we were wrecks before we crashed into each other .

mom , am I still young .ᐣ can I dream for a few months more .ᐣ

don't eat , don't sleep , and 𝗗𝗢𝗡'𝗧 ask why .ᐟ‍‍‍ sell your soul for the hollywood dream 𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘺𝘸𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗴𝗼𝗻𝗻𝗮 𝗯𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗻𝗲𝘅𝘁 𝗯𝗶𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴

and you never knew how much I really liked you . 'cause I never even told you . oh , but I meant to .

you can keep me on this earth be vigilant 𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶

grieving , grieving , constantly grieving . I mourn what could have been , what will not be , what I can't have .

you were comforting and quiet . how did love become so 𝘷𝘪𝘰𝘭𝘦𝘯𝘵 .ᐣ

you build walls , and in the end , you’re the only one inside .

you should just leave before i do .

you're an asshole .ᐟ‍‍‍ . . . you know what .ᐣ maybe we're both assholes . . .

we were wrecks before we crashed into each other .

I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead ; I lift my lids and all is born again . — I think I made you up inside my head .

mother , help me , there’s a head attached to my neck and I’m 𝗶𝗻 it .

suffering will only make me stronger .ᐟ‍‍‍ ／ It's probably this way of thinking that got you where you are .

kingsmen are not born , they are made . and the only thing that can unmake us is that which drove us to rise above in the first place . we keep that thing locked in the deepest cellars of our mind — so deep we 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 what it is .

I dont want to just survive this winter . I don't want to just wait for spring .

isolation purified me in ways comfort could never .

no , I need to go back to a time where 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 was still possible .

my misery could use a little bit of company .

love is a gentle thing , yours is thicker than a velvet ring .

mom , am I still young .ᐣ can I dream for a few months more .ᐣ

you’re as beautiful as the day i lost you .

I still don't know how to love someone without swallowing them — I wanted to be loved so desperately that my fingers shook with it .

one day I will recover from that kind of devotion .

people . people . endless noise . and I am so tired . and I would like to sleep under the trees .

I can bear any pain as long as it has meaning .

i'm not a violent dog i don't know why i 𝗯𝗶𝘁𝗲 .

what about us .ᐣ ╱ oil and water . wasn't meant to be .

what's it like to miss someone .ᐣ ／ what's it like .ᐣ good . and bad . an ache that brings you joy .

a true master of his emotions . hopelessly alone behind the unbreakable walls he spent a lifetime erecting . no one will ever know him .

behold my brain the golden throne of my consciousness . in here I am seated . shackled .

brother , you should put me in front of a firing squad . I have no words for how I 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘭𝘦𝘥 you .

real darkness has love for a face .

mother , help me , there’s a head attached to my neck and I’m 𝗶𝗻 it .

don't you worry... daddy's home .

will you still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful .ᐣ

love you like a pack of dogs .

her love will not save him from suffering . because the thing cradled in her arms is not a baby , it is a sacrifice — born amongst the other bleating animals whose blood will one day be spilled in the name of what demands it .

he begged and coughed and sputtered and I beat him half to death . such is life . such is the world .

you're my favorite parasite — no... ringworms my favorite parasite , you're my second favorite parasite . I lied . . . ringworm , then rats with the plague , then you .

a mind is a terrible thing to lose . especially all over such a nice floor as this .

he saved my life and I could not save his .

𝘺𝘰𝘶 have to be the thing that saves you .

I am a forest fire , and I am the fire and I am the forest , and I am a witness watching it . I stand in a valley watching it , and you are not there at all .

not a lot , just forever intertwined — sewn together

to be loved is to be changed .

and you never knew how much I really liked you . 'cause I never even told you . oh , but I meant to .

what are you going to do .ᐣ 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘣 me .ᐣ ( gets stabbed )

you do it to yourself — you do . and that's what 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 hurts .

I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead ; I lift my lids and all is born again . — I think I made you up inside my head .