when i get really overwhelmed and all of a sudden i can't touch anything bcs then i have to replicate that on the other side of my body which is like impossible bcs they always feel just slightly different meaning i have to do it like a billion times until everything is even 😓

gang i hate christmas pls get me out of here 😭😭

happy christmas everyone!!!

had my first panic attack since being back at school after mocks today and i cannot believe i only lasted 3 full days what 😓

omg my knee hurts sm i am acc going insane

i HATEEEEE computer science i have just spent the past 10 mins crying i can't do this

bro got so overwhelmed by bros FRIENDS being loud that bro had to go on a walk to get away from it how cringe 💀💀💀

i find it funny that my teachers know more abt my anxiety than my parents ??? 😭

this one teacher (who has never taught me before but i went to her club for a bit cos my friend was going) asked me if i was okay today and when i said yeah she asked if i was sure cos i'd seemed anxious bless her shes so nice 😭😭

hello my german teacher called my mum this afternoon to say how well i did in my german speaking exam i'm gonna cry i love her sm

lol why am i acc struggling this school year lmaoooo

oh also as of today theres now a whole THREE teachers that have seen me cry #kms 💀💀💀

hello tictac tripped on a placing pole yesterday and i tell you it was the scariest moment of my life 💔

hey so i was just having a panic attack and dave came and sat on me and it acc stopped it after a bit help????

guys hahahahah my anxiety has been SO bad this week

its only been 1 day back at school after half term and i've already relapsed bruh 💀💀💀💀

i'm literally doing everything in my power to make this winter better than the previous few years but somehow it just always gets worse i'm acc gonna crash out

#ireallywanttohurtmyselfbutknowifidothatillhavetowearmyschooljumperwhenigobackandihatemyschooljumperbecauseitssoitchymeaningionlyeverwearitafteriverelapsedbutireallyreallydontwanttowearitassoonasigobacktoschoolANDIHATELONGSLEEVEDSHIRTSTOOsoiwonthurtmyself 💔

help i'm acc going insane i wanna relapse so bad UGHHH

sick 😛

divas

i present to you the first time my dad took me out w/o my mum. and yes my wellies are on the wrong feet

also why do i have to do actual lessons at a school i don't even go to bruh ????

hello i have zero social battery rn but i still have to go socialise at this school i don't even want to go to kill me

"yeah i can tell you're crashing out actually, because i don't understand what you're saying" - my history teacher (directed at me) 😓

why did my form tutor just like one of my insta comments on her priv acc 😭😭😭

i've not seen a single horse since the day before my bday bro i am acc going insane

i know i shouldn't but i'm honestly considering not doing it cos of this but complaining to my form tutor abt how much i'm struggling (cos shes already seen me have a panic attack and might get it) so i have sm1 to confirm that i'm not js lying abt stuff and i don't have to do any hw 💀

bro i hate hw cld i js tell everyone that i'm too depressed to do work and get out of it???? /j

also i am crashing out again bcs i hat yet another panic attack at sch today bruh why do i keep doing this to myself

guys ik this is serving attention seeking like mad but i acc wanna have a bad fall off a horse again js so i can have smth acc visibly wrong w me unlike whatevers going on rn 😓

I miss the days when Obama could just post his summer playlist instead of dire warnings.

also when we were going back towards the classroom and i started crashing out again jstodd was fr so good at grounding me again by asking questions abt who was in my cs class and stuff bless her i love her sm 😭😭

guys i don't even remember half of what happened cos i wasn't exactly thinking properly during it but i do remember telling jstodd that i was scared my cs teacher wld get angry at me and when jstodd said she wouldn't i was like idk 😭 then she was like "what is she scary?" and i fr said "sometimes" 😭

lets air how muggy this is but here was my situation on the way to school today 😓

guys i love her 😭😭😭

2 panic attacks in 1 day bro this is ridiculous 😭😭

hello why am i already this stressed when its only september what is happening

exactly 2 hours left until i'm old (3:16pm) 💔💔💔

hello here is clyde testing my seat yesterday. also its my bday today if anyone gaf 😝

hello i have js been informed that sm1 in my year brushes her teeth for 45 mins to an hour EVERY NIGHT

just got my first christmas spotify advert.

i thought i was over my fear of fire but nah i js has a panic attack cos my mum turned the fire on (its a gas fire thats why i said turn on) lmaoooo

me when i listen to the michael jackson song of agony and dispair

every time i have a reason to think abt my bday i get reminded of my coursework thats due 3 days after!! and how i've barely done any of it!! hahahaha i wanna cry I NEED TO GET IT DONE BUT I CANT

why do i flinch every time i open a can LMAOOO

lol and this is how much i was shaking even 20 mins later 💀

hey so i was tracking my ride on clyde w my watch but he bolted AND LOOK HOW HIGH MY HEART RATE GOT 😭😭😭

first breach song to learn (other than the contract and drum show): center mass

i know nobody here really gafs abt twenty one pilots but the transition between one way and days lie dormant w josh??? hello??????