leaving my vibrator in kansas i feel like a rabid animal i know this orgasm im gonna feel when i get backs is gonna b explosive

MY PASSENGER SEAT IS EMPTY MY BED IS EMPTY MY HAND IS EMPTY AGHHHH

one post on their ig and its us i know i shouldnt put too much merit but i cant help but feel stupid happy thinking ab it

jacked off dor 2 hours straight last night came 7 times. maybe there is a god

man why am i feeling so terribly. by all accounts i should be doing fine. i have a great job now, friends who care about me and a family that loves me.

am i just not worthy of a healthy love?

///he/// makes the other one look like a saint. why am i not deserving of that kind of love again

i want to be loved like my previous relationship, he wasnt a good person but he loved me deeply and passionately. He doted over me when i was sick and loved myself for more than just my body. Why did i convince myself that being loved only for my body was enough

i dont want to die alone.

what the fuck is wrong with me. am i loyal or am i clingy, am i concerned or am i overbearing. am i loving or am i obbsessive. why cant i be loved without someone being annoyed at my existence

"you cant love others until you love yourself" WRONG i am //THEE// LOVER I HAVE SO MUCH TO GIVE TO OTHERS

no because genuinely what do you do when you can see the problem and see how annoying youre fucking being. like i see what my issue is why do i have to project it onto the world when i could just keep quiet and push through it

keeping quiet also as a form of self harm because im convinced confiding on people is attention seeking 💔

double majoring in college as a form of self harm

the days are alllll blending together

started hyperventilating at work and everything was closing in and on the verge of tears and had to do the "5 things to touch, see, taste, smell" thing and then kept working #boss #hustle #onthatgrind

ezra keep this shit to yourself noooone wants to hear this

ive been clean for 2 yrs now but fuck relapse looks good idfk

terrible habit i have where i cannot accept my own reason of "i dont want to" as valid, i always have to justify it. I know exactly where it comes from though

i want to cry actually

i hate how foreign orgasms are to me and now that ive actually experiemced one im obbsessed

chained up, collared, tied to bed, blindfolded,

FUCK MAN FUCK FUCK FUCK

*someone i intend to be serious with lets say that actually

ive been thinking a lot ab a conversation where i was told i need a sexless relationship and like tbh i think ab that alot. Idk if i agree,i think its more like i need to not bone someone max date 3 min within 30 minutes of first meeting them irl

im trying so hard to not want to wish death upon that evil twink but its hard

maybe its time to dip back into starvation

blow my brains out

sometimes i wonder if theres anything even more to me other than my body/looks

swinging between feeling super pretty and insanely ugly yayyy

may

the cycle is cruel is there ever an end?

orgasmic experiences listening to ghost, actually

took me out of the mood so fast i wanna kms

touching myself turning into yearning for sex FUCK

convincing myself im okay with aging so that i actually am okay with aging and that each new gray hair i find doesnt scare me at all

back to needing to be touched this is such a cruel world

updating my redflags list lmk what yall think: -avid dragonball fan -music taste of a 15 year old incel

ik a big part of why i kept going back to dating apps was the validation of people lusting over my appearance and it definitely does feel nice but man i am NOT joking when i say its an addiction

me n my vibrator against the world man

went to a hook up, and then got icked out so bad about the thought of a stranger touching me in any capacity that I backed out. this arc is over.

tranvestigation is so funny "do you have a dick" all because i got a lil mustache move along buddy

guys a cute girl called me gumball watterson coded

maybe ill kms thatll solve everything right? right？

man this is so fucking fucked i think im a lot more fucked up sexually than i ever realized

sent the dude a "this isnt healthy for me and im fucking off" and blocked him everywhere immediately

canceled a fucking hookup on friday and yobi rewarded me w ice cream :3

looking at past relationships and "friendships" maybe ive been groomed to be hypersexual from the start

sex is a disease and needs to be eradicated