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It's been a while, I made something I intend to share here. I'm still unsure when though, I don't know why I'm not simply posting it now. This post is a way to hold me accountable, so that I don't let it sit on my desktop forever. It might not seem like much, but it's something I poured my soul into

Happy New Year!

らくがき #aseprite

In memory of all our lost transgender friends and neighbours. 20th November, The Transgender Day of Remembrance 亡くなった全てのトランスジェンダーの同胞たちを偲んで。 11月20日、トランスジェンダー追悼の日

ストカメさんのオリキャラファンアートです（承和色の狐耳） Fanart of @stchame.bsky.social’s character

#deltarune #krusie let's hangout together for the rest of our lives or something dude 💍🤜🤛

It wasn't a good idea to try to pick up drawing again tonight, I can only feel rage against myself. I don't know what am I doing with my life, and this didn't help at all. Maybe once I've slept and calm down I at least feel happy I tried to begin with.

I miss drawing so SO much. Often, it feels like art is the only thing I want to be alive for. So why am I trying to avoid picking up my pen again? Why do I refuse myself the very thing I crave? What am I really scared of?

Happy trans day of visibility! I wish I could've done something special for the occasion. Though, right now all my focus is on surviving. I can't tell if I'm getting better or worse, but I'll keep at it until I manage to somewhat get a grip. I promise you'll hear about me again someday.

Things look very gloomy right now, it's hard to believe I'll be alright in the end. I'm feeling very emotional tonight, I drew a very tiny umbrella and things made sense for a moment, I really miss drawing.

Hi, I feel bad for not giving any news still. I haven't made any significant progress on everything I've been meaning to do since the new year's, including 2024's retrospective. I'm not sure what's wrong with me lately, why I can't get anything done let alone started.

I'm sorry for not giving any sign of life lately, so far the beginning of the new year has been rough mentally speaking. I'm not sure how much longer it'll take me to get back on my feet. I'm uncertain about everything at the moment. Just know that I'm not giving up, there's more to explore here.

thank you for having used cohost. eggbug forever.

Not drawing everyday feel very strange. I had to restrain myself from keeping the streak going on January first, I could feel the urge still here but for reasons detrimental to my mental health. I made something on a very bad app in a very loud environment to try out my sibling's thermal printer.

#Dailydrawing 366/366!!! I remember having the idea at the start of the year of drawing Victini again for my last daily drawing, I'm very happy with how it look! My only regret is that I cant make this post on Cohost, without this site and its users, I wouldn't be here today. Farewell Eggbug!

#Dailydrawing 365/366 Dawn Of The Final Day - 24 Hours Remain - Not feeling super well today, drawing felt frustrating but looking back on it now, I feel like the result isn't so bad despite how difficult it was to focus. I'm not sure how tomorrow will go, it's strange to think the year is ending.

#Dailydrawing 364/366 Dawn Of The Second Day - 48 Hours Remain - I often draw things I struggle with, today's drawing's intent was to explore a subject I have a very hard time thinking about. Putting it down on paper for the first time, even if it's vague, is helping me a lot coming to term with it.

#Dailydrawing 363/366 Dawn Of The First Day - 72 Hours Remain -

#Dailydrawing 362/366 It hurt, I don't know how to make it stop. Despite all this time, I still yearn for an escape.

#Dailydrawing 361/366 Drawing while particularly frustrated and irritated seemed like the worst idea, but despite the result not being something I feel in anyway strongly about, making it did help me feel less awful in the end.

#Dailydrawing 360/366 I've often heard the advice to not use ballpoint pens to draw with. I assumed it was because of the way they feel or the lines they draw. I thought I'd see for myself today, and actually ended up having lots of fun drawing with one! It felt refreshing to play with a new tool.

#Dailydrawing 359/366 I hope everyone is having a good holiday, I got this ceramic chicken for Christmas. And spent somehow over a hour drawing it very poorly. Its name is Frédéric. I need to rest more I think.

#Dailydrawing 358/366 There's this numbness crawling under my skin, I hate it. I can't describe it well. I hope it stop soon, to feel barely anything is alienating and exhausting.

#Dailydrawing 357/366 I tried to draw and not let the bad thoughts get to me. The process was harsh, thinking too much about the next line was not an option but being too hasty made the wip look pretty bad. I managed to keep going and to make something that doesn't make my skin crawl, which is nice.

#Dailydrawing 356/366 Had no motivation nor energy to draw today, still I managed to make this bunny inspired from those bunny-shaped apple slices. I should try making some someday, seems funny simple and cute.

#Dailydrawing 355/366 Had the idea for today's drawing after waking up this morning, that feeling has been increasingly weighting on me lately. I'm glad I was able to put it on paper in a way that still feel recognizable despite feeling pretty tired today.

#Dailydrawing 354/366 Too many things to handle at once, I can feel the pressure rising and my mind melting. It's probably going to be okay but still, the futur is scary and I feel so lost.

#Dailydrawing 353/366 I remember buying this blue brush pen after trying out many others at the store, I thought it was a pretty and versatile color that I would have lots of different uses for, it was exciting. I wish I could feel that excitement again, things have been a bit too dull lately.

#Dailydrawing 352/366 Today's goal was to draw and not loose my mind further. It didn't go well, but it probably could've have ended a lot worse. I don't know how to properly describe how I feel, I feel lost and forsaken in a way that's entirely new to me. It's very very strange and confusing.

#Dailydrawing 351/366 I wanted to draw an oversized hoodie, I had a hard time wrapping my head around how it should look like but in the end I think it came out... okay-ish. I'm happy I managed to included the ink stain mistake from 3 days ago in the drawing. Perhaps it won't become a bitter memory.

#DailyDrawing 350/366 I feel like I'm right back at square one, I can't put how I feel neither into words or drawings, it hurt so much. I just want for someone to understand me, I feel like I'm drowning.

#Dailydrawing 349/366 This is the worst, everything feel pointless and I wish I could just disappear.

#Dailydrawing 348/366 I went to many times over the same spot and left a stain on the two pages following this one. Nothing good will come out of tonight. I don't know what to do.

#Dailydrawing 347/366 I finished another sketchbook yesterday, one of the reason I filled it faster was because its pages are small and seem less scary when blank. Now I cannot avoid the big ones any longer. Today could have gone a lot better. It made me so angry, but I did manage to calm down fast.

#Dailydrawing 346/366 I've been struggling lately, things have gotten better but it's still hard to get by. Tonight was a moment of respite though, I had so much fun drawing and I was able to not stress at all. The Owl House is my favorite show, it helped me heal my inner child. Please watch it.

#Dailydrawing 345/366 Some more folds and wrinkles. Something has feel hazy these past few days, I wish I could understand where the noise come from, or that it would simply stop. I don't like feeling that way. Thank you everyone for sticking around and your kind words. I'm very grateful.

#Dailydrawing 344/366 Clothes are hard, everytime I feel like I'm getting a bit more the hang of it, something keep escaping me the same amount. I should probably look into the logic behind folds at some point rather than always drawing them by feels, even though I'm having fun doing it that way.

#Dailydrawing 343/366 Something great happen tonight, something I've been thinking about every day for five years now. Social medias feel like the right places to share those kind of event with, but I struggle to find a sense of comfort and familiarity here on Bluesky. Maybe I need a bit more time.

#Dailydrawing 342/366 Procrastinated all day long on making today daily's. I didn't draw for very long nor did I feel like I learn something out of it. But I had such a good time. Strangely, for a short moment, everything felt peaceful and warm. I hadn't feel so free of worries in such a long time.

#Dailydrawing 341/366 I wasn't happy with the first result but I managed to find the courage to try once more. Maybe, even though it's messy, not linear and inconsistent, rough and unsure, I am making some sort of progress.

#Dailydrawing 340/366 Today is weird, it has been weird for a while now. I don't feel capable of doing anything right, it's like everything slowly started withering until it all became bland. I'll get by. I know I can make it, it's just so tiring.

#Dailydrawing 339/366 Things didn't work out really well but strangely I didn't feel upset at all. I don't feel like I'm making an effort and learning something out of drawing daily lately. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

#Dailydrawing 338/366 While drawing the first image, I started telling myself that it looked bad because I was rushing it and didn't try hard enough. That I was getting lazy. My mind went downhill from there. I drew another self portrait afterward which helped exteriorize a bit the bad thoughts.

#Dailydrawing 337/366 Things were starting to slip between my fingers and I feared it would end badly. So instead of my initial idea, I made random brush strokes on the page and drew the weird little spaceships I saw in them.

#Dailydrawing 336/366 Brain is mushy so it's been hard to focus on anything. I tried to draw without sketching anything first for once, I think it turned out nice. This is also a self portrait in a way. But then again, I think a lot of what I draw contain a part of me to some extent.

#Dailydrawing 335/366 Doing slowly better, I'm getting back up bits by bits. There's still so much I need to do and so much I need to accept. But it's fine, I'll get through it all. I wanted to make a self-portrait, I'm happy that it went very well. Drawing was fun today. :)

#Dailydrawing 334/366 I feel awful still, I don't think there's anything I can do but wait. I went back outside today to draw the dead leaves. So many messages I should respond to, so many meaningless responsibilities I can't stop thinking about. It would be nice if I could factory reset myself.