I'm definitely in a parasocial relationship with System Lock Studios and the Murder Drones community in general. I feel like I made an impact on the community and I'm apart of it but in reality nobody knows who I am. I just want to be apart of something cool.

You think any of my posts would make good song lyrics?

This is the second time an online volunteer fan project made me have a serious mental breakdown. I never learn. Did I meet some cool people? Yes, but they're all online and the internet is fake. I am sad. I wish I could have real world friends.

I get ptsd every time I see anything nutcracker related. I was in ballet as a kid and did a performance of it every year. Oh god. AND NOW IM RUNNIG THE CAMERA FOR THE BALLET COMPANY OH GOD

Sorry I just turned this into a vent account. Just? YOU ALWAYS VENT HERE.

I know they're going to be online. I know their going to have fun. I know seeing it hurts so much. And thinking about it hurts alot too. Why can't I feel fine. I have no one in real life.

Yes I miss them. If go back now I would just explode again.

Well I'm bored. I'm sure all those people are mad at me.

I'm bad to being a crippling loner! Not like a really left.

Nobody uses blusky and that's why I like it

I genuinely believe I don't have any friends You disembodied avatars on my computer screen don't count. And us "hanging out" irl once doesn't count.

my first Murder Drones fan art that I made back in march 2024 I still suck

hate me so when I die it'll make you happy MISS ME AGAIN WITH THAT EMO SHIT WTF IS THAT FUCK ASS

for the record, I've been using Gimp, Krita, and Blender for many months now. I also heard toon boom is really good. all that history and work... gone. fuck adobe.

Migrating away from Adobe isn't that hard and honestly the best decision of my life. Learning a new software maybe frustrating but it's worth it.

I pray for the day that one of my so called friends invite me to one of their live streams

Iron Lunge was really good. I really want to interview the production team.

hey wait a second. it says here that the graphic novel is releasing in February but I won't get my kickstarter order until November-December? that dosen't seem right.

Killing myself

PLEASE NO NOT MY RAM ANYTHING BUT MY RAM

THE POWER WENT OUT WHILE I WAS WORKING ON A NEW ANIMATION WHY DOES THE UNIVERSE HATE ME

I just spent an hour tormenting an acquaintance's live stream chat. that's how low my life has gotten.

im an envious sh*t head

Why can't I be normal

When people say "I don't want to leave X (twitter), I get more engagement on there!" And I don't know what they're talking about cause this is the most engagement I ever gotten out of a social media. Besides discord.

>go's to bed at 9pm >sister breaks into my room at 10pm to steal my car keys >goes back to sleep >wakes up at 12 midnight >whatever >makes soup cause I'm starving >falls back asleep at 2am >wake up at 5pm >crying.jpg

>woke up at a normal time >made an omelette >drank water >feels good man

outpost-1 sketches to help me get out of the void

Call me fan #2

Why is it that when Minnesota is in the news, it's always some huge political controversy and not something wholesome like us breaking the world record for largest ice carousel (it real btw)

this is how I feel on a per second basis. gotta love brain tumors.

I haven't posted art in almost 3 months....

ok my blusky feed has been way more active lately. I wonder why.

I have a brain tumor that is causing hormonal imbalances and give me constant migraines, im blind af, has tinnitus, and liver and gallbladder problems. I was also diagnosed with depression and have anxiety attacks.

my health has taken a rapid decline

All I want is to not have a brain tumor anymore. Is that too much to ask?

:,(

Threat level increase What should I draw first?

This stupid fan project is preventing me from making my own fan project.

sure that's a nice deal, but I dont need 100 cans of diet coke.

My download speed

how it feels after animating a character taking a single step

I hate giving critiques, I just feel like an asshole.

Kinda want to draw again. Don't know if it should be Murder Dornes related or not.

MY SISTER GOT A BOYFRIEND /pos

how i described liam vickers work: god the writing is so bad, idk wtf is going on, why tf did that just activate all the neurons in my brain.

hey brain tumor can you just let me do things please?

i may be addicted to caffeine... I love coffee, energy drinks, and soda. all sugar free of course.

Some of yall didn't get bullied in school and it shows.