Feeling depressed. "Nothing I ever do is worth it or will make me worth it" Keeps going around in my head. I dont feel worth anything.

I level'd up. Im 35 years old now, and my back hates me. i pop everytime i stand up to stretch now.

Birthday is on the 15th, I'm broke as fuck and need to pay off bills as i am struggling to draw to sell adoptable. ko-fi.com/barkitup/shop I lowered the price of my old characters. its almost 7 am, im tired so im gunna go to bed. I also have toyhou.se/SketchBound/... That people can look through.

This guy's still for sale. www.thedealersden.com/listing/fire...

Thinking of the time where I was asking a friend if he could hang out with me but once a month was too stressful for him and I took up too much of his time. Hmmm. I wonder if hes the same way now.

Can I just say I'm blessed by y'all?

I need to start working on fursuits again, but ive been stuck in depression.

Sometimes I wonder if it was really worth it to try to get into fursuit making. It kinda depresses me knowing that I'm struggling, but then I look up at my wall and see this. I'm still depressed, but kinda motivated to try to make more stuff like it or better. Makes me wonder how things will be.

If this gets a few likes, I'll share the art and idea of what i plan to make.

I'm lost in, 'what is my fursona.' thoughts again

Hello! We are still trying to sell this head www.thedealersden.com/listing/fire... We are also taking offers on it. To sell it means being able to work on MORE fursuit projects, the more i can work on, the better and more advanced I can get. Please just spread the word to help a new suit maker out?

Fire Shiba head is up on Dealer's Den Yay! <3 -Z www.thedealersden.com/listing/fire...

Fuzzies, does anyone possible have this hoodie on them they are willing to part with? I have outgrown the current one I have and am looking for a 2X of this if anyone possibly has. Was one of my favorite hoodies so I would love to wear this design again

Fire Shiba Inu head done. Will be out as a head only item that you can add more money to, to get a tail and gloves. The starting price will be 750 USD. This is the second head I have ever made. So there ARE errors here and there. But they are not that bad. Will be put up at 6pm PST. -🪷Mori🪷

ko-fi.com/barkitup/shop Added a lot of old characters i have to my shop that i decided to sell. If you want to haggle feel free.

The reason why they cost so much is all the art and the 3d model they have.

My persecutor has been popping up a lot more trying to protect my system. But she does it in the wrong ways. its harmful and hurtful to my body, my friends, and my partner. Sometimes I wish i could just get rid of her, thou i know i have to also thank her for keeping me alive for so long.

Dissociative Identity Disorder, Fucking sucks.

I'm starting to understand myself more as much as I'm starting to understand I can't really trust people. I don't want to be in the past, tho, I feel more broken than not. Tired of being depressed from all the scars and wounds I have. How do I make it stop when all I see in the mirror are the cuts.

Ever look outside, Up to the stars and go, "Man, The worlds fucked up." While sipping hot Cocoa that's prob going extinct in 30 years Due to World crisis and such? Ah, Well, Enjoy the little things you can while you can. Everything is finite.

I finally got the spoons to work on the head again. Fixed the eyebrow and cheek where it was badly balding. Bad quality fur (red) was shaved a bit too close on and brushed and it balded. But now. You can hardly tell what side is balded / was fixed lol This will be for sale soon. 🪷-Mori-🪷

I'm actually drawing Isk. It has been about a year.

Still thinking about doing this. I wonder what I should do though. If i should keep them or not. I have all the fabric i need for their fursuit too. but i never got around to it. -shrugs-

I have a lot of love/hate relationships with things. One of them is art. Cause of my disability and always being broke, Art isn't fun for me much anymore. It had become a constant. "Can I sell it fast enough/ get things done fast enough without burn out/ Can i even get it done?" Lots of stress...

I need to find missing shit from fursuit stuff. -flop- and finish fursuit shit. I was going to do it today but the day is already kinda over. i'll do it when i wake up tomorrow. -rolls-

Funny thing about me and Vore. I have a love hate with it. I hate it cause sometimes people dont respect my likes and boundries. But i like it overall. its weird

I doodled some VORE. lol

Hey, This is kinda stressful for me to talk about. But I am willing to sell a lot of my characters from my toyhouse toyhou.se/SketchBound/... for sale. We also have some on the store page ko-fi.com/barkitup/shop of the Barkitup ko-fi. My grandma passed away and I wish to get an urn casket

Even though its cold, i think im going to try to get back into finishing my fursuits and plans for the other fursuits. I have to do something.

Every medication they keep giving me tanks my sex drive and interests for anything. God I hate trial and erroring medications.

What sucks about having DiD or Dissociate identity disorder, is mine is so bad, i forget everything. My Dissociative Amnesia is so bad i dont know what i did this morning / a week ago. i only know bits and pieces of what i did last month and that my grandma had died and i was struggling with myself.

Starting to stress out cause I have no way to get any source of income other than drawing. Im prob going to try to put in the barkitup ko-fi adopts soon to try to get the camera im looking at. I have extremely bad memory so i plan on taking this camera everywhere. I dont remember much of anything.

I'm wondering if i should make adoptable. I'm running pretty low on cash and struggling to do anything more than coloured busts right now. The struggles of my art being tied to mood.

Learning my bf wouldn't mind being "Bird Food" Threw me off for a bit. I Guess I'm drawing vore today.

Sure, Why the fuck not. I'll post this, Tell me what you want to see and I'll try to get better at it. Kink or not. But it has to be reasonable.

I drew a @zbit.barkitup.dog

What, The ACTUAL Fuck.

I need to draw my Kenku/Raven more. Beaks are hard to draw. :<

I wish my body was kinder to me and didn't send me to the ER with a heart rate of 160. All I asked of the new year was just a few months without an ER visit but noooooooo. -crossed arms and pouts-

Me Trying to read out loud to my BF @zbit.barkitup.dog Also me "I Can't Fucking Read"

My last brain cell and my first doodle of the new year. Ive been struggling to get back into drawing. Its been.... 2 months since i actually 'drew' anything worth while. I've been too depressed and my art is my feelings so. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Im gunna draw a BURD

I'm starting to realize, Not a lot of people can actually TASTE Colours, or SEE music..... or TASTE Music... I legit see the #6 as Green, the #9 as Red. The Colour Purple is the texture of WAX on my teeth and some colours make me ILL Cause it TASTE so bad and gives me a headache cause of it.

I can appreciate Porn, be Demi-ace and be sex repulsed and not want to see art of Porn. I actually like artistic nudes and artistic porns. What I don't like are hyper fetish arts and that's okay. Tho damn, my feed isn't what I'm into.. But I don't want to unfollow anyone cause everyones neat. @_@

I'm going to slowly ease myself back into figure drawing, photography and mix media/ digital art. I no longer want to draw for others. I'm actively going through therapy and IOP due to everything strangers and "friends" put me through, I need to heal. I want fursuits and art to be a passion again

I just want to know, Which one do you think is the Parasitic plant we all kiss under that in mythology helped kill Baldur and is the symbol of love and peace named Mistletoe, and which one is Holly that symbolizes protection, good fortune, peace, and eternal life & association with gods like Thor?

For anyone struggling right now. I love you and You're not alone. Its okay to cry. Just try to be safe. If your PTSD Is being mean and you're having flashbacks. Try to do the 5-4-3-2-1 Method, do something that grounds you that is safe. Like smelling a perfume you love to bring good memories.

The PTSD is too much.

Hey! Going to still be doing these. I'm a few hundred in the hole and need to scrounge up money. Will be drawing them asap. And will be posting adoptables soon. I know I've been struggling a little but I don't seek payment up front till the piece is done. Normal times are 1 to 2 hr turn around time

I tend to sketch a lot more than people think. I just don’t post cause I don’t feel like the art is worth it…