this is working so far btw so uhhh new scripting hack ig

I'm so tired of 'ragebait' and just being a general asshole for no reason being considered funny even though it's literally just pissing people off for the sake of a stupid laugh (I am very easily ragebaited if you can't tell)

In case you missed it, I am running a fundraiser this month for our local animal shelter! Our region has been hit hard by housing insecurity and other socioeconomic issues in the past few years so their services are more needed than ever. Please help if you can! ❤️ givebutter.com/mollys-birth...

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Does anyone else with pets randomly see them in their peripheral vision when they aren't there? Sometimes I see my sister's boots and think they're one of my cats too, so that's always fun (especially when I'm away from the cats)

can youtube please stop filling my home page with community posts from a bunch of random ass kids being stupid about either some glitch productions show or just having public beef with one another? Like, I don't know how I got here, I never watched any of them, they just started showing up one day 💔

oh my goodness davinci resolve cannot track small rotating things properly and manually doing this sucks 💔 I mean it's a minecraft button, so ig it's kinda hard to tell the rotation, but it at least could've gotten the positioning right 😭

I just spent more time faking minecraft progression for b-roll than it would actually take me to speedrun the game 😭

writing a script in mla format to make the video better

Why do people make such a big deal of graduating high school? Like, I was forced to do this and pushed through the system no matter what I did. The only thing I did was keep myself breathing the whole time 💔

Why does dysphoria hit so much harder at night 😭

I need to figure out how to come out to my irl friends that I keep talking to after high school. I would've done it ages ago if I wasn't afraid of it reaching my dad through word of mouth (not that he doesn't know; we're in this weird limbo where I'm not ready to come out and he's happy in denial) 🧵

How did my sister turn out gayer than me? I set the bar SO high and she managed to pole vault over that shit

Does anyone know how Andrew Jackson expanded voting rights? Like, not who he expanded it to, but how did he do it? It wasn't an amendment, so was it just a random executive order? If so, we're kinda cooked the moment someone in power realizes and decides it's time to revoke that 💔

I need workouts that I can do that aren't gonna make me feel like shit about my body before I can start estrogen and stuff (because then fat redistribution will do the work but rn it sucks and does everything wrong) bc I'm lowk unhealthy asl but dysphoria keeps me trapped sometimes 💔

My dad keeps talking about how many ppl are outside at our neighbors' graduation party (2 of them next to each other that just combined them) and I feel like he thinks that I don't want to go bc I think it'll be lame but like no I just don't like parties bc I barely know these ppl and it's awkward 💔

With the amount of people that listen to mommy asmr, I'm starting to think freud might not have been that far off after all /j

How does hrt work on a chemical level? Like, I know on a biological level stuff like t-blockers are inhibitors and estrogen supplements are exhibitors (I think that's the right term, it's been a few years lol), but how do those things work chemically?

I've thought about changing my name again bc the one I go by now (Noelle) is just the fem version of my deadname, and even though I really like it, I feel like that makes it permanently tied to my 'old self' if you will. It's not even like I hide my old name, it's still on old twitch clips, idgaf

I hate shields in crystal pvp fahhh

What is with me making terrible sleeping decisions this week? It's like the only week that it matters that I sleep well, and I'm on a streak of staying up too late for no good reason

Today has made me realize how much my self-worth is determined by school/tests... again... this happens a lot, actually. I just don't know what to do about it :P (It's fine, I'm usually doing well in school, so it's prob higher than it should be honestly lmao)

Wait, do people actually kiss with tongue?? I thought that was a joke or something. Do people really do that?? That seems so weird and bizarre to me, like, why would you do that??? 😭 I can't tell if this is me being autistic or just lonely and maidenless atp 💔

I think there's like a single conservative kid in my gov class and the rest of us are varying degrees of liberal/left-wing that's just a little funny to me (especially living in kentucky)

randomly watched the intro to an old privated global smp video and HOLY I've improved a lot wow Like I'm aware that I've gotten better obviously, but seeing where I started was whiplash and a half (and this was probably after years of content already 😭)

(US Politics warning) How would an anti-gerrymandering amendment work? Like, how do you legally define a gerrymandered district? Honestly rn I'm thinking about it just from a Kentucky Constitution amendment bc it's actually like a 16-14 Republican-Democrat split, not as red as most ppl assume 🧵

someone needs to engineer a keyboard for pearlescent moon that doesn't force her to make a claw out of her pinky to crouch/sprint because that cannot be comfortable for her😭

I wonder how drunk/high I could get before I can't solve a rubik's cube anymore. It's like second nature at this point so I barely even think about it half the time so maybe the skill would still be there until the rest of the motor skills are gone too :P

First time eating taco bell, wish me luck 🙏

Omg I actually upload sometimes whattt youtu.be/1lUfjdtLQ_U?...

Are neurotypical people actually able to just repeat "it'll be okay/it'll work itself out" in the face of blatantly not okay things and that actually help the feelings or is my dad just genuinely stupid? I genuinely can't tell anymore 💔

Crashed out like an hour and a half ago, and it made me more awake than I've been for the entire year (inconveniently exactly when I needed to go to sleep but whatever)

Love when I think I'm just going between houses and then we stop by a place to get food and I'm just standing there in shorts and short sleeves while my anxiety is ramping up because literally any part of my body is showing and god damn it why is my brain like this

If I had a nickel for every time a signed Good Kid vinyl came in the mail when I didn't expect it to be signed, I'd have two nickels, which isn't a lot but it's weird that it happened twice

There's some cruel irony in me wanting to do content creation but then turning around and having a fear of being watched (irl) :P

Sometimes I wonder if the people that I know irl that have my discord (but I don't rly talk to) know I'm trans and just ignore it bc I'm still very closeted irl or if they just haven't checked it (or if we just don't talk and there's no reason for it to come up lol)

Fucked up and evil gender dysphoria vs based and awesome Can We Hang Out Sometime (new Good Kid album) (CWHOS is actually winning, and this dysphoria has been whooping my ass for weeks now. Good Kid remains my undisputed goat)

As expected, Can We Hang Out Sometime (Good Kid) is peak. Somehow, though, I underestimated the extent to which it was peak. Full album is incredible, not a single skip imo (though maybe I'll listen more to the songs that weren't released as singles just bc I've heard them less already)

Why does my brain only work at full capacity when there's a deadline within a few hours? I swear I've been thinking at like twice the speed I was earlier today when working on the same project, and the only thing that's changed is the time.

I got too locked in on editing a silly yapping video and forgot it was a wednesday night until it was suddenly thursday morning (it's just midnight but still why am i like this)

someone asked 'why are the food stamps through the department of agriculture,' and it was a genuine reflex when I said 'because that's where the food comes from,' there were zero thoughts in between dumbest part is that this was like the smartest person in that class and maybe my entire grade 💔

Should I go to prom? I don't have anyone to go with and lord knows I'm too awkward to ask anyone or do anything normal there, but I could stand in the corner with my rubik's cube and just vibe in an uncomfy suit ig (I will die if I go in a dress, the closet is too cozy to leap out like that)

This week almost answered the question, "How loud can you scream internally before it becomes external?" (for various reasons) for me

"Why am I so anxious all the time?" I ask before opening youtube to a thumbnail that says, "You should be WORRIED" in big, bold text

I fear dysphoria is kicking my ass and I've stayed up too late for like 3 nights in a row

I keep having my worst dysphoric moments whenever there's a crap ton of work I need to do and it really sucks bc it's hindering my focus the one time I need it lmao I do think there's a decent chance that it's bc the stress from other stuff makes it harder to push down the dysphoria but who knows

I might backtrack on this but I think she/her feels more right now so I'm gonna try just using that for a bit :3

Thinking abt how a girl literally said "I love you" and then started praising me out of nowhere and my autistic ass still went "yeah it's probably like part of the joke"

For a while, I've been trying to figure out how much of me using she/they pronouns instead of she/her was trying to be people pleasing or a real identity thing for me. Any time I debate only using she/her, I wonder if it's just because it would blend in more (even though I def prefer it) - 🧵 ig

I need a button on yt that disables drama videos bc no matter how many times I click "not interested" they keep showing up and frankly I need an escape outlet from being serious irl