The only one who could ever reach me Was the son of a creature-man

I choose to believe things can get better, no matter how much the internet or my brain persuades me differently.

You can't just guzzle Lucario milk in public like that... straight from the tap...

I'm thinking to the times I've been hypomanic but didn't realize it. My more joyful days, I'm probably hypo. I feel like that's how life should be. I can be exuberant, but I don't feel so unrealistically grounded that I'm outside healthy boundaries. I only wish the other days were fewer.

I hope 2026 is better.

Took my Willow to a clinic. She'll be ok, it's probably a UTI. She's very happy to be home. 💙

Realistically, I'll have plenty more ups as well as downs, but my condition means I'm depressed far more than I'm joyful. If you're primarily here for sexy stuff, I don't hold it against anybody if you need to mute or unfollow me. I understand my topics can make others feel exposed.

I don't really know what to say. It's not a death sentence, but a lot of people commit suicide. I've been lying to myself about that, too. I don't have any intention or plan, but I'm miserable, and unless there's a significant medical breakthrough, I'm not going to get better.

I just realized that having Bipolar II + TRD lowers my life expectancy to under 65 and is a recognized disability. I'm going to be quiet for a couple of days while I process this.

Cum

I still research places to live off and on. I value seclusion, and I feel that living around the Midwest is generally good strategy. I'm not a socially ambitious person. I want nature and space, trees and water. I still need and want people in my life, but I'm comfortable alone.

Stop looking at me, swan.

I hope it's possible to heal more from hypervigilance. It's unfair nodding off for 30 minutes, only to have your heart race for an hour as though a physical threat were present.

Another perspective. youtu.be/fpcxtV-YWyE?...

I named my penis Polyphemus.

I hope you get bigger or smaller or stay the same for Christmas.

I got myself this for Christmas, apparently! This is cool! They say this was break-even, but: It's an evergreen Pokemon (literally), it's an extremely old card, it's a PROMO. Old promos are solid cards almost without exception. GS banks on ignorant buy-backs. It's a keepah.

Happy Christmas, friends, to all who would wish it. :3

If the Pope says a gen a meme during mass he'll have an entire generation of converts

Because I stopped vaping, I treat myself with Pokemon stuff instead.

Guess who's gonna stuff his sack down your chimney? It's Santa. Stop gooning.

Ten bigs!

I slept so much! A Willow paw kept popping up, then she say, "HEY! WHY! WHY ARE... HEY!!!" And the coffee is nice.

he's here to give the platforming games industry a much needed boost! everyone say thank you bradley

Hold up a sec, gotta cum. Ok, I'm good.

Chores done. Called the vet, went out to the pharmacy and bank, and got some breakfast. I get so nervous when I go out, my hand shakes when I sign things. They asked if I wanted to meet with an advisor today since it had been years. Noooo no no... I still have to process the eye contact trauma.

NO!

I just learned about Adam the Woo's passing. I didn't follow him on YouTube, but I did one of his contemporaries and friends, Justin the Carpetbagger, so I know how important Adam was to his community. RIP.

I'm two weeks vape-free. It helped with sleep and appetite, but I don't want it any more.

I've never had an animal bond before. I didn't know they were real. I loved Bacon, but he was a lone wolf a lot of the time. Willow has something special about her. She really is a wonderful cat, if she likes you.

The mobile vet was wrong. Willow has been increasingly insistent on my attention and started head-shaking last night. I don't think it's at emergency point but she's clearly distressed. I don't know if I can realistically get someone this week, so I may have to take her to the hospital again.

I think SAD has drained the lib. Uh, libido. I guess people don't... say that. I don't mind too much though since I've been jizzing for like four months straight, but I do recommend floaties, SpongeBob or Bluey are cool, the lib doesn't abate for long.

I got excused from jury duty. I thought they might not. This year... Knowledge absolutely is a blessing, but extremely high emotional intelligence is not something I like to brag about. Being able to see through motives and masks is not always something I want to do, but I can't turn it off.

I'll try not to linger on it too much more tonight, it's just obsessively on my mind. :) I learned my personality typing is more unusual than I understood. I'm still analyzing the implications, which I really need a break from, or I'll get stuck in another Ni-Ti loop (INFJs, you know what I mean).

If they're not giants, I want my money back.

I used to take peoples' reactions to me as disapproval and judgment. I didn't consider my presence destabilizing. Even talking like this is enough to make many balk. My challenge is accepting that most I'd want to see me never would. I destabilize because I question the illusions of order and truth.

I didn't see how deeply I'd been repressing myself. I don't want to remove myself from social media, I just have to be more strategic. I don't need approval. It wasn't your approval I wanted anyway, just to be seen. I see why chasing even that can be foolish, even self-destructive.

This morning I wrote a short essay to my psychiatrist reassuring him about Carl Jung's predictions of a global collapse of meaning in a world that no longer is guided by mythology. Boomers are so anxious. Now I'm hungry!

The penis is the friendliest organ on the body. Most other body parts are generally rude or dismissive, but the penis will never tell you your taste in movies is bad or your sweater is dull. It might even compliment you.

Feeling alright this morning. I've been doing a lot of research and could use a break. Perhaps I should disrobe.

Interesting week. I hadn't appreciated how much I've actually healed and the genuine progress I've made. New information recently clicked into place, and I see how toxic social media has become for me in particular. I won't apologize or excuse myself for withdrawing any more when I need to.

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Your pool and hot tub are kinda small for me dude #NSFW #Hyper

Okay folks how about this You get me to 1000 follows and for the next 2 months I will do ALL my streams in fullsuit. And I'll be playing something that requires maximum focus and locking in which will be VERY HARD to so when I'm unable to see Like Say Bloodborne

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