Im like trying to reverse course on all the hating ive done in my 20s i want to love without fear

Ok so i work as a framer My uniform is like a big ass smock filled with framing tools and furniture markers and shit, covered in sawdust, my smock SAYS 'framing' on it TELL me how, when im here, its always "excuse me do you work here?" But at the fucking grocery store its "uh where are the Chips"

We have a lemon double agent in the chat

This might sound fucked up but im kinda getting fed up with the ppl i dont talk to often that only message me to show me what theyre working on for themselves, art they got from someone, or to effectively brag about how good things are going for em Like ok we dont talk rly and im not your dad

Man i just dont have the energy for wide social interaction anymore i can handle like 2ppl dming me at once Maybe. Maybe

oh this was the original version of this btw, the one i did on stream and went on to change like 400 times lolll #tombetching

Bro I just had so much airplane seat drama it's cwazy anyway look at this lil guy 🫵🐶

tht repost just has like straight up porn in it but the hilda drawing goes fucking HARDDDDDDD i wish he sold that shit as a print man id line up like its a 2007 prerelease event

Recently did these cool pen drawings, imma be putting them up for auct1on at the athrocon art show if anyone might be interested in getting em👀

i love how no surrender by andy stott starts as mysterious point-and-click adventure wizard music and becomes what i imagine donkey kong thinks techno is

Contact your senators TODAY and yell their ears off about how much you oppose these bills. Get family and friends involved. Tell them to oppose The KIDS Act and KOSA www.congress.gov/members/find...

1. Just to be clear, the KIDS Act contains #KOSA 2. KOSA has a rider that nullifies state AI regulations & puts a moratorium on future ones, which is not only bad in itself but also means this alleged "child safety" legislation SHIELDS AI NUDIFIER APPS - the same ones used on kids' & teens' pictures

wtf ancient egyptian story where horus is assaulted by set, catches his cum in his hands, gets isis to chop his hands off and throw them in the river, gets NEW hands from isis, which he nuts into and rubs all over lettuce, which set then eats and becomes pregnant

ok i think im normal now

my head ten feet above and below myself

not to discount what i draw here as completely meaningless - its not, at least not usually - but ultimately it often boils down to me drawing what i think looks cool that one was actual vent art

terrain #tombetching

getting really sick of this recent trend where any openly positive sentiment i express about anything is followed almost immediately by something so catastrophically upsetting that my head starts feeling like a balloon and my eyes start stinging from the lack of blinking

Fuckkk dude im 30 in 2mo ive GOTTA take a vacation i wasted my entire 20s working like a fucking dog

I love u guys u know who u are Almost typed Ate which could apply to some of you probably

Yuzu is verryyy quickly climbing to my top5 fav fruits i think its insane ppl think its just a trendy replacement for lemon

looking at all these old photos of me and thinking like man shut the fuck uppp shut up

Looking thru photos

looking at old screenshots again

My Moaning Jack-it is that anything

Found this again

before people would tell me i had a "feminine artstyle" and i could never figure out what that was supposed to mean no more of that thank god, now i have a Faggot artstyle i guess LMFAO

Manager was supposed to help me later so he kept me abreast of what he was doing in the meantime. He walked past with a planogram in his hand and TRIED to tell me he was going to set some panels, but instead loudly proclaimed "brendan brother im gonna start pegging. Im gonna start pegging ok."

if opn were born in like 1994 or whatever he would have been making ytps for sure

You guys are very sweet. I see all the stuff ur sending i just dont know how to really respond when im in a hole like this. I just want to make it clear that it is Very Very Much appreciated though

assuaging the desire to kms by mentally repeating the timothee chalamet baseball tweet like the lords prayer and silently laughing to myself

Instantly just went from 'living is agony when your own brain is your worst enemy' to 'never kill yourself' just from seeing this like whos cookin up shit like this in the great beyond man

Also like believe me its not at all lost on me how fucking stupid it is that being Blocked by someone i interacted with for a day kicked off this giant vent wall about having OCD. In some ways i wish i wasnt so cognizant, it just makes things worse lol

and MAN does it suck to not have locked accounts on this fucking site yet lol

see i dont talk about shit like this because its impossible to paint it in a way that doesnt make it sound like my friends are all hostages that need to stay with me forever or else itll ruin my life. so instead i sit here and stew in it. every path is a loss apart from the one that costs money

God, I dont rly have anyone to talk about this with, so im gonna overshare

my favorite part of doing comms finishing at like 6-8am and not being able to post bc the client is still asleep and i need to sleep Now bc i have a shift, so the post has to be postponed for like 16 hours

the most productive and life-affirming conversations ive had with people in passing this past year were all fetish artists so in my brain them drawing like titties the size of a tahoe is a direct visual indicator that theyve tapped in fully with the human spirit lol

im legit wondering if the whole computer thing is why this is so common. this 'why cant people read my mind wtf' thing. like its naturally kinda easy to dehumanize ppl on the internet bc to your lizard brain only sees you, your screen, and an empty room

its funny usually i have to like... sit and scrutinize my thoughts on People Socializing bc i now definitively have OCD that extends to this dumb shit but THAT i know for sure is like Not Normal Behavior

ive had a couple people do that and tell me they just follow and unfollow liberally, same with blocking, and its like ok thats fine but you cant sit there and blink at me in bewilderment if i take it as you not fucking with me wtf, especially when you dont SAY ANYTHING ABOUT IT hello !!!

this is kinda harsh but honestly when someone breaks mutual EVERYWHERE, even art-only accounts, and still hits me with art praise, my immediate reaction is just 'why are you talking to me' lol

[blinking with a glass shattering sound each time my eyes shut]

idk what else 2 do with her so #tombetching

I bet this feel good as hell if your minecrat steve

does this to you

sick site update