing: *has 7 wikipedia tabs open about particle accelerators* BUT IS IT ALWAYS HYDROGEN?!

I love writing gay banter and complex family dynamics 😌 Especially when there is no need for excessive gay banter or overly complicated family dynamics. Update on my Jayvik fic! archiveofourown.org/works/640205...

me: i have cankles. my sister: no you don’t! me: *pulls up pant leg* my sister: … okay maybe. but they don’t look BAD.

How have I not seen a SINGLE EDIT to that bit in Dawson’s Creek where the little girl asks what a soulmate is and Dawson gives a DEVASTATINGLY BEAUTIFUL RESPONSE?! Have the children really forgotten the histories?

I have been working on a new fic. I have also been posting this fic. It's a new territory for me - a new ship, a new fandom, hell I've even crossed from yuri to yaoi. So... Jayvik Nation, how we feeling? archiveofourown.org/works/640205...

I did a bad thing. I wrote Arcane fic 👀 And it’s Jayvik 🙃 They have me by the throat and I’m so sorry. archiveofourown.org/works/64020568…

I wanna write. But not what I’m supposed to write. And maybe if I made an outline I could let this new idea lie. But I can’t outline if I can’t brainstorm. And I can’t brainstorm because none of my friends are free/ship [redacted]. God, how did I live like this? How did IAETF ever get written?

Hello, yes, I’m alive. I have not abandoned my work or this fandom. However, I have been grappling with a manic/mixed episode for about two months now and unlike in 2021-2022 it has *not* inspired more Catradora fic. (But I’ve made more keychains than you can fathom.)

This is super spoiler but because @booksmyrt.bsky.social is incredible I’m writing them a oneshot, and THIS happens 👀

Being bipolar is all fun and games until you spend over a hundred dollars on a crafting venture you now may never have the willpower to finish.