baby also got her first commission in years :,) i’m so excited

making worm a platform bed with a palette and some scrap wood. :) just gotta add a cushion & the moulding we picked up for it and it’s done. complete with some solid feet on the bottom so it doesn’t wiggle

been drawing every day again yall, i think im really finally coming back into it 🎉🤍

almost 2.5 running miles today and unfortunately i think i’ve figured out that i really enjoy running in general

this truck needed 7k of work btw and they told me “it’s a used car what do you expect” while they were charging nearly $40k for it. lol. lmao. it had an oil leak and cracked tires just to name a few. the hunt continues. but it WILL be a black truck and it WILL be named Zekrom 🫣

kesha’s new single sounding like 2010s kesha tells me we are starting to heal as a society

took some of my anxious energy and finally finished up the outdoor house for the ferrets! complete with a water fountain, tunnels, an old omelet coop converted to a weasel bungalow, native grasses, and an indoor house with fun shelves and activities ✨

i have been having panic attacks daily for the last week and a half and i can’t take it anymore, but i quite literally was addicted to an anxiety med and am in such a bad brain place i know that doesn’t end well

decided to deep clean the kitchen - go through all of our cookware, every drawer, wipe everything down and vacuum out all the cabinets / drawers - and LORD it feels so GOOD.

deleted that post from yesterday bc it brought in the bots, but thank you to everyone who reached out with kind words or help 💕

ok this was actually really hard and no matter what i did to his ears, they wouldn’t take. but hey it looks.. good for a first try?

i started arlo’s dye job finally yesterday. we only got thru the bleach and he looks like he’s going to a 90’s grunge show LMAO

can’t choose between the three 🤍 but if you made me, i’d have rough collies forever

oof what a stellar day. relationship finally officially over, gotta start selling all of my shit, really alone and scared :)

got a call that my meme’re is in the hospital with sepsis and cellulitis. lost my other gma to sepsis a few years ago. hurts

and when we met, there must’ve been dark signs, omens, in your skies

at the surgery center gaslighting myself bc it doesn’t hurt “that bad” today

glad i’m finally recovered enough from The Acid Trip to End Them All to enjoy 4/20 again, it’s been almost 3 years. Getting high makes me want to be outside so i’ve been redoing all of the garden beds, especially the neglected ones in the back yard, and mulching everything for the past 3 days

i think i deserve a little c/o/mmis/sion as a treat >:3c

been having shoulder issues, just got my full mri results back from doc. tore both of my rotator cuffs (need surgery) & have arthritis in my humeral head from overuse of my arm in my careers. not the news i wanted & uncertain of what my career as a tattoo artist or artist in general looks like, &

i did it , i quit that job 😭🙏

recently i learned that holding in your anger can cause severe and chronic health issues. i’ve been the type to hold my anger in pretty much my whole life. what are some of the ways yall release anger? i genuinely need more healthy outlets for it.

ok i have decided that if i make some card sales tonight = to a certain amount or more i will leave my soulless ass job tomorrow

Hand Stretches - Remember to do them.

it do be like this sometimes

i know i bitch about my job a lot but just got a message abt them trying to accommodate a grooming client and attempting to force me to work 7:30am-10:30pm (with no breaks) or on my day off that i already have tattoo clients booked for “or there will be actionable consequences” yeah, choke

i’ve never felt safe at the RV park where my job keeps the vans, & today when i went to drop the van off there was a massive police response — swat, drones, etc. apparently somebody was killed, had i been there 30 mins earlier like i planned I would’ve witnessed it. how many more signs can i get to

I have had exactly 3 days off in the last month, i am definitely enforcing my days off next week dang it

the squirrels have infiltrated all of my bird feeders despite my best efforts. i even have a squirrel feeder to deter them and they said ‘fuk u’ so unfortunately it seems like i am going to be forced to buy an actual squirrel baffle and new set up tomorrow 🫡 they win

i love my dogs sooooo much that being said, sometimes i wish i had really done the good research and chose a dog for IGP or sporting before i got to the point of not being able to have more dogs

🌈🐩 🤭

tw// weight / body oh! but it’s not all doom and gloom. i am 2 visceral fat points and 5% body fat away from being at goal. 3 lbs away from my first “final” goal. feels unreal. down from 243lbs in april of last year. hell yeah brother

i think the weight of everything finally caught up to me last night.

TDOV makes my heart swell every year.🤍

I am getting to play in the dirt today and the amount of layers of depression it’s peeling back is incredible

my boss just sent a group message using chat gpt and literally didn’t take the ai prompts out of the copy/paste. yeah i think i gotta bounce. i called her out on it also cause ofc im not keeping my mouth shut abt it

anyway i have a meeting for a spot to tattoo at today, let us pray to kesha that i get it 🥲

it’s so funny to me that everyone thinks i’m 24/25. all the people / clients i’ve been meeting lately have their eyes bugging out of their heads when i say i’ve been grooming for 10ish years. always promptly followed by “HOW OLD ARE YOU??”

it’s time for me to once again get stupid high and look at all of my pokemon cards like this

It’s berner grooming week, they’re so cute! Molly, Clover, Olive, and bonus Lyra on her walk this morning (i’m about to drop dead)

5 days left before i get a day off and yesterday i drove away with the van still plugged in and ripped the cord mount off a tree. then i lost my keys inside of fred meyer when i went to grab my prescription. i’ve never done that before 😂

been reading about trade schools and getting into a trade w / a union and honestly maybe i’ll go be a carpenter or job site supervisor , idk man, i need more stable pay.

not the happiest to be working 10 days in a row, man

I think I *FINALLY* have an opportunity to get back to tattooing, but I’m not sure how to make it work with my current schedule.

at this point someone should just paint a giant red target on my work van. second hit and run in just as many weeks 🥴

was looking for a nidoran female and got a full odds shiny before getting that 1% encounter 🥴

feeling very lost and alone & at this point i just think i need to go home

daydreaming of a hot summer day spent walking the woods and swimming in the river with a joint & a girl who can’t keep her hands off me 😤

new sticker for the uwu

my once in a lifetime girl 🫶