all my customisations and screenshots are gone 😭

Self-expression for the most part I'm not much interest in most mods unless it enables me to create things myself Being able to add scars, details, or customisations to build on my characters style, concept, or expression when I get the urge to is pretty nice

The kind of tiredness when you blink your eyes and just about fall asleep is pretty wild And dangerous 😅

and after a bit of fighting, i've managed to lose all of my installed programs yay after some crying i've re-installed most, but i have lost a lot of saved resources and stuff 😮‍💨

oh joy the most recent windows update broke my start menu entirely and trying to fix it has now broken my audio drivers *and* still didn't resolve the issue what a fucking joke of an operating system if ever there was a time to move to a new os

It's fucked up that my signature mashed potato comes out so much worse over here than it does back home just because all the ingredients aren't the same quality standards :<

Love falling asleep at some point and waking up at 2pm qld time Like damn my sleep is so far off now it doesn't abide by any schedule anymore

Gah. Woke up in a sweat feeling homesick for some reason This sucks. I want to enjoy my time away, not get stuck thinking of home 😮‍💨

I think it was 3.3 or 3.4 I know I was up to date before baelsars wall as I was super stoked about stormbloods release And I played the hell out of potd when it was new (and long after)

My grasp on the passage of time is so scuffed at the moment It's wild days not registering as passed because back home it's still awake hours, yet I'm also not sleeping during back home night hours

Managed it while sick with the flu Heck yeah

i think i got sick from the plane ride again ;~;

i kinda want to get more piercings

I have been ma'am and miss'd the entire way so far, just as god intended 😌 Now to find some goddamn food to last me the next like 6 or 7 hours

Well, I'm off on holiday for the month now Take care everyone! Be safe, and be kind to yourself and each other 💕

Sadly I'm too overwhelmed getting myself prepped for my upcoming trip to make it to any of the last #Hrothmarket 😭 But *you* should totally go check it out though 🫵 hrothmarket.com And I do hope everyone has a good time out there!

God I love waking up every half hour or so because my brain is so worried I'm going to toss and turn so much that I cause damage my piercing area Thanks brain. I appreciate the part where you've made me feel even worse then when I went to bed

Brow piercing acquired :D Also owies

Got sidetracked on a lil teeny tiny demons souls mapping project idea I had a bit ago, but rediscovered today why I shelved it because actually anything I work on is too cursed for anything to function right 😅 Also getting my piercing done on Thursday too :D G'night all! 💕

One would think I'd get the day off because everything's down at work, but nope Guess not

I wonder if I should get my eyebrow pierced before I go on holiday or after I get back 🤔 Anyway, hrothgals have now surpassed Stormbloods gear :D

Well that's all the gear added pre-Stormblood updated for Hrothgar F Apologies for how long it's taking me, but god it has been nice working on things at a leisurely pace, and doing it all properly :)

I like the idea that even though she's covered in a thick layer of fur, Rhoksann absolutely cannot handle the cold 🤭

Just one more week, then I'll be off on holiday for a month Woo!

ending my therapy appointment on a bombshell before going on holiday just to keep my therapist in suspense 😁 but nah it's chill. learning a lot more about myself, getting many answers, and the help has been good

I just can't believe it I am the skyrim special edition of bluesky posters i guess 😅

Also, I'm looking for roughly 7 or so base appearance data for both masc and fem #Hrothgar and #Viera characters to use in the larger showcase shots Getting sick of spending ages making random appearances each time only to have it all crash on me T^T

Love getting woken up by the downstairs dogs howling like crazy Like I really just don't need the sleep apparently

So apparently I forgot the day changed over last night and went the whole day thinking tomorrow was wednesday instead of thursday... Which is cool I guess. I don't need to have a full nights sleep for work anyway >.> Did more hats though so that's nice G'night all

I feel so tired and sick :<

Got so overwhelmed by emotions tonight while cooking dinner that I ended up on the floor crying covered in glass and pasta sauce Upside, I'm ok with minimal physical damage Downside, gotta make new dinner and I don't think I can salvage the food or the saucepan :(

slowly going insane as my photoshop just keeps crashing for unknown reasons

I feel like sleeping on shift because of how bored and mentally disengaged I am at work, then I feel like sleeping after shift because of how physically worn out I am from work Perpetually sleepy apparently

do you think it's too much of an ask to ask my body for bigger boobs next birthday? Christmas would be nice, but that's probably too unrealistic 😂

only trouble with my birthday is that nothing will stop my family from blowing up my phone trying to make dinner plans and calling to sing happy birthday to me it's nice being remembered for at least today, but god my head hurts something fierce now 😅

Yay birthday time, woo! Gonna sing myself happy birthday. In the morning when I actually wake up of course 😂 Hope y'all stay safe and have a good day for me 💕 Goodnight all!

i feel like sleeping for an extended period of time

Fell asleep long before I meant to last night, but I finally got through the payment processor this morning so woohoo! Name change is on it's way! :D

I finally have everything sorted, documents scanned and prepped, names picked, and money in hand Payment processor has been down all night and if I want a physical paper form I have to call the Tasmanian BD&M directly T^T At least I'll get marker stuff signed on Friday...

Made myself sad thinking about random stuff again Oh well. Best to go lay down and hold my pillows and plushies tightly until I fall asleep Be safe, and I hope everyone has a good day/night out there 💕

self-reflective thinking

I really hate to ask, I know I'm hardly what one might call a big name in the community, but rent and bills are looming and my new job doesn't start until the beginning of next month. if there's anyone who could lend a hand... it would be incredibly appreciated. gofund.me/f26da2abc

I will clarify, someone asked to join me on my trip in to town, only to be glued to their phone the whole time ignoring everything going on Also phone is fine, just had a bit of a fall from sitting on my chest

Can't help but feel like I must be really boring to hang out with sometimes, but oh well 🤷‍♀️ Picked up a music box to feel better because I like music boxes and think I should start collecting them again (Rip phone)

finally taking myself through the process to change my legal name and just sitting here debating if i should just change my last name as well 🤔

See a back, post a back. The possibilities are boundless when things can be run independently 🤭

i need a hug

Fighting the urge to sleep at work...

After an ostensibly good day in town, I am definitely more keen to try make some more local friends and acquaintances Who'd've guessed being a social irl would have such a positive impact 😅 I do hope it had a nice day too Anyway, time to crash for the night Goodnight all 💕

Went through there again on my way to hang out with a very sweet doll today Couldn't take pictures of everything there because there were so many outfits, and a bit too many people But really cool outfits, and some really good reading info Unrelated fun fact, I've now had a decent tasting coffee 😌