Sigh

I got 14$ until I get payed next Tuesday I'm cooked bro

Im gay

Im gay

If you make fun of or insult the quality of someone's art or their perceived artistic ability with the intent to make them feel bad about themself you must lack any significant understanding of what art is, its function in a social context, or why it's made in the first place. And you're a dickhead

I think one of my favorite words is "thereby". It always feels so damn good to use

listening to the black parade, how the fuck did they do it

new favorite sports graphic dropped

i'm gayyy

what if instead of bluesky it was deersky

I just remembered I spent 60$ on my album that I've been too depressed to work on fuckk

I am, so, fucking desperate to get this treated, i can't live like this

It feels like I'm not stable enough to be in a relationship, my brain, my emotions, just can't handle it, I really, really fucking like them But my brain doesn't understand that, my OCD is just weaponizing any lack of communication, and it hurts so fucking much

bohemian rhapsody is good as fuck when you don't have someone in your ear either saying its overrated or its the singular greatest piece of music ever

there is no perfect rating for queen, overhated on the internet, overrated by normal people

I'm, always so tense

For the first time this year i have nothing to worry about, and yet I still feel like I'm constantly living on the edge

DJ Infiltrator. an ancient deer god crammed into a partybot drone who then promptly broke free and took the party along with her. she'll show you the best night you've ever had.

on another note my favorite game ever would probably be a roleplaying PVE game set in the fallout universe that generally follows the reasons i like the idea of tarkov :3 also, make it a bit more arcadey, if i do this i want a theorectically 2 hour session but if it ends like 5 minutes in i just

war thunder actually does tension perfectly but y'all aint ready for that convo

my literal favorite thing in shooters is tension, i NEED big open area that i could just be sniped from anywhere, i find that shit fun

i wish tarkov wasn't evil bc i have never seen a game that has more personal appeal to me than tarkov

Half the day my brain is fine, a bit depressed but fine, the other half it's convinced EVERYTHING is wrong

i don't really like neutral milk hotel but Holland 1945 and a lot of beer is an unbeatable combo

Why did realizing I have OCD literally only make it worse

fuck being normal

lowkey took me 2 hours to get out of bed but we will ignore that

I kinda, just want to cry right now, what I know for a fact will fix me remains unaffordable I can't just leave myself without money for food because of some studies that show that psychedelics help treat OCD, I can't validate that, at all

Honeymoon phase in a relationship is actually just the cure to any mental disorder I'm convinced

Idk how long it will last but I feel normal, hopefull, and happy

Moodswing rng made me happy again yay

me if i was 2011 shitpop classic T.H.E. (The Hardest Ever) by will.i.am

i'll never improve

me if i was in 1997 britpop classic Song 2 by Blur

ohhhh my goodness. thisbeat is so haard

this is me btw

top 10 worst feelings in the world is when you're trying to explain something you know is true to someone but they just don't get it and you can't explain with words because it's a vibe thing

Some mfs draw master tigress from kung fu panda as a toothpick and it makes me sad. She's stocky and stout, not long and thin. That's the entire point of her design :(

Gonna start going to church i need to see what the fuck they gave those whiteboys in the early 2000nds to create Jhazmyne's lullaby, no wings to speak of, and bless the matyr and kiss tbe child

If you need your black metal to sound hateful just find a band by someone who works in retail, trust me they WILL sound like they hate you

Huh, the next few months are gonna be harder than I give them credit for aren't they

"medication" genuinely fuck that shit, so far, yet so close all the time, it's never fucking affordable let alone accessible but i am so desperate for it finding research paper after research paper proving what i'd be willing to use actually works

the worst, after effect of everything that happened at the start of the year is just, a validation of my OCD, it just, fully latched onto the fact that i do have the capability to hurt people. the disorder doesn't "care" that in the moment i was manic, hallucinating, suicidal, just, broken

god gave me self sabotaging tendencies since he knew i'd be too powerful if i was just autistic and plural

god forbid a white they gets a bit of movement

thighs/hips >>>>>>>> i'm a FAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG