it happened again. a classmate asked if i work and i said no i got laid off at the start of covid so i went back to school. and she went "wait, how old are you? cuz that was a while ago" i said I'm 30. she FREAKED out and didn't believe me until i showed her my id. she said she thought i was 20. 😎

Wanted to draw an alien Miku!!

soooo ready to get my hair cut and dyed in a few weeks im so tired of having basically-normie hair. i mentioned i "bleach people's hair for a living" to my lab partner when i got 10% HCl on my hand and he said "really?" like it came as a shock. it never used to come as a shock. get me outta here

Cinnamoroll

im so mad im craving a very specific fast food but the only locations are so far away. the closest one is almost 20 minutes. i live in a major city this is unacceptable

last night friend and i were walking to a show and a young guy came up and complimented our (very casual) outfits, then was like "hey I'm gay too and my parents kicked me out so i need literally 2 more dollars for the shelter" firstly, we got CLOCKED, second, it was THE John mulaney moment

LIIIIIIIIIVE WITH @spacecookiegiggles.bsky.social twitch.tv/hell0mega

our energy company texted me LAST NIGHT saying our bill was due and i was like oh okay yeah I'll do that tomorrow. and i woke up to NO POWER OKAY YEAH GREAT THANKS FOR THE HEADS UP GUYS didn't take even 5 minutes to come back on after paying but wtf. it wasn't even a week overdue???

it was fun back in the day to have colorful hair but cosplay characters often especially ones with naturally colored hair and have to wear wigs and then meeting people in costume and later either taking off the wig or adding each other on ig and they go YOUR HAIR IS GREEN???

opening bsky: sub to me on patreon! i take commissions! watch my streams! buy my friend's book! everyone's lost their jobs and ai is ruining the planet! literally the first post on my dash when i open tumblr:

valentime

sometimes i hesitate to consider myself a hashtag gamer cuz I've played like 11 games but i have hundreds and hundreds of hours in the games i have played so i think that counts I don't get dopamine from playing new games i get dopamine from playing one game a year for 400 hours

watching lotr nowadays really hits different. we watched through them a couple weeks ago and once RoK ended we just sat there in silence as the credits rolled. i cried. im crying right now. there's some good in this world, and it's worth fighting for.

I'M ATTEMPTING TO DRAW AGAIN twitch.tv/hell0mega

the art block is letting up i can feel it

tiktok is a spy for the fascist government. instagram uses your photos and messages to train ai. twitter ai generates deepfake porn and cp. tumblr doesn't like animatics or videos in general. bsky is still small. youtube suppresses videos with bad words. where the fuck am i supposed to post.

Discord wants to know how you feel about AI. Go tell them: discord.sjc1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_...

absolutely no reason for bsky posts to only be 300 characters long. give me 1k with a cut-off drop down button. please i beg you. i'll even take 500 if you must be stingy. nothing will ever beat rambling in tumblr tags but give me SOMETHING here. i hate post threads so much

transitioning wouldn't fix my ex, honestly it would make him worse i think, but it would make a lot of sense

whats up my fellow gamers

if you've ever doubted my claims of how ghostly pale i am irl, my friend caught their first ever glimpse of my stomach last night (my shirt rode up a bit when i leaned back) and they exclaimed "wait, IS THAT YOUR STOMACH??? I THOUGHT YOU WERE WEARING A WHITE UNDERSHIRT"

fucked up that once i realized i needed glasses, it feels like it's even harder to see :( i can't drive at night anymore and I'm almost to the point of turning my apps back to light mode... need to make that appt asap

I've been growing out my hair for a couple years now and half of me is excited to get this shit off me, but the other half is like... but we've been together for so long :( I'll be cutting off like 6in at the longest bits. that's a year of growth! that's so much!!! what if I'm not strong enough!!

it still feels really weird to draw. i want to be back so bad but im not quite there yet. i just gotta ride this wave for now and have some other things to focus on in the meantime. i started crocheting. i'll be fixing up my apt soon. im having a good time art is just hard...

starting to realize i'll be looking real different next year still in #artblock btw

Hey guys! I had an unexpected accident this week and am in need of emergency funds. Please don't feel like you have to- just liking and sharing helps so much! #Commissions #Commissionsopen #Digitalart #VTuber #Art #Artist #CommissionSale #Sale #HolidayCommissions

yesterday a nurse said "oh that's such a cool name" when i deadnamed myself and it affirmed why i'm hesitant to let paypal dox me like that if i were to do commissions lmao. it's not like my name is emily or jessica like it's an objectively cool and semi-rare name in the states fml

I'm literally only realizing just now that it's as if i turned 30 and immediately my eye started going bad. wtf

as a child my vision was better than 20/20, described by the optometrist as "eagle vision" recently ive been noticing my vision has been worse, though i easily blamed stress and tiredness in the last few days, ive discovered... i may need glasses. dammit. I can no longer make fun of my friends.

@pixelatedoni.bsky.social #OC Nik !! They are an Oni VTuber!! Check them and their amazing page out!!! #Fanart #Digitalart

ha! Got @hell0mega.bsky.social fan-art now! Go check out the spoopy VTuber!!! They are to DIE for <3 #VTuber #Fanart #Ghost #digitalart

my dad accidentally fucked up while delirious with back pain by telling his sister "I have bad news, I've got to cancel" about his trip to see her, but she heard "I've got the cancer," of which two of their brothers died from semi recently, so... fucking whoops

GUESS WHO'S GONNA HAVE INSURANCE AGAIN NEXT YEAR 🙌🙌🙌

oh you thought me always drawing my vtuber with asymmetrical legs was a stylistic choice?? ha HA! you FOOLS!

so funny to notice things that nobody else notices cuz of something different about you, for me one of those things is seeing someone standing at attention where you can see their legs and thinking "man. my legs are not shaped like that"

new jenny nicholson video any fucking day now im so gd excited

What Flavor is Your OC?

ive been better btw!! ive gotten a handle on my stress. more stressful weeks are ahead but ive got the unnecessary stuff under control and im currently no longer overwhelmed. still can't draw but im not worried about it lol

Remember me, love When I'm reborn As the shrike to your sharp And glorious thorn -- New #jayvik prints and sticker sheets dropping tomorrow! 🔥

i keep getting inspired or motivated so i open csp to work on something and find myself barely doing anything and closing it after like 10 minutes 😓 i need to switch mediums i think. maybe even programs??? *side eyes sai*

send good vibes my way for a quick recovery of my new bald spot 🫡 i had a cyst get inflamed and it killed all the hair around it. fucking rude.

My OCs whenever I haven't drawn them in a while

legitimately i might start going to bed at like 11 pm cuz i can't go on like this. it gets dark at 5 and i start to go insane around 9. i can't keep having 6+ hours of anxiety+depression spiraling just cuz i usually stay up late

Wondering why no one likes your posts anymore, even among your friends? It's because @jay.bsky.team and team have decided to hide a huge amount of content from all of our feeds by default. Here's how to turn it off. First go to the hamburger menu in the upper left corner

ive had an extremely stressful year that has had a big impact on me in many ways, so while the shorter days don't typically get to me and i love fall and winter, this time it's hit me HARD. just the perfect seasoning on top of the shit pie that's been my mental state for most of this year 🫠

my friend was referencing a video he'd seen and said "it was one of the green brothers but idk which one" and i said "was he, like, charismatic?" and he said yes so i went "it was Hank"

OKAY IM STREAMING NOW twitch.tv/hell0mega

I'M STREAMING TONIGHT. but i don't quite know yet what lmao. if you have any spooky themed games or activities you'd suggest, I'd love to hear them. i have a couple things in mind but i have no idea what would actually be fun for me and everyone else