i dont know what i'm doing or why i'm doing it anymore. i dont know why i'm still going. i wake up every morning either in tears or actually screaming. this world scares the absolute fucking hell out of me and i just dont want to be here anymore. nothing will EVER fill this void in my soul.

quick lil drawing this morning. using my 3D model i made as reference is pretty useful

i have been completely obsessed with Hazbin Hotel lately so i drew myself as my FAVORITE character, Vox~ ^^

i am freakin in LOVE with this model! i cant hardly believe i made him totally from scratch! i've already tried him out in VRC and he works great! just needs a tiny bit of fine tuning and then i'll have my very own ONE OF A KIND avatar of my character~ ^^

i freakin love this model SO much. he's literally perfect~

update on my avatar project. i feel like we're about half way done. his sculpt is completely finished and we're adding bones now. in a day or two i'll be able to upload and test him out. at this point it's just a matter of adding all the finer technical details. the parts that aren't fun basically~

allllright! hell yeah. that honestly looks perfect to me. i'm like, SUPER happy with this. now i just need to rig him and add some shape keys, and like, a million other steps XD but yeh. progress on my very own VR avatar has been going VERY well ^^

facial animation experimentation.

i've been trying to more closely match the drawing i did a few months ago. i think i'm getting pretty damn close. the eye shape might need a bit more work but i really LOVE the mouth shape and the hair~

i've been teaching myself blender for the past couple months and now i'm making my own VR avatar. got him to this point in about 5ish hours~ ^^

OK! new project! this is a fully original blender sculpt by me. my boyfriend is currently helping me to 3D print it and after that it'll be molded and cast in super soft silicone. in other words: we're making a REAL vaporeon sex toy!

AND heres a video shower her off in all her glory! yes, that IS a REAL phone that she's crawling out of. the phone is removable and completely functional. the phone IS included with the purchase of the sculpture but i have to warn you it's just some cheap pawn shot phone i found~ >w<

ok, she is complete!!! just 15 days from idea to finished sculpture. i. am. BEYOND thrilled with her. she is EXACTLY what i pictured when i came up with the idea. i'm still planning on posting her for auction so stay tuned for that link if you're interested~

still thinking about opening for commissions next month. thinking just ONE slot for now. i know it's not a typical art form like digital but i do hope theres a market for what i do. i've seen some other sculptors have success and i do believe my skills are finally at a level where i'm comfortable

ok. WIP update on this lovely gal. i'm REALLY quite happy with how things are going. as for sculpting she just needs hair, then we can begin paint. for the final touches she's getting a REAL phone behind her playing a glitchy video effect making it look like she's REALLY crawling out from the screen

OK! new sculpture WIP. always feel weird about sharing these cause she doesn't even have a head yet and looks a tiny bit like something you'd see in a Silent Hill game.... but yeh! new character WIP. and WOW i really like how i did the hips here. ^^

and the final glamour shots. well gosh, i really love him. this creature is called a Draptor, character owned by one of my very best friends Evoch

i've been working on this secret project for a friend for the past week. haven't been able to post any WIPS of it all week cause i didn't wanna spoil the surprise! i'll be posting the finished piece in a few minutes as well ^^

ok. i'm done poking at this now and i'm moving onto the next thing. i'm... kinda happy with how this looks. theres something fundamental about anatomy that i'm still not grasping but i'm desperately trying to stay positive

little 15 minute WIP i'm surprisingly proud of. gonna try to have it fully rendered by tonight

another finished sketch. thicc ferret ass~

and now with clothes! fun fact this is an outfit i own irl and that long hoodie is a STAPLE of my daily casual clothes.

also if anyone was curious. NO, i have no idea what i'm doing. i just scribble a line down and then poke at it until it starts to look ok enough XD

working on this this morning. it's... mostly done. i miiiiight draw clothes on him. but this is pretty much finished. i.... like parts of him. this is a step in the right direction for learning anatomy and whatnot

also this headshot i did a few days ago but forgot to post

alrighty. another improved ref sheet for Autumn. faaaaairrly happy with how this turned out mostly.

another ferret headshot. still learning~ :3

decided to turn this into a full on ref sheet. been a LONG time in the making. almost 10 years of Autumn existing before any kind of real ref sheet was even attempted. im honestly really really happy with how this turned out. i just wanna gush about it forever~

poked at it a bit more and now he has a body! remember you dont have to draw hands if their behind the back! :D

finished another headshot pic. tryna sorta speedrun this whole learning thing. i'm making good progress on headshots but MAN, bodies are difficult :P

Artists, sign your work! in these times of AI images EVERYWHERE it's really important to have an actual name and signature attached to your artwork!

another drawing this morning. i like it~

ok. now it's a finished pic. i reeeaaally like this (full disclosure the moon in the back is a from some poster i found.)

bit more polishing on the bunny. i quite like him really. gosh if i can just keep improving at this rate i can really get where i wanna be soon

we still doing a bit more drawing the past few weeks. i feel like i'm getting better. if i can just keep up regular practice i feel like i could get really good in a few years. heres hoping

started work on someone new. trying out a BRAND NEW body type AND attempting a fur texture. this is about an hours worth of work so we'll see how things go from here. feeling good about this one ^^

before and after glow up. pretty weird looking back at the hardware and materials that go into these curvy, sexy furry girls XD

and heres some extra pics from some more dynamic angles. gosh i really love how she turned out ^^

and she's fricken done! my gift art for @bonniebovine.bsky.social ~ this REALLY came together in the end i think. i'm really pleased with all the fun liquid effects and the facial expression~ ^^ anyways. hope you like it~ ^w^

nearing completion! omg so close~

i always love this part of the sculpture where everything gets sanded and primed and now it suddenly feels like a real physical thing :P

ok. just her hair left. i'm... msotly happy with her face. i think painting her later will really bring it all together. stay tuned for more updates

welp, i got sick and it kicked my ass for about a week there. that sucked. hopefully we can be back on track real soon.

A BLATANT reminder that I will NEVER support Al or use it.

still really rough but damn i really like this face shape so far. just gotta touch it up and bit and then polish the hell outa it to make it nice and smooth~

my latest character sculpt is nearing the final touches before paint. i honestly really really like how she's turning out, last step is to sculpt her head and i'm pretty confident in my abilities there ^w^ Stay tuned for more updates soon~

Jay has recently been hanging out in his Avali avatar with a beautiful shader that shows a galaxy of stars within them. I like how the speckles look. This cutie deserves big hugs and coils <3 Character: https://www.furaffinity.net/user/freaky #art #traditionalArt #uv-blacklight

character sculpt WIP of a certain cow character. this character fan art has been on my list for quite a while now and i'm really liking how she's turning out so far. Stay Tuned for more updates~

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