My dad has a couple months left. I am not having a great time

The world is crushing me on a macro and a micro level and I am not coping well

Evidence of beach

Crippling mood swings between depression and some grey nothing. I went to the beach and it helped. For like half an hour. Going to try to eat better and sleep earlier. Sick of existing like this. Death is easier but easier is never better

Life is pain And so am i Better get a bracelet So I don't die

Current mood

So my dad is dying of the crab disease of the blood and I'm not taking it great. Trying to focus on the way he would turn mundane things into an adventure and to carry that energy on in my own life

My dad is dying. On the other side of the country. and I have $10. We really got on well once I got to adult age. I am in a very fucked mental space.

Cheese knife

trees and a creek

I am the dead crow queen. I'm other news I am gaining weight, falling asleep during the day (by mistake) and generally being more depressed than a suitable metaphor. But I still have no idea why. The new normal sucks and I want to be able to do things again

Mi Papi got the Cancer again. Send hopes and prayers. And weed.

Mix it up

Monday sucks but Tuesday is the dark night before the dawn (I get paid on Wednesday)

Too Many Games Day 2 and You Can Hear The Huntress and Her lullaby…

Roll for Initiative

Chopping up zombies, guilty pleasure. Dead island was my first trans awakening and Dead Island 2 is absolute trash but I love it like a little sister

I wonder if Courtenay love ever got to feel like the girl with the most cake

If I could die For just a day I'd like this world To go away

Please watch Murderbot. It is not as grim gun dude as it sounds, but its the delicate relationship between someone intensely socially anxious and the group of people they find themselves with.

I love it when the hills wear a shawl

Destiny

psychic exhaustion. I got a fluffy jacket tho. If you'll excuse me i am going to sleep in it

very exhausting fucking day. i need more velvet and breaded food

Concrete Witch

I need to touch grass but it is raining

Sometimes destiny does desolation well

Ā fools love, ā jesters bargain

This one here, She is definitly one of my favourites

Current mood

goddamn who put lsd in my toastie

I found a ring on the ground Stamped on and scratched Just a silver loop, damaged and bent I bent and twisted it back into shape beautiful gutter trash like me 💜❤️💜

I did the trend :3

film still #43 Irving’s dream. Filming pov. #severance

What am I here for? - memes - art - pictures of strong women - pictures of cats

Fear of the dark Fear of the light Fear of a future Where nothing is right

Juniper!! My friend's dnd character because it's their birthdayyyy. Or it was yesterday but I forgot to post it lol

Imagine if these two were your parents. Either you'd have the most beautiful voice in the world or you'd have to fake being mute for your entire life

Snake Girl (2021)

It is very sunny and I am broke but there is a pokemon haloween event so i guess I better pack a water bottle and go for a walk

Deadpool and Wolverine was better than I thought it would be (low expectations, self referential humour, not pulling punches) Alien Romulus was not as good as I thought it was going tobe (High expectations, derivative, no new actual content)

Had a headache for six days now. Think I'm gonna need somethign stronger than ibuprifen to defeat this boss

Things I like post, its whats hot right now Abs women with abs pokemon destiny 2 trans pokemon go minecraft Silver Mesh Ink Roses Nerf Lavender Teal Goth

I'm a rebel I'm a lover I'm a trans girl I'm a bummer Or however that song went I'm like a million. A witch of the city. Gutter glitter. There are worms between the continental plates and tyrants run our country. If I had more time, I'd make this into poetry. Silver, mesh, ink