nothin’ like going back to work on a video only to learn i’d already finished & uploaded it 3+ years ago, but hadn’t added it to my website—& forgot about the whole thing. granted i had a (wonderfully) life-changing experience a week before the time of upload, but yo, memory loss in aging is real🤯

i don’t usually post in this vein, but the MIXES OF A LOST WORLD cure album really scratches an itch. the sweet spot between two flavors i love.

need a bigger garden planning notebook.

lately i’ve been trying to get my head around my idiosyncratic approach to fandom. i don’t really know anyone else who does “fan” in the same way, which makes it hard to contextualize what moves me in the main community in which i participate. it’s even hard to claim that i do participate, because

i’m very glad i am not as belligerent as i used to be. VERY.😅

it can be very hard to recognize & honor my limitations & to hold the boundaries they determine. it’s especially difficult in the context of mutual aid. i don’t only mean money, though this does apply there—i mean more like time & effort, space, needs for privacy for medical or other bodily matters…

perhaps it is pertinent to remind the world that fb was initially created as a closed network for a small batch of undergrads to use to comment, consequence-free, on the bodies of any/all women on campus.

good morning

did a lot of small things i enjoyed today but the most satisfying was to go out onto the garage roof, free the compost tumbler & base from the melting ice, & put them back on their support. then i cleared drainage paths for the melting snow. i can’t garden yet, but i can almost-garden!🪏🌱🔜

a day for excellent bookmail & excessive hat lint! really chuffed to have these, @suchmayer.bsky.social 💚✊🌟

recently i had an experience that gave closure to a couple of open questions in my life, & in a totally unexpected—though unsurprising for my life’s patterns—context & way. i had long wondered what would happen if i met someone now, from my before™️, who had dropped away from my immediate life. 1/?

funny thing about the erasure proj i mentioned yesterday—i got greedy for more raw materials & downloaded a batch of files. i then went deep down the rabbit hole & started reading to learn rather than for the erasure only. it’s fascinating, & for me, bizarrely validating & affirming. wild.

dreamed i was buying a hat from a street vendor in london, & when i used my phone to pay it somehow initiated a video call back home, which sonny answered. i then spent several minutes trying to calm him down as he excitedly mewed & marped & rrrRRRR!ppp’d at me about how urgently i must return🤦‍♂️

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accidental poetics of mistranslation (or accidental-on-purpose)

i am beginning to wonder if part of what feeds my prolific output is a form of displacement activity. i realized that turning to an older—or initiating a new—project is one way i handle my anxiety/difficulty with waiting for information that affects some aspect of my current projects.

the collected notebooks of harpo marx

so much sport going on right now & none of it suggests an explanation for the sport pepper, so called

i will not engage those files directly because, as a survivor of CSA, i know that doing so will harm my well-being. but other survivors may decide to do so, from their own self-awareness & for many different reasons. there is no one-size approach to this stuff.

February 2026

still contending with vicious cramping when i eat. things are moving, as it were, just very slowly & my usual high-fiber diet is off the table. this is still within the range of normal-for-me but if it goes on longer i will go to urgent care. there are reasons i can’t just assume it’s the usual.

really tuning in to other people’s pain today. if you have a chance to make something a bit easier for someone today—with their consent!—give it a try.

doing a lot of things lately that a literary &/or performer’s agent would do for me if i had one of each but i have no such thing & am frankly a bit too in-between & weird & wiggly to be matchable to such people. i don’t feel awkward wearing that hat for myself but it is vaguely embarrassing

pssp pssp pssp calling all #gally cats: if you think someone at the con would value ON BEING HALF-IMAGINARY, by all means tell them about it! 💚💚 handy scan below.

If you're near Minneapolis on Saturday, please consider coming out to the Twin Cities Zine Fest, where we'll have 80+ zinesters sharing their #zines & free workshops! tczinefest.org/tczf-2026/ #TCZF2026 If you're elsewhere, please send good vibes, we could use some fun.

if i ever host a performance series i think i’ll call it the “new potato variety” series, courtesy of my seed supplier’s email subject lines

suddenly remembering being told that a couple of young poets i was reading alongside had been so nervous to be meeting me they kept telling themselves “there’s nothing to be afraid of, he’s just a regular person…” shoe, meet other foot!!👞🔛↪️🦶

WOW…!!

finally feel better-enough to work on the blurb i’ve been sitting on for several days. that’s a relief!

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horrible night of stomach cramps; got about 4.5 hrs sleep. ok now but extra extra glad they don’t want me to show for jury duty. also glad i know how to breathe thru intense pain.

It is a monumental victory to hold the unwavering conviction that all people are deserving of safety, dignity, health, and community. It is a *triumph* that your heart is tuned to react to suffering, injustice, and violence. So much power has been exerted to prevent you from meeting this moment.

February 2026

quantum enanglement, man...it's everywhere!

happy to share that i'll not only be tabling at this year's Twin Cities Zine Fest, i'll also be teaching a workshop ✂️ join me at the Minneapolis Central Library from 11am-noon on Saturday, February 7th to learn some introductory approaches to collage! free! seating is limited, no pre-registration!

when i was organizing my archives the other week i found a chapbook-length batch of poems i remember writing around 2010…they are in the cadence i used with the poems in my trilogy, yet formatted like the poems in THE HORSE—& there is a horse poem. just goes to show all my books are one GIANT BOOK

what is that creature doing inside the printer? why is it so noisy? i’ll find out…it’s INK FLUSH!

i am full of trees today. my inner landscape is fully sylvan.

I love talking to @durassisterspod.bsky.social; always a fantastic discussion, so generous in their readings and responses. Thank you so much, guys!

baking & dream interpretation today. i’m a practical sort of mystic i guess.

ubu radis

Writing the Rapids is back! I start the year off talking to @saramatson.bsky.social about her poetry, fashion as costume, period romances, and my early theory about a Chicago style of poetry. youtu.be/aGGUsFpIKNY?...

Had a wonderful chat with Joe to kick off 2026! It was an honor and joy.✨ thanks to the fantastic Jay Besemer @divinetailor.bsky.social for the recommendation, support, and brilliant kindness, always! ✨listen to the show on YouTube now! m.youtube.com/watch?fbclid...

testing various polaroid & instax cameras is giving me a funny little series of slice-of-life interiors. usually these are kind of throwaway shots, but this batch is kind of evocative & documentary.

also yesterday i got my contrib copy of the new disability poetics anthology EVERY PLACE ON THE MAP IS DISABLED. it’s available now from northwestern university press: nupress.northwestern.edu/978081014973...

the performance page is go! www.jaybesemer.net/performance

yesterday i was quiet here, posting nothing of my own in solidarity with strike efforts. today i have much to share, but i need to be careful of my screen use. stay tuned for some dribs, also bits, maybe some stuff…

hi! here's my monthly zine for january 2026. there is a lot going on and i don't really want to invest a lot of time talking about stuff that's not mutual aid or helping people in minnesota, but here's what i made this month and if you want to learn more, you can visit allisonanne.com

got my crown for my second implant today—nice to have closure on that adventure at last. took home the plaster cast of my upper & lower jaws just for fun.

ha! relatable. 🤦‍♂️