Happy Solstice: A Short Rant about Capitalism and Salt. It's related, somehow.

Little magics, like a small prayer or ritual at start of travel, or a daily maintenance for the wagon wheels that realistically does nothing but is performed with a sincere belief, etc., they are really a beautiful part of a fantasy world - especially when they work. It's kind of... Frieren-coded.

Napped, woke up, remember Cimo's gone, feel sad again. :(

... Instead of X (Formerly known as Twitter) it should be Twitter (Posthumously known as X). I'll see myself out.

A fairly common tactics of tyrants and autocrats is to drown out the truth and factual histories with falsehoods. There were historians who died defending the words they've written in blood. People who do this intentionally is disgusting. I am actually really upset, it's just hard to show.

5:30 AM hits-blunt ADHD idea: We should normalize outfits that are just multiple disembodied heads (potentially AI-generated), given our shift toward AI-centric state surveillance. Makes it much harder to identify people if people are not human-shaped, with multiple faces on torso.

Wait, I feel like that's not the first time I've made that post somewhere. ... I made it in the early morning hours before my med kicked in. I probably did have a similar post trying to keep posterity on the one particular song, urgh.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=aLtq... The lyric for 君、逝きたもうことなかれ? is pretty much lost media after the blogs and wikis that had Megami Tensei IMAGINE information are all down. I have them saved because of my own unique brand of neuroticism so I'll include them below. It's a terrible way to store info. Eh.

Hey wait, you can't take photos of me like that.

this is an astounding way to refer to an adaptation of Neuromancer. incredible headline work if your goal is to send a bunch of thirtysomethings on a rage spiral.

Vampire Crawler today because it new I am actually sick still from idk what, as well, so short guerilla strim today www.twitch.tv/kogasagasagasa

This was short and fun to write on Discord. ... Unfortunately, we were basically talking about real life instead of just Shadowrun. "You can't afford to care. Caring costs money." ... I am gonna go back to sleep again since I feel sad now. :(

Tax season is so bad for me (ADHD) that the whole time I filled my taxes I was praying to gods that I don't even believe in and overwhelmed by "I AM GOING TO JAIL". Which in hindsight is hilarious because I don't make nearly enough for it to be worth the money to prosecute me.

What do April Fools and Easter have in common? Both are days of "New Beginnings". ... Well, with Easter it's more in the sense of a new life or reincarnation, but eh. I am gonna come back to streaming. Y'know, as a joke. Get April Fool'd, nerds. www.twitch.tv/kogasagasagasa

Every single time in Niigata Junior Stakes, I get a rival and the two umas are going at it and then SEEKING THE PEARL WINS How many clocks do I need to throw at her before she sates her bloodlust for clocks?!

*hits blunt* ... Technology's gotten to a point where you can puppeteer a VTuber that's since retired/passed away and we'd potentially be none the wiser. There might already be digital necromancers among us, or at least would-be ones. In hopefully unrelated news, I might respawn soon. (?)

Sorry, Sam O’Nella’s face reveal? That's not on my bingo sheet.

I missed valentine's day, but that's... quite alright, I suppose. I instead tricked and bamboozled my players instead with the power of meta knowledge, and kicked them while they are down, and that's kind of like love, if you squint your eyes hard enough.

Man, brown listerine. I felt like I got waterboarded with how much I cry and gasp when I use it, and I've been using it for a month now, but surely no germs can survive that.

Just so more people see this. idk if I count if I haven't streamed in months.

The best thing about ADHD thus far, objectively, is the knowledge of the "Crisis mode toggle". Turns out dealing with crisis is one thing that ADHD brain is somehow good at, and knowing that helps a ton with the crisis itself. The cortisol spike + adrenaline crash is a bitch to deal with, though.

Endfield survey: "Why do you not like our gacha system" Me: I pulled total of 4 dupes (on top of the free one given) for the non-rate up 6* and not the pickup target OR any other 6*'s.

I haven't streamed in forever. You know what I've been doing instead? I've been playing TRPGs. Megaten X TRPG (ie not the Nocturne-only one) is... interesting, but idk if it's something streamable or even interesting except for diehard Megaten fans. My group's having fun at least.

I suppose this wasn't too much of a surprise, to lean heavy on the spellcaster side of things + a dash of paladin. ... I think the barbarian thing is mostly the whole "loyal to those around me" thing, maybe. I don't really know where they got monk from, either. www.idrlabs.com/dungeons-dra...

I have lost every 50-50 to date in Chaos Zero Nightmare and gotten Kayron I have 6 dupes why what karmic retribution am I enduring, did I eradicated a kingdom in another life as a demon lord or something?

Man, I over-divulged IRL and over discord so much today because I am emotionally fraught and in a rough spot. I should probably never touch the computer when I am not on my ADHD med, but here we are. 🙃

I threw up twice already today. My thanatophobia is spiralling out of control and I've been sobbing and coping by saying bleak and horrific things in the past couple hours. So like, Darkest Dungeon's Madman is pretty accurate. Picrel is how I feel right now. Sorry for being a nuisance. :(

Remember, if your players refuse to engage with a mechanic because they think their own optimized build is superior, you can simply show them that they are wrong. With menacing aura. (/s, don't actually be antagonistic, gauge your table and poke fun at them, y'know, as friends would.)

when will the lesson finally get learned? #cloudflare

... I had 5 coffees today. I would say cup but I don't know what hell unit I am actually using for the thing I drink. I am just exhausted :(

Long day, but surprisingly fruitful. Board game collab with @slepnir.bsky.social , and then ran Megaten TRPG for friends after months of not doing much on TRPG end. First time GMing while on ADHD medication (Though it's tapered off at the end of it), too.

During TRPG session 0 today: "Why do I have so much PTSD and trauma about Megaten I haven't even played that many of the mainline games and it's all PTSD no good memories, just PTSD" t. me

As an aside, this is also why you don't dump constitution as a stat.

This is a bit concerning. It's the 29th and I got sick for the 3rd time this month. Adding in the two times that I got sick in September, I am roughly stuck in a 2-week cycle where I get sick, recover a little, and get sick again. My throat feels like there's a nest of hornets there...

*wakes up* I want to play TTRPG. It's been months.

The glue fumes unlocked a memory of me being used to sleeping on a sofa. It's late and I really need my room to smell less like shoe goo, and for my head to stop hurting.

Ok, uh, well, Little Rocket Lab came out and I (should) have rest of the day free, so let's continue from where we left off. And by that I mean I did my homework and caught up to demo progress, please be proud of me.jpg www.twitch.tv/kogasagasagasa

DEBUTING TODAY AT 7PM EST! ❤️‍🔥 Twitch.tv/aizengomenvt #vtuber #vtuberdebut #vtubersupportbeam #vtuberuprising #twitchstreamer #horrorgame #spooktober

Hmmm. I am sure the result's skewed from how I feel about the world around me, rather than truly what drives me to create things. But it's got a point. uquiz.com/quiz/p0u5c3/...

Real Agnes Tachyon fans identify each other in the wild by how many runs of Makikanefukukitaru they have done while spark chasing, change my mind.

Matikanefukukitaru: Teehee I have headache Next week after I spammed recreation Matikanefukukitaru: Bad fortune day! Please we have an important race coming up please stop

Just so people don't think I died in a godless pit (ie my home) or something, I've got a stream. That and I've been interested in a game called Little Rocket Lab, and there's a demo. :3c (I don't remember how to stream and I am *slightly* insane, please understand.) www.twitch.tv/kogasagasagasa

I took a nap, dreamt of Satoru Iwata, and woke up in tears. I did not realize how much I miss Satoru Iwata.

I'll finish it this time. I... ... Haven't finished a game in years, have I?

Are you excited for the #FinalFantasyTactics Remaster in a week?

I died (Don't worry it's just some trauma) and saved the dude that we were supposed to save, 10/10 will die for great justice again.

I realize I am just growing weed, but having tasted my own dandelion and lamb's quarter, I really want to move somewhere and just grow and eat weed. It's really delicious... Freshly harvested probably helped.