Cassie doesn’t like to be left out. Happy Friday from my babies.

There were attacks in New Delhi and Islamabad, capitals of two countries whose leaders blame the other for the attacks. My heart goes out to the victims of the attacks & I worry about what this means for the future of the countries who have been fighting for decades.

Happy Veterans Day to all who served, especially to my friends and family members. A special shout out to my grandparents who met while they were both serving in WWII. Thank you for your service.

Happy birthday to this guy! Thanks for all that you do and the boys are lucky to have a dad like you. We love you!

Had another therapy session today. It was difficult talking about things I’ve had to deal with, my past, things I’m dealing with now, learning the multiple losses of family members I’ve had in my life at a young age affects my fear of losing everyone and being/feeling alone.

Never change my weird, unique kid. ❤️

Arjun Man is 5 months! He’s enjoying oatmeal but doesn’t like purées as much due to his reflux. He loves his big brother & is very fascinated by Cassie, especially when she wags her tail. He rolls over & can sit up assisted. Anyone that sees him says how happy he is cause he loves to smile & laugh!

Happy Halloween from my babies!

Ravi went to my office before his doctor appointment. He got to play in our observation room with the toys. He got tested for allergies, & is allergic to mold, dust mites, cat, dog, horse, & guinea pig 🤦🏾‍♀️ he did good getting prodded for the testing.

Me showing Ravi Chris’ birthday gift: Ravi: that’s cool! You have to tell daddy Me: no, it’s a surprise. He’ll see it when he opens it up. Ravi (pointing to his head): hey brain, don’t tell daddy what his gift is. #toddlertconversations😂😂

It has been a morning. Got woken up by the baby monitor beeping at 11:30. Apparently the power went out and the baby monitor stopped charging. The power hit multiple counties and lasted for 2 hours.

We’ve been working with Ravi on learning how to read. This morning he sounded out the words and read what his shirt said. We’re so proud of him and know he’ll be ahead in reading when he goes to kindergarten. We’re also starting writing and basic math.

Ravi did well in a swim lesson today. He didn’t get out of the pool once and didn’t hold onto the teacher with a death grip the whole time 😂. He practiced kicking and got a banner for being brave.

Happy Diwali! May the lights of Diwali bring peace and happiness to your life.

Ravi decorated a rangoli for Diwali tomorrow. We did it last year but only had one left so Ravi got to decorate it (with help from mommy).

Ravi got to spend a gift card he got for his birthday, he bought a TMNT remote car. We then went to Dave & Busters, and then finally got ice cream. It was a tiring but fun day.

I can’t wait to do this with Arjun! I had so much fun doing it with Ravi to see what foods he liked or didn’t like. It definitely helped to make Ravi not picky with foods.

Ravi: Steve (roomba) is my best friend. Cassie is daddy’s best friend and my baby brother is mommy’s best friend.

Had to the deposit and drop off some stuff at the store, got them to make me a raspberry white chocolate milkshake

Ravi helping me cook sees me adding Cajun seasoning to the dish: is that spicy? Me: a little bit but you’ve had it before. Ravi: that’s okay, cause I’m Indian and I can do spicy 😂😂 it’s true, he can handle more spice than Christopher

Text from Christopher this morning: I thought Arjun had a poopy this morning, but when he didn’t I said, “okay, you’re not grounded yet.” Shortly after changing him, he spit up, and Ravi goes, “NOW you’re grounded, Arjun!” 😂😂

Ravi talking about all the animals & bugs be doesn’t want in the house. Me: I also don’t want vampire bugs in the house cause they could suck mommy’s blood, your brother’s blood, your blood, Cassie’s blood, & Steve’s (the roomba) blood.

Ravi has been helping me learn Hindi when I do Duolingo. I say the sentence in Hindi and explain what it means in English. I started teaching him how to count to 10 and how to say “my name is Ravi” in Hindi.

When my clients say they’ve been arrested, I ask if they spent any time in jail. Today to Ravi: how was daycare? Ravi: good Me: did you spend anytime in jail? I mean daycare? 🤦🏾‍♀️🙃 It’s been a day and I’m tired.

Ravi: mommy did you eat the Halloween candy? Me: no that was daddy. Ravi: (with his angry tone, one hand on his hip, the other hand wagging a finger): I’m going to tell him he can’t do that! That’s Halloween candy, not daddy’s candy!

Another birthday party weekend. It’s seems like all of Ravi’s friends and Ravi have birthdays in the second half of the year 😂

Today is World Mental Health Day! I’ve been struggling with postpartum depression, anxiety, self doubt, & self worthlessness. I’ve also been dealing with FOMO. I’ve done a lot of reflection. I’ve made mistakes, I’ve said things I’ve regretted, I’ve said things I didn’t regret,

Proud of my little ravioli. He had his first official swim lesson today. He cried some but went back into the pool after using the toilet. I told him as long as he continues he will be less afraid and will be swimming in no time!

Two of my Teams who I thought would win this weekend, lost: Penn State and the Eagles and the one Team I wasn’t sure if they would win or lose, won: Manchester United.

We had a fun day celebrating Ravi’s birthday yesterday but we are exhausted (well the parents are 😂). We still have a couple more birthday parties this year, but luckily we are just guests. Next year we’ll have 2 for our family 😳😬

We had a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles party for Ravi’s 4th birthday party! Thanks for everyone who came and we missed those who couldn’t come. We are so grateful for our friends (new and old) and the kids who came to enjoy pizza, chips, candy, and cake! Ravi had a blast playing with his friends!

Arjun Man is 4 months old! He’s started to crawl and roll over. He is all smiles and likes to laugh especially when his big brother makes him laugh. He’s very interested in Cassie and loves his big brother!

October is National Breast Cancer Awareness Month. I lost my mom to breast cancer and know friends who have lost loved ones as well to this horrible disease. Make sure to get screened! I hope they find a cure in my lifetime.

Happy National Son’s Day to my boys!

Got drenched while delivering an Indian dish to a neighbor but at least I got the food safe and dry to them before I got soaked 😂

Ravi likes to help wash Arjun’s bottles. He can be a good helper sometimes 😂

Dealing with a headache all day has been no fun especially when you have a toddler and infant to take care of 😩

Today was a big day for my babies! Ravi started his first swim lessons and Arjun rolled over! I’m hoping Ravi continues the swim lessons. He was a little afraid at first but wanted to get back in when class was over.

I hate being in a rut. Things I looked forward to or enjoyed, I just don’t seem to care about anymore. I hate feeling this way cause I know my boys don’t deserve it.

This should have been between an employee and his employer. If his employer thought he did something wrong or he violated their contract, then that is their decision on what they want to do with him. The FCC threatening and getting involved is scary and a violation of free speech.

Hears drawers opening and closing in Ravi’s room. Me: what’s going on? Christopher: he (Ravi) scrambled into bed when he heard you coming. Me: I have 4 kids, two of them are in here giggling. The other two eare asleep (Arjun and Cassie).

I swam 10 laps today on my day off. It’s not much cause I used to do a lot more when I was younger, but it was something. Just trying to be better for my babies. I want them to be proud of me. Also, Ravi did this 48 piece all puzzle all by himself!

I didn’t like Charlie Kirk; however, I would never wish this on anyone even if their political views were different from mine. This is so sad. Now a wife has to raise 2 young kids by herself & they have to grow up fatherless cause their father was killed. There is something wrong with this country.

Taught Ravioli how to do this. We had a laughing fit when he learned he could do it. Sometimes you just need to be goofy with your toddler 😂❤️

Trying my new schedule this week. I’ll be doing four 10s so I get one day off to work out, run errands, doctor appointments, or just be lazy. We’ll see how this goes. I’m just sad I wasn’t able to say bye to my boys since they were both sleeping.

My allergies are trying to take me out this morning 😩😂 Arizona, you are a beautiful state but your dust is the worst

Happy Friday!

Happy 3 months to our Arjun-Man! He’s been all smiles recently. He’s even started laughing and making weird noises. He loves looking at Ravi and Cassie, but also the ceiling fan 😂🤷🏾‍♀️

Even though I had headaches every day, this weekend was nice and relaxing. Spent some time in the pool and Ravi got to swim with some friends. Ravi takes watching Steve the Roomba very seriously.

In the tune of the Black Sabbath song: I am Arjun-Man