trying to use the register at my new job reminds me of having panic attacks during timed math tests in elementary school, i’m so cooked

that alt baddie to religious psychosis pipeline is real

in a perfect world we would’ve been friends instead of hating each other over a cokehead who thinks we’re both the loves of his life :///

if you have nothing without a person, you had nothing with them either. love won’t fill the void. heal yourself.

started therapy today i hope it will be worth it

i wonder how many people go home and kill themselves after being denied mental health care

never sold my soul i gave ts away

contemplating suicide even when i’m not suicidal, i was never meant to live

its been a year since last may. a year of anger, resentment and heartbreak. a year since i became someone i hate.

do i sound more like her when there’s anger in my voice?

you remind me of cigarette smoke & silence

i spend all my days contemplating

i am nothing but a burden & added stress just like he said i was and he was right when he said i don’t deserve to be loved if i don’t want to be alive

everyone would be better off without me and once i’m gone they’ll understand that {if they don’t already}. in one way or another every person in my life would benefit from not having me in theirs.

i idolized you.. i looked up to you.. i wanted to be just like you...

being friends with ppl who make music is cool cus u get the genius lyric annotations first hand

will you regret deleting it all when i’m dead? when you can’t look back on our messages, when all of the pictures are gone and you can no longer see my face? will you regret deleting any trace of every memory we ever made? will you forget me when all that was left of me is erased?

thought he could love the mentally ill girl turns out he was romanticizing me instead

all lust never love…

my ex didn’t like that i did onlyfans yet left me for a girl who makes & sells content with her mother and little sister, fucking CRAZY work

i didn’t know having guy friends meant training them on how to communicate with women why am i explaining to this man that it’s ok to tell a girl he’s not ready for a relationship yet

a numbness i haven’t felt in years

i like him so much i cleaned my room so he could come over

it was never about appearance, but if it was i would still prefer to be you. in my eyes you’re the one living in paradise with the world in your hands.

why did he have to post my favorite song bro why does he have to ruin everything for me

i hope vegas is good to you, i hope it won’t be the place where i lose you.

update- i wanted to make her feel some typa way & i did that, it will NEVER compare to the way they made me feel but his best friend just posted me to a love song & her bd won’t keep me blocked like she told him to so i got my lil get back i guess.

when i couldn’t get over him so he sent me a sextape with the girl he cheated on me with 🥰 thank you so much now i really will never get over it

i dyed my blonde hair black because that was his type, now he only follows blondes. funny how that turned out.

our eyes barely even meet, but our fates are intertwined

“why are you so loud about your beliefs” idk maybe because ive been listening to steez & pro era since i was 10

for someone who spent the majority of their teenage years trying to save their friends from addiction it feels so weird to worry more when they’re sober because now that we’re adults the drugs are the only thing that stops us from ending our shi

my 🖤

was looking thru old pics n found one of my brother, i tried to skip it to find the one i wanted but my ocd tried to tell me he’d die if i didnt look at it… LOL that intrusive thought is about 8 months too late

i tried to love you but you’re easier to hate

how it feels to be me

HELP THEU CHANGEF THE POSTS TOO THEYRE RECTANGLES INSTEAD OF SQUARES

can instagram please stop changing their fucking layout why is my name above my following count instead of under my pfp.

i would die for u but would u live for me?

talked otp for so long that i forgot why i was even sad enough to call

iwannaleavemysoulinthesnow

well at least he distracted me from my break up ig😐

i will die before anyone else in my life

u saved me hope i can manage to save u..

hate myself for all the times i was mad at u for not replying thinking u were out with other girls when u were rlly just losing urself doing drugs alone in ur room

i wanna call him again just to feel his presence but i can’t even bring myself to speak :/ i never could that’s why he left me

the day i get posted to this song is the day i’ll believe a man who says he loves me

realizing that one of my favorite “mutuals” unfollowed me on ig is gonna make me cry bro 💀